Broken Lungs
Mirror mirror tell me something, who's the loneliest of all?
"No please! Leave him alone, Alex! I'll do anything!" I begged him as tears streamed down my face.
"Mel, no, don't!" Ashley yelled trying to move towards me with panic but was yanked back by his hair.
"Oh really, Mel? You care for his life that fucking much when you never did for mine even before you left me?" he spat back at me point his knife towards me.
"Please, Alex, I always cared for you. If you don't recall, I remember putting you before my own mother at times when she's needed me. I gave you Everything" I said to him as I tried sneakingly ripping the tape from my wrists behind my back.
"No you didn't. If you cared, then you never would have left me in the first place. That, and you would've given me your virginity willingly instead of me having to take it forcefully" he said walking towards me lightly placing the blade against my jaw. My heart was racing at this point but I'd rather he'd take my life than Ashley's.
'This is all your fault he's even in this mess in the first place, you foolish little girl' the voice spoke in my head now ringing in my ears.
'All my fault..' I thought to myself as my vision blurred with tears again.
"You were still the one to take it anyways. I did things for you that I never wanted to, that I never felt comfortable doing, that you later on made me feel like shit for. You know why? Because I fucking cared for you and wanted to do anything that made you happy. I always put your happiness over my own or anyone else's. That's how much you meant to me, but sad to say died with the rest of my hopes after you chased my friends off and started physically hurting me" I said looking him in his eyes that were now full of rage.
"Well, Mel, I'm sorry but why should I give you any sort of happiness now? If anything, I think I'll just take it from you, like you did with me" he said dragging the tip of his blade in a small line on my neck. I squeezed my eyes shut wincing internally, wishing none of this happened.
"NO, STOP! LEAVE HER ALONE!" Ashley yelled attempting to make his way to me again tugging at the beam he was taped to.
"Ashley, don't" I said to him as I shook my head and mouthed 'I love you'. Alex pulled the knife away and grasping my face with his hands and placing a forceful kiss upon my lips as a tear slipped from his eye.
"You should have just stayed with me Mel. You should have Never stopped loving me, I never stopped loving you. You love this pretty boy over me now. This is unacceptable, Mel. If I can't have you, no one can. Especially not him" he said throwing me to the ground and quickly making his way over to Ashley again grabbing him by his hair and holding the tip of his blade against his chest over his heart.
"NO ALEX, PLEASE DON'T HURT HIM! LET HIM GO AND I'LL STAY WITH YOU THIS TIME, I SWEAR!" I yelled to him pleading as I started sobbing.
"Too late, Melissa. You should've thought about that before you left and locked me in that room" he said bringing his arm with the knife in his hand up into the air ready to lunge it down right into Ashley's heart.
"I love you Mel, I'm sorry I failed to keep you safe. Please forgive me" Ashley said as a few tears spilled from his eyes and Alex swinging the blade down into his chest.
"NO! ASHLEY!"
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My eyes flew open as I felt myself panting and my heart beating heavily against my chest. I looked around and saw I was still in the plane. I looked out the window on my left seeing us still up in the clouds.
"Oh thank god, it was just a dream. Just a dream" I muttered to myself running my fingers through my hair and sitting back.
"Mel, are you okay?" I snapped my head towards Ashley sitting next to me on my right looking at me somewhat worried. I sighed in relief and nodded lunging towards him and wrapping my arms around his neck tightly.
"I'm fine Ash, thank god you're okay too" I said faintly and sighed as I let go and pulled back a little.
"Of course I'm okay, sweetheart. Are you sure you're fine?" he asked brushing my hair behind my ear with one hand and gently rubbing my back with the other. I nodded and gave a light smile.
"Yeah, I'm positive Ashes. Just had a bad dream is all, don't worry" I said reassuringly as I hugged him again and he hugged me back tightly.
"Do you want to talk about it?" he asked letting me go and looking into my eyes.
"Honestly, not really, I don't even want to think about it again. I'm sorry" I said shaking my head.
"No, Mel, it's completely fine. I won't make you do something you don't want to or not comfortable with, okay?" he asked me holding my hand. I nodded and smiled at him as he smiled at me and put his arm around my shoulder letting me lay my head against him.
"We should be there soon, Mel" he said rubbing my arm soothingly.
"Okay" I said. I was excited to see my mom, it's been so long. I felt myself growing tired again but didn't want to sleep again. I was terrified of what my mind would come up with next if I were to fall asleep again. It's bad enough I couldn't stop thinking of the dream I just had. Alex already hurt my mother, I didn't want him hurting Ashley too. Maybe coming down here was a bad idea. I felt my head starting to spin and my heart was beating so heavily again I could hear it in my ears. I unbuckled my seatbelt and got up from my seat.
"I'll be right back Ash, I have to use the bathroom" I said giving a fake smile causing him to give me a hesitant look but sighed and nodded. I quickly made my way up the small aisle to the bathroom and saw the lock said it was open. I opened the door gently closing it behind me and locked it. What if we run into Alex in Dallas and he recognizes me and follows us? What if he tries to hurt my mom again? What if he comes after Ashley next? What if he tries to hurt one of the other guys or even Jess? I could never forgive myself if anything happened to any of them.
I turned the sink on, cupping my hands together filling them with water and splashing it in my face.
'Just calm down Melissa, calm down. It was just a dream, the police will catch him and he'll be put away. He won't find you, he can't. But.. what if he does? He could hurt someone, again, or maybe even kill them. Like in your dream.' I thought to myself feeling the small room around my spinning and my head started pounding.
"Stop it, don't think about it" I muttered to myself as I turned the sink off and instantly felt my stomach drop. I moved over to the toilet, lifting the lid and hovering over it as I vomited once again. After puking for a few minutes I got back up flushing the sickness and going back to the sinking turning the water back on. I cupped the water in my hand again sipping it into my mouth and swallowing it. My throat hurt from getting so sick but if I stayed in here any longer then Ash would get really worried and I don't need him seeing my like this again. I wiped my mouth and blinked away the tears that threatened my eyes. I unlocked the door, turning the light off and made my way back to Ashley sitting next to him again.
"You okay?" he asked worriedly.
"Yeah, just got a little airsick is all, I feel better now though" I said giving a small smile and resting my head against his shoulder.
"Good, I'll have a flight attendant come over and see if they can bring you a sprite to help your stomach" he said as he ran his fingers through my hair and pressing the attendant button. I nodded and moved a little closer to him. A few seconds later a young woman came by asking if we needed anything. I then remembered that the phone case I had was the one Alex got me. I quickly got it out of my tote bag while Ashley was asking for my drink from the flight attendant and took the case off throwing it back in the bag.
"Okay, thank you. She'll be back with it in just a minute" he said turning back to me as she walked away and I nodded.
"Okay, thank you Ashes, for everything" I said as he continued running his fingers through my hair.
"Of course, anything for you, Mel" he said lightly kissing the top of my head.
"Mel, no, don't!" Ashley yelled trying to move towards me with panic but was yanked back by his hair.
"Oh really, Mel? You care for his life that fucking much when you never did for mine even before you left me?" he spat back at me point his knife towards me.
"Please, Alex, I always cared for you. If you don't recall, I remember putting you before my own mother at times when she's needed me. I gave you Everything" I said to him as I tried sneakingly ripping the tape from my wrists behind my back.
"No you didn't. If you cared, then you never would have left me in the first place. That, and you would've given me your virginity willingly instead of me having to take it forcefully" he said walking towards me lightly placing the blade against my jaw. My heart was racing at this point but I'd rather he'd take my life than Ashley's.
'This is all your fault he's even in this mess in the first place, you foolish little girl' the voice spoke in my head now ringing in my ears.
'All my fault..' I thought to myself as my vision blurred with tears again.
"You were still the one to take it anyways. I did things for you that I never wanted to, that I never felt comfortable doing, that you later on made me feel like shit for. You know why? Because I fucking cared for you and wanted to do anything that made you happy. I always put your happiness over my own or anyone else's. That's how much you meant to me, but sad to say died with the rest of my hopes after you chased my friends off and started physically hurting me" I said looking him in his eyes that were now full of rage.
"Well, Mel, I'm sorry but why should I give you any sort of happiness now? If anything, I think I'll just take it from you, like you did with me" he said dragging the tip of his blade in a small line on my neck. I squeezed my eyes shut wincing internally, wishing none of this happened.
"NO, STOP! LEAVE HER ALONE!" Ashley yelled attempting to make his way to me again tugging at the beam he was taped to.
"Ashley, don't" I said to him as I shook my head and mouthed 'I love you'. Alex pulled the knife away and grasping my face with his hands and placing a forceful kiss upon my lips as a tear slipped from his eye.
"You should have just stayed with me Mel. You should have Never stopped loving me, I never stopped loving you. You love this pretty boy over me now. This is unacceptable, Mel. If I can't have you, no one can. Especially not him" he said throwing me to the ground and quickly making his way over to Ashley again grabbing him by his hair and holding the tip of his blade against his chest over his heart.
"NO ALEX, PLEASE DON'T HURT HIM! LET HIM GO AND I'LL STAY WITH YOU THIS TIME, I SWEAR!" I yelled to him pleading as I started sobbing.
"Too late, Melissa. You should've thought about that before you left and locked me in that room" he said bringing his arm with the knife in his hand up into the air ready to lunge it down right into Ashley's heart.
"I love you Mel, I'm sorry I failed to keep you safe. Please forgive me" Ashley said as a few tears spilled from his eyes and Alex swinging the blade down into his chest.
"NO! ASHLEY!"
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My eyes flew open as I felt myself panting and my heart beating heavily against my chest. I looked around and saw I was still in the plane. I looked out the window on my left seeing us still up in the clouds.
"Oh thank god, it was just a dream. Just a dream" I muttered to myself running my fingers through my hair and sitting back.
"Mel, are you okay?" I snapped my head towards Ashley sitting next to me on my right looking at me somewhat worried. I sighed in relief and nodded lunging towards him and wrapping my arms around his neck tightly.
"I'm fine Ash, thank god you're okay too" I said faintly and sighed as I let go and pulled back a little.
"Of course I'm okay, sweetheart. Are you sure you're fine?" he asked brushing my hair behind my ear with one hand and gently rubbing my back with the other. I nodded and gave a light smile.
"Yeah, I'm positive Ashes. Just had a bad dream is all, don't worry" I said reassuringly as I hugged him again and he hugged me back tightly.
"Do you want to talk about it?" he asked letting me go and looking into my eyes.
"Honestly, not really, I don't even want to think about it again. I'm sorry" I said shaking my head.
"No, Mel, it's completely fine. I won't make you do something you don't want to or not comfortable with, okay?" he asked me holding my hand. I nodded and smiled at him as he smiled at me and put his arm around my shoulder letting me lay my head against him.
"We should be there soon, Mel" he said rubbing my arm soothingly.
"Okay" I said. I was excited to see my mom, it's been so long. I felt myself growing tired again but didn't want to sleep again. I was terrified of what my mind would come up with next if I were to fall asleep again. It's bad enough I couldn't stop thinking of the dream I just had. Alex already hurt my mother, I didn't want him hurting Ashley too. Maybe coming down here was a bad idea. I felt my head starting to spin and my heart was beating so heavily again I could hear it in my ears. I unbuckled my seatbelt and got up from my seat.
"I'll be right back Ash, I have to use the bathroom" I said giving a fake smile causing him to give me a hesitant look but sighed and nodded. I quickly made my way up the small aisle to the bathroom and saw the lock said it was open. I opened the door gently closing it behind me and locked it. What if we run into Alex in Dallas and he recognizes me and follows us? What if he tries to hurt my mom again? What if he comes after Ashley next? What if he tries to hurt one of the other guys or even Jess? I could never forgive myself if anything happened to any of them.
I turned the sink on, cupping my hands together filling them with water and splashing it in my face.
'Just calm down Melissa, calm down. It was just a dream, the police will catch him and he'll be put away. He won't find you, he can't. But.. what if he does? He could hurt someone, again, or maybe even kill them. Like in your dream.' I thought to myself feeling the small room around my spinning and my head started pounding.
"Stop it, don't think about it" I muttered to myself as I turned the sink off and instantly felt my stomach drop. I moved over to the toilet, lifting the lid and hovering over it as I vomited once again. After puking for a few minutes I got back up flushing the sickness and going back to the sinking turning the water back on. I cupped the water in my hand again sipping it into my mouth and swallowing it. My throat hurt from getting so sick but if I stayed in here any longer then Ash would get really worried and I don't need him seeing my like this again. I wiped my mouth and blinked away the tears that threatened my eyes. I unlocked the door, turning the light off and made my way back to Ashley sitting next to him again.
"You okay?" he asked worriedly.
"Yeah, just got a little airsick is all, I feel better now though" I said giving a small smile and resting my head against his shoulder.
"Good, I'll have a flight attendant come over and see if they can bring you a sprite to help your stomach" he said as he ran his fingers through my hair and pressing the attendant button. I nodded and moved a little closer to him. A few seconds later a young woman came by asking if we needed anything. I then remembered that the phone case I had was the one Alex got me. I quickly got it out of my tote bag while Ashley was asking for my drink from the flight attendant and took the case off throwing it back in the bag.
"Okay, thank you. She'll be back with it in just a minute" he said turning back to me as she walked away and I nodded.
"Okay, thank you Ashes, for everything" I said as he continued running his fingers through my hair.
"Of course, anything for you, Mel" he said lightly kissing the top of my head.
Notes
Title credit goes to: Mirror Mirror by Jeff Williams feat. Casey Lee Willams.From the animated series Rwby "White" Trailer.
If you're interested in watching it, here's the link:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Vt9vl8iAN5Q
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7/22/15