Nonstop To Nowhere - Fallen Angel (Tome I)
Why there is so much blood …?
Skylar P.O.V
M I A M I, A U T O M N E - 2 0 1 4
I lived with Jenny for a month now. I missed Warsaw and Mike, but I knew it was the best for me and my baby. I finally accepted the fact that I was going to become a mother, even if it would be quite complicated for me being a single mother and being only a 23 years old girl.
I had refused to talk about it to Jenny because I was afraid of her reaction, even if I knew she would support me regardless of my choices, I must admit that I was a little ashamed to confide to her that Mike was the father of this baby.
My body didn't really change, my belly was almost not fattened, which allowed me to continue to dress as before avoiding Jen's suspicions. On the other hand, I didn't have my period anymore and I must admit that it's something which makes me so damn happy !
Being pregnant is something really strange, because even though I was only a month and a half pregnant, I felt the presence of my baby, which was more of an embryo than a baby and therefore weighed only a few grams. I often imagined what she could look like. Yes, I said "she" because I will so much love that she'll be a little girl !
Anyways, that's what it summed up my life and dreams. However, that night I couldn't sleep, I had stomach cramps all the time, so I didn't know what position and what painkillers I should take.
The morning of that night ended me. I had finally escaped from Mike and life seemed to smile back to me again. You'd think that all this was just pure utopia.
Like every morning, I got up to go shower. However, something had changed. Naked, facing the mirror of the bathroom, I observed my belly. Something was really wrong, I didn't feel anything in me, I couldn't feel her presence anymore. As I reflexively put my hand on my abdomen, I was seized again with a violent cramp, so that I had to bend to the ground so that the pain would fade a little.
I was about to get up once the pain had passed, when I saw a puddle of blood around me. Jenny's voice was heard through the bathroom door, stopping me in my trance and misunderstanding.
- Sky? Is everything fine ? She asked with a hint of worry in her voice.
- Go away ! I screamed in tears.
- Skylar opens! Please ! What is happening ? Pursued my best friend trying to open the door.
Reflexively, I took the towel from the towel holder and began to mop up the blood that was around me. I felt weak, empty, dead on the inside. I didn't understand what was going on.
The door finally gave way after Jenny kicked in the door. I was curled up on the floor, naked, with blood spread all around me that I tried somehow to mop. Jenny was shocked at the sight of all the blood and remain motionless, unable to move.
- Why there is so much blood...? I asked, looking at my friend's eyes filled with tears.
Jenny then rushed towards me, looking at my wrists to find the cut that would explain the presence of all this blood, but in vain. She looked at me in shock, not understanding where it came from. No cut was present that could justify a possible suicide attempt, only a few bruises were present on my bruised body.
Jen was livid at the sight of all this blood. However, there wasn't only blood. There was also that tiny little creature of only a few centimeters, drowned in that pool of blood she hadn't noticed.
- I have to take you to the hospital. Then said Jen' in panic.
- No Jen ', please... It will not change anything. I replied weakly, looking straight into her eyes.
- But what happens then ? Why there is so much blood?
- I lost my baby Jen '... I breathed up, raising my thighs where my baby was, letting out a few tears.
***
Jen' had helped me mop up all that blood, put my baby in a tiny box and wash me. We were both silent, shocked, traumatized, and for me dead from the inside. Mike had managed to kill me.
I remember lying on the couch, a blanket on my back, crying my baby that I had just lost. She had, however, survived the punch, so why did she have to stop living now that everything seemed to be in order?
Someone knocked on the door and Jenny got up from the couch with a sigh to open. Opening the door, Cassie's cheerful head with a bottle of wine in her hand was standing in front of the entrance, probably to cheer me up. I had decided to put Cassie on the forefront of Mike's story for the simple reason that she was like a sister to me. Jenny and Cassie were the sisters I had never had, and since that day she was doing everything to make me forget this story. However, like Jenny, she was not aware of my pregnancy.
I saw Jen go out and close the door behind her, probably to talk to Cassie about our mishap. A few minutes later, Cassie, returned to the apartment, advising Jenny to rest, before joining me on the couch.
- Jenny tell me what happened. I think it's time for you to tell us what you failed to tell us. She said taking my hands gently.
- I ... I do pregnancy denial for a month and a half and I finally ended up accepting that I was going to have a child and ... In the night, I had many contractions ... Just now, when I got up, I didn't feel this presence in my belly and before I even understood why ... I ... There was some blood everywhere ... But if only there had been only that ...
I stopped and put my hand on my mouth, escaping other tears. Cassie realized what I had insinuated, because I saw a tear slide down her cheek.
- Why me Cassie? If only I had ... I said trying myself on the couch.
- Don't blame yourself, you don't know what happened, it's not your fault, but it is absolutely necessary that you go to see a doctor! She answered, taking my hands.
- No, I don't want !
- Skylar, it's for your health, you lost a lot of blood! She added worriedly.
I finally capitulated after debating for a good half an hour. Cassie took me to the hospital and after three long hours of waiting in the waiting room, a young woman of thirty years old dressed in a white blouse and a stethoscope around her neck, came to greet us. We headed to her office. Once seated, Cassie explained what had happened a few hours ago. I was unable to speak, still shocked by what I had just experienced.
- You can change, I will examine you and take a blood test. Told me Dr. Marasquin.
I performed and she told me that nothing felt abnormal, apart the fact that I had bruises all over the body and I lost a lot of blood.
- Can I see your friend aside for a few minutes, please? Asked the doctor, turning to Cassie.
- Of course. Replied my friend, getting up and leaving the room.
- Miss Grange, I have to ask you something very delicate, but you have to be honest with me?
- Hum ... what do you want? I answered weakly.
- Is your partner violent with you?
- I am single so it is not possible. I answered, lowering my head.
The young woman looked at me sadly and lifted her shirt revealing a bruise at the odds. I remained motionless, speechless. So I wasn't alone?
- I too had a monster like yours in my life and today he is in prison. I know how hard it is, but you have to talk to someones around you so they can help you. Your outside friend can help you manage all this, but you have to talk about it. You are so stressed and scared that your baby has not borne the shock.
- She knows and Mike and in prison more than 2,000 miles from here in Poland.
- In this case, if you want to talk about your problem with someone neutral, here is my number, call me as soon as you want.
I didn't answer, I didn't want to talk to anyone about it. Dr. Marasquin accompanied me, insisting that for two days I had to stay in bed because I was too weak to do anything else and to be totally frank with you, I had no desire to do anything.
I then joined Cassie who was drinking coffee at a table. She was trying just like Jenny to be strong by my side but I knew they were going wrong, especially Jen who had lived the same horror scene as me. When she saw me arriving she asked me if everything went well, to which I replied that it will take me a long time to recover, but that I counted on her and Jenny to make me feel better.
- We'll always be there for you, you can be sure.
- Thank you for being here. I say, hugging her.
M I A M I, A U T O M N E - 2 0 1 4
I lived with Jenny for a month now. I missed Warsaw and Mike, but I knew it was the best for me and my baby. I finally accepted the fact that I was going to become a mother, even if it would be quite complicated for me being a single mother and being only a 23 years old girl.
I had refused to talk about it to Jenny because I was afraid of her reaction, even if I knew she would support me regardless of my choices, I must admit that I was a little ashamed to confide to her that Mike was the father of this baby.
My body didn't really change, my belly was almost not fattened, which allowed me to continue to dress as before avoiding Jen's suspicions. On the other hand, I didn't have my period anymore and I must admit that it's something which makes me so damn happy !
Being pregnant is something really strange, because even though I was only a month and a half pregnant, I felt the presence of my baby, which was more of an embryo than a baby and therefore weighed only a few grams. I often imagined what she could look like. Yes, I said "she" because I will so much love that she'll be a little girl !
Anyways, that's what it summed up my life and dreams. However, that night I couldn't sleep, I had stomach cramps all the time, so I didn't know what position and what painkillers I should take.
The morning of that night ended me. I had finally escaped from Mike and life seemed to smile back to me again. You'd think that all this was just pure utopia.
Like every morning, I got up to go shower. However, something had changed. Naked, facing the mirror of the bathroom, I observed my belly. Something was really wrong, I didn't feel anything in me, I couldn't feel her presence anymore. As I reflexively put my hand on my abdomen, I was seized again with a violent cramp, so that I had to bend to the ground so that the pain would fade a little.
I was about to get up once the pain had passed, when I saw a puddle of blood around me. Jenny's voice was heard through the bathroom door, stopping me in my trance and misunderstanding.
- Sky? Is everything fine ? She asked with a hint of worry in her voice.
- Go away ! I screamed in tears.
- Skylar opens! Please ! What is happening ? Pursued my best friend trying to open the door.
Reflexively, I took the towel from the towel holder and began to mop up the blood that was around me. I felt weak, empty, dead on the inside. I didn't understand what was going on.
The door finally gave way after Jenny kicked in the door. I was curled up on the floor, naked, with blood spread all around me that I tried somehow to mop. Jenny was shocked at the sight of all the blood and remain motionless, unable to move.
- Why there is so much blood...? I asked, looking at my friend's eyes filled with tears.
Jenny then rushed towards me, looking at my wrists to find the cut that would explain the presence of all this blood, but in vain. She looked at me in shock, not understanding where it came from. No cut was present that could justify a possible suicide attempt, only a few bruises were present on my bruised body.
Jen was livid at the sight of all this blood. However, there wasn't only blood. There was also that tiny little creature of only a few centimeters, drowned in that pool of blood she hadn't noticed.
- I have to take you to the hospital. Then said Jen' in panic.
- No Jen ', please... It will not change anything. I replied weakly, looking straight into her eyes.
- But what happens then ? Why there is so much blood?
- I lost my baby Jen '... I breathed up, raising my thighs where my baby was, letting out a few tears.
***
Jen' had helped me mop up all that blood, put my baby in a tiny box and wash me. We were both silent, shocked, traumatized, and for me dead from the inside. Mike had managed to kill me.
I remember lying on the couch, a blanket on my back, crying my baby that I had just lost. She had, however, survived the punch, so why did she have to stop living now that everything seemed to be in order?
Someone knocked on the door and Jenny got up from the couch with a sigh to open. Opening the door, Cassie's cheerful head with a bottle of wine in her hand was standing in front of the entrance, probably to cheer me up. I had decided to put Cassie on the forefront of Mike's story for the simple reason that she was like a sister to me. Jenny and Cassie were the sisters I had never had, and since that day she was doing everything to make me forget this story. However, like Jenny, she was not aware of my pregnancy.
I saw Jen go out and close the door behind her, probably to talk to Cassie about our mishap. A few minutes later, Cassie, returned to the apartment, advising Jenny to rest, before joining me on the couch.
- Jenny tell me what happened. I think it's time for you to tell us what you failed to tell us. She said taking my hands gently.
- I ... I do pregnancy denial for a month and a half and I finally ended up accepting that I was going to have a child and ... In the night, I had many contractions ... Just now, when I got up, I didn't feel this presence in my belly and before I even understood why ... I ... There was some blood everywhere ... But if only there had been only that ...
I stopped and put my hand on my mouth, escaping other tears. Cassie realized what I had insinuated, because I saw a tear slide down her cheek.
- Why me Cassie? If only I had ... I said trying myself on the couch.
- Don't blame yourself, you don't know what happened, it's not your fault, but it is absolutely necessary that you go to see a doctor! She answered, taking my hands.
- No, I don't want !
- Skylar, it's for your health, you lost a lot of blood! She added worriedly.
I finally capitulated after debating for a good half an hour. Cassie took me to the hospital and after three long hours of waiting in the waiting room, a young woman of thirty years old dressed in a white blouse and a stethoscope around her neck, came to greet us. We headed to her office. Once seated, Cassie explained what had happened a few hours ago. I was unable to speak, still shocked by what I had just experienced.
- You can change, I will examine you and take a blood test. Told me Dr. Marasquin.
I performed and she told me that nothing felt abnormal, apart the fact that I had bruises all over the body and I lost a lot of blood.
- Can I see your friend aside for a few minutes, please? Asked the doctor, turning to Cassie.
- Of course. Replied my friend, getting up and leaving the room.
- Miss Grange, I have to ask you something very delicate, but you have to be honest with me?
- Hum ... what do you want? I answered weakly.
- Is your partner violent with you?
- I am single so it is not possible. I answered, lowering my head.
The young woman looked at me sadly and lifted her shirt revealing a bruise at the odds. I remained motionless, speechless. So I wasn't alone?
- I too had a monster like yours in my life and today he is in prison. I know how hard it is, but you have to talk to someones around you so they can help you. Your outside friend can help you manage all this, but you have to talk about it. You are so stressed and scared that your baby has not borne the shock.
- She knows and Mike and in prison more than 2,000 miles from here in Poland.
- In this case, if you want to talk about your problem with someone neutral, here is my number, call me as soon as you want.
I didn't answer, I didn't want to talk to anyone about it. Dr. Marasquin accompanied me, insisting that for two days I had to stay in bed because I was too weak to do anything else and to be totally frank with you, I had no desire to do anything.
I then joined Cassie who was drinking coffee at a table. She was trying just like Jenny to be strong by my side but I knew they were going wrong, especially Jen who had lived the same horror scene as me. When she saw me arriving she asked me if everything went well, to which I replied that it will take me a long time to recover, but that I counted on her and Jenny to make me feel better.
- We'll always be there for you, you can be sure.
- Thank you for being here. I say, hugging her.
Notes
Alright, that's a very disturbing chapter that I admit I had a hard time writing.
Anyway I hope like it !
@Red Phoenix77
Yeah I know too and that's true, that's absolutely not cool. Anyways, thank you to tell it to me because it could have been the case but don't worry it's all my works.
6/13/18