"Shh. L. It's me." Andy's voice only caused her racing heart to beat more wildly, in counterpoint to the rain pounding on the roof of the stable.

"Andy?" she whispered as he lowered his hand and let it rest against her cheek. She tried to ignore the feel of his fingers, warm pads that burned through her skin.

"What - What are you doing here?"

"I was supposed to meet Abi."

L.K's heart dropped like a stone. "But she was with you - at the party."

"I dropped her off a couple of hours ago. Downtown where she'd parked her car. She and I met earlier - I don't think she wanted me rollin' in here on the Harley to pick her up or bring her home."

"Why not?"

"She said she got in a fight with Alex. Seems as if your brother has some bone to pick with me. Threatened Abi and even your old man agreed that she shouldn't be with me."

"But she went anyway."

"Yep. Snuck out of the house with some flimsy excuse about going over to the Scodelarios' early, then met me downtown."

"And you went along with it." She noticed a muscle work in the corner of his jaw.

"Your sister . . . she can be pretty convincing."

"So you're not immune after all."

"I just like to get the best of the rich boy."

L.K felt as if a ball of lead had settled deep in her stomach. She tried to pull away from him, but his fingers, still holding fast to the back of her head, only dug deeper.

She tried to hide the pain in her voice. "Abi's not home yet and Alex's on the warpath."

"Against me?"

"It's no joke, Andy. He's got a gun and he's convinced himself that he's doing everyone, including Abi and the rest of the town, a favor by . . . by-"

"What?"

"By killing you."

"Spoiled-boy theatrics," Andy predicted. "Don't worry about him."

"He was serious," she said, her heart hammering in fear. "Believe me, he'll kill you."

"Just let him try it." He sighed. "So where's Abi?"

"You need her for something?"

"Hell, no," he said, then caught himself short. "She told me to meet her here."

"In the stable?"

"That's what she said. Trouble is I'm a little late 'cause Jimmy Sanchez wanted a piece of my hide. Seems like I'm a popular guy tonight."

"Alex means business."

"So did Jimmy."

He didn't seem to understand. From what little she could see of him, the contours of his face illuminated by the pale light filtering through the windows, he wasn't too concerned about her brother, though there were trace =s of blood on his forehead from his fight with Jimmy.

"Look, Andy," she said, still aware he was touching her. "Alex's been drinking and he can be real mean when he's drunk. You should stay away from him."

"Maybe someone needs to teach him a lesson."

"No. It won't work. Other people have tried." She shook her head violently and wished there was some way to convince him that he was in danger.

"Alex is more than mean. Sometimes . . . sometimes I think he likes to hurt people. He gets off on it."

"Time to change that."

"No. Not you. Not tonight." Desperate, she grabbed him by both arms. "Go home - or no, go somewhere safe, somewhere far away. Let Alex sober up."

"So that he can nail me the next time he has a few too many?"

"Until he finds someone else to pick on."

"Like who? You?" he asked, and her head jerked up.

"I can handle myself."

"But I can't?" Mockery invaded his words and she felt foolish and young, a girl caught up in adult emotions.

"Alex . . . he cares about me. He wouldn't hurt me. Even if he didn't like me, he's afraid of Dad, of what he would do if he found out Alex was bothering me."

"Or Abi?" Andy asked, his voice low.

"Or Abi. Dad . . . he would protect us." It hurt the way he talked about Abi. "Why did you agree to meet her here?"

"I shouldn't have," he said on a sigh. "But she was . . ." His voice faded. " . . . scared."

"Of what?"

"I don't know."

"Maybe she was faking it," L.K said. She knew her older sister pretty well, and though she didn't completely understand what made Abi tick these days, L.K was certain that Abigail Mary Bale hadn't been really frightened of anything in her life.

"Maybe." Andy didn't sound convinced, and the silence stretched between them with the rain pattering on the roof and the warm smell of horses filling the air.

"What're you doing out here?"

"I - I thought I'd go for a ride."

"In the middle of the night? In the rain?" He didn't bother hiding his skepticism. "That's crazy. Even for you."

"I-"

"You what?" he asked, and his face was so close that his breath, smoky and hot, caressed her face.

"I was going to go looking for you," she admitted, realizing that she was still touching him, her hands were still around his arms, and he'd stepped closer, bridging the small distance between them.

"For me?"

"To warn you. About Alex."

"I can handle Alex."

"I told you - he . . . he's got a gun." His hand moved closer to her neck, and her bare skin tingled where the tips of his fingers grazed her throat.

"So you were going to try and protect me." His voice was low. Sexy.

"He's dangerous." He was so close, she could barely breathe. Her heartbeat thundered in her ears.

"So are you."

Tilting up her chin with one long finger, he kissed her, and in that second's time she melted inside. His tongue invaded her mouth, and she willingly opened to him, like a flower to the sun. His arms surrounded her and her knees buckled, her bones turned liquid. His mouth was hard and hungry and eager.

She was hot, so hot, and his hands only fueled the fire that buried beneath her skin. Love me, she silently cried, please Andy, love me. She pressed hard against him, wanting more, knowing that only his touch would salve the desire that brought sweat to her spine. Anxiously he peeled away for her shirt, and she fumbled with the buttons of his. The tops of her breasts bulged over her bra, to rub against the springy hairs on his chest.

"L.K," he whispered, his voice strangled as if he wanted to stop but couldn't find the strength. He unlatched her bra and her breasts spilled into his waiting, callused hands.

"L.K, sweet, sweet, L.K."

Lowering himself to his knees, he pressed wet kisses against her skin. Deep inside she began to ache. A moan sprang from her lips. She tangled her hands through his hair and held him close to her. His breath fanned her lips before kissing her again and her legs turned into water. The ache became a dusky want that throbbed in her chest.

She felt the button of her skinny jeans give way and heard the series of pops as her fly opened willingly in his hands. The ragged shorts dropped to the floor, and Andy buried his face in her abdomen, his breath searing her skin.

"God, I want you," he said, his voice throaty, his lips wet and filled with promise as they brushed so intimately against her skin, against the silk. His hot breath invaded the frail barrier of her panties and she quivered inside.

Her heart soared. "I - I want you, Andy."

"No!" he rasped. "You don't even know what you want; you're . . . you're . . . God, you're only sixteen!"

"Just love me."

"I . . . I . . . can't."

He dropped his hands and threw back his head, squeezing his eyes shut. Shuddering, he took deep gulps of air, as in if so doing he could tamp down the desire thundering through his blood.

"Because of Abi," she said.

"What? Abi?" His eyes flew open. "No-" Then he caught himself.

"No?" she asked, hardly daring to believe that he would deny her. She was offering herself, her virginity, her love, and Abi stood in the way. Tears of shame threatened her eyes.

"She has nothing to do with this."

"But you said you and she slept to-"

"I lied," he admitted, shoving his hair away from his face impatiently and pressed his forehead against hers. "I lied. So that you'd leave me alone."

"But I saw you together, by the pool-"

"You saw what you wanted to see."

Desperately she yearned to believe him. With all her heart, she needed to trust those words. She slid to her knees, and taking his face between her hands, she kissed him, long and hard.

"Don't do this, L," he warned.

But she didn't stop. Her fingers ran down the sinewy muscles in his arms, pushing off his shirt before exploring the taut waist board of his ribs. He groaned, swore under his breath and then gathered her into his arms and kissed her as if his life depended upon it. They tumbled to the hay-strewn floor. No more holding back, no more tremors of denial. He took what she so willingly offered. He traced her navel with his tongue, pushing her onto her back. She quivered, liquid heat swirling inside her. Her skin was on fire, and she couldn't think of anything save the urgent need of his body melding with hers.

He ripped off her panties and tossed them into the corner, then kicked off his boots and jeans. Her blood pumped wild as he moved and she writhed, anxious for more, wanting something she couldn't name, breathing his name in short quick gasps. Suddenly, he was above her, naked, hot, hard and sweating.

She looked straight into his darkened eyes.

"Tell me no," he begged, his breath uneven, his lips drawn back against his teeth in frustration.

"I can't."

"For God's sake, L.K-"

"Andy, I love you."

"Don't-"

"I'll always love you."

His face twisted in torment. "L . . . I can't make any promises. Oh, hell. I should be shot for this."

Sweeping her legs apart with his knees, he gave in to the desire she saw in the bulge of veins in his neck.

"No-" he ground out as his body reacted and delved deep into her, breaking past the barriers of her childhood, making her a woman. "No! No! No!"

Her breath caught in a split second of pain and she felt a rending, not of flesh, but of the adolescence she so willingly gave up. She clung to him as he moved, slowly at first, making her dizzy, causing her breath to catch at the back of her throat, creating a kaleidoscope of colors whirling through her rhythm. Perspiration fused their bodies, moans of pleasure passed her lips. Faster and faster the world seemed to spin, and suddenly the moon and the sun and the stars above the stable shattered in a flash of light that electrified the night.

She convulsed and he caught her. "Andy!" she cried against his lips, clutching him and whispering in a voice she didn't recognize as her own before falling damp and spent against the floor.

"L-" he cried as he shuddered and fell against her. He lay there, breathing deeply, his sweat mingling with hers, his arms protectively around her. His heart was still knocking wildly, his breathing not yet slowed when he rose up on his elbows and stared down at her with tortured eyes. Swallowing hard, he brushed a strand of hair from her cheek as he gave her another slight kiss.

For a few seconds all she head was the sigh of the wind, the rapid drumming of her heart and the rain pelting against the roof and walls. She snuggled against him, resting her head on his shoulder.

His muscles flexed. "Oh, Jesus, what have I done?" His voice was harsh with self-loathing and he sighed bitterly.

As if seeing her for the first time, he squeezed his eyes shut. "Damn, damn, damn!" He pounded the floor with his free fist.

"Andy-?" He acted as if something went wrong, as if he was disgusted with himself. With her.

Rolling to his feet, he grabbed his jeans and glared down at her so harshly that she wanted to shrink away.

"Nope," he said, disgust tainting his words as he yanked on his clothes. "I was wrong. Shooting's too good for me. I should be hung up by my balls."

He kicked furiously at a split bale of hay. "Shit, what was I thinking?"

"Andy-"

"You were a virgin," he accused, as if it were a sin.

"I - of course - I never. You knew-"

"Yes, but I didn't care. Sweet Jesus! A sixteen-year-old virgin!" Throwing back his head, he stared at the rafters. "I'm just a fool, L. A damned fool!"

Again he kicked, this time at an empty water pail, and it went reeling, noisily bouncing off the walls. Horses neighed nervously. "Hell, what a mistake!"

"Mistake?" she said, reeling afterglow fading and humiliation burning through her brain. She found her shirt and covered herself. She needn't have bothered, because he wasn't paying her any attention. Instead he was scowling out the window, frowning fiercely at the storm outside.

"You know, L, I didn't want this."

"You could have fooled me."

"I mean - I mean I did, and I didn't."

"That makes it clear," she snapped, wounded.

"It was a mistake."

"You keep saying that," she said, angry and shame surging through her veins.

"That's because I know."

"Know what?"

His smile was cold as he whipped his shirt from the hay and stuffed his arms through the sleeves. "What kind of a mess sex can lead to."

"It was more than sex."

"That's exactly what I'm talking about. It wasn't-"

She dropped her clothes and walked up to him stark naked. Placing a finger on his lips, she said, "Don't lie to me, Andy. I don't care whatever else you do, but don't lie."

"I'm not-"

"Bull!" She jerked her thumb toward her breastbone. "I was there, damn it. I know what it felt, what you felt." To her mortification, her voice broke.

"You have no idea. This was your first time, but it wasn't mine."

"Meaning?" She hardly dared to breathe, not sure wanting to hear.

His voice broke. "You'll have other orgasms, but I won't be the one giving them to you. This was just sex, L, nothing more. It'll happen with a dozen other guys-"

Her reaction was instantaneous. She drew back and slapped him. The smack ricocheted through the stable. "Never!"

"Like, hell." He rubbed his cheek and she saw the pain in his eyes, believe with all her naive heart that he was trying to be noble.

"Andy, I'm sorry. I didn't mean-"

"Of course you meant it. Just as you did before. Grow up, L.K," he said, striding toward the door. "But don't count on me to help you."

"It's because you love Abi, isn't it?" She felt so stupid and young - so naive.

Every muscle in his body flexed, and his spine was suddenly rigid. When he turned to face her, the lines on his face made him look ten years older.

"Abi's not the one I love," he said through clenched teeth.

"You'll get over this," he added, though his words lacked conviction.

"I won't."

"Sure you will. And someday when you're older, you'll marry someone with the same dreams you've got - someone your parents will approve of, someone who deserves you."

"Andy-"

"Don't make me a part of your silly little fantasies. It can't work."

She watched as he walked through the door and out of her life. A part of her - that foolish little girl part - seemed to wither and die as rain splashed and gurgled in the dusty gutters and horses pawed nervously in their stalls. L.K felt tears burn behind her eyes and she gathered up her clothes. What had she expected? Claims of her undying love? From Andy Biersack? She was a dreamer. Remember, he was here waiting for Abi.

She heard the engine of his Harley rev loudly. Grave; spun and the gears whined to an ear-shattering pitch before he shifted and the sound disappeared in the rain.

"Good riddance," she said, though she didn't mean a word of it. If he drove back this very minute, she'd end up kissing him and making love to him again.

Making love. She'd done it. Instead of her sister, she'd seduced Andy Biersack. The thought made her stomach sour. She stepped into her panties and thought about Abi. Where was she? Why had she wanted to meet Andy? As she snapped up her skinny jeans, she knew the answer. Abi had planned to seduce him again. Instead, her little sister had done the honors.

She blinked hard, buttoned her blouse and decided she couldn't think about it anymore. She loved Andy with all of her heart, but he would never want her.
However, Alex was still on the loose. With a gun. Her insides froze.

She pulled on her shoes, grabbed Red's bridle and, with the colt in tow, ran out of the stable. There was a movement in the shadows near the door, and she nearly screamed just as a car's engine rumbled closer and the beams of headlights bore down on her from the drive. Like a doe caught in the glare of a pickup's headlights, she froze. A care she didn't recognize jolted to a stop and her mother, half-stumbling, climbed out of the car.

"Thanks for the ride." She opened her umbrella as the car tore away, leaving her stumbling face-to-face with her daughter in the downpour.

"What do you think you're doing?"

She had to lie. "Just checking on Red."

"Hmm. 'Stha' so?" Martina was tipsy. "He looks fine to me and you're not s'pose to ride him. 'Specially not at night in the rain-" She plucked a piece of straw from L.K's hair and her lips pursed suspiciously.

L.K had no choice but to do what she was bid. Bit her heart was jack hammering as they headed toward the house.

"Is your father home?"

"No - just Alex, but he left." To shoot Andy. Please, God, keep him safe.

"Chris hasn't shown up?"

"No." Who cared about her father at a time like this? Andy was in danger!

"That lying son of a gun. You know what he did, don't you? Left me stranded at the Scodelarios' party. Claimed he was going for a smoke and then took off in the car. I've never been so mortified in my life. " She took the umbrella on the porch, walked into the foyer and nearly tripped on the bottom step.

"Well, I know where he is, and believe me, he'll catch hell in the morning. And you" - she turned to look over her shoulder - "run up to bed and go to sleep. It's late."

Right. And even now Alex could be hunting Andy down, taking aim and- Martina's eyes slitted. "Is som'thin' wrong?" She clicked open her purse and fumbled for her keys.

Everything! L.K's palms were slick with sweat. "No-"

"Then go to bed." Martina dropped the keys, then scooped them up. "I'll be back soon."

"Mom, you can't go now, you've had a lot to drink and-"

"And don't argue with me." Martina stiffened her back and tried to look sober.

"Where are you going?"

"To find your father."

"Why don't you just wait for him?" If Martina would just go upstairs and fall into alcohol-deep sleep, L.K could sneak out of the house and take after Andy.

Martina's face was suddenly drawn. "Because I'm tired of waiting," she said with a sad smile.

"I've waited for your father to do the right thing by me for a long time. I think it's time he knew it." Squaring her shoulders, she reached for the handle on the door. The keys jangled in her fingers.

"Don't wait up, sweetie," she said. "I don't know when I'll be back."

"Mom, don't! You can't drive like this-"

"Get out of my way, L.K. You hurry upstairs and go to bed." She sidestepped her daughter as L.K reached for the keys. In a few seconds she was gone.

L.K didn't waste any time. She knew what she had to do. No matter what the consequences.

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Abi walked through the open door of the old mill and smiled to herself. She'd seen his car; knew that he was waiting. So maybe the night wasn't completely lost. So things hadn't worked out with Andy . . . there was always her backup plan, though it certainly was not as solid.

"Helloooo . . ." she called, walking through the doorway, her voice echoing back at her. God, this place was creepy with its gaping, creaking roof and cobwebs and . . . and . . . the mess on the floor that looked like a bunch of feathers and crap from birds that had been nesting in the rafters.

She should have brought a flashlight. Or something.

Goose bumps rose on her flesh even though she was sweating; the temperature in this old mill was probably still well over eighty degrees.

"Hey . . . it's me. Are you here?" she said and then she saw him, lounging against the back wall, a dark figure in a dusky, cavernous room. She felt a second's relief before he moved toward her.

BAM!!

An explosion ripped through the old timbers.

Screaming, Abi flew backward and was thrown face down on the floor.

Crack! The back of her head collided with ancient, dusty floorboards. For a second the world spun and went black. She blinked hard, roused herself. She couldn't pass out. Not in the middle of this . . . this . . . oh, God, what was this? She struggled to her feet when she smelled the smoke and turned to find eager, hungry flames climbing up the walls, already blocking the main door and charring the old tinder-dry rafters.

"No!" she cried, scrambling backward, away from the black, lung-clogging smoke and wall of fire. She lost a shoe. Didn't care. She had to get out. Now! There were doors in the back of the building; she was sure of it.

Then she remembered. She wasn't alone. He could help. He'd save them. Whimpering, tears of fear streaming down her face, she ran to the spot where she'd seen him and found him lying crumpled on the floor.

"Come on, we have to get out of here," she cried, her voice shaking, panic gripping her in a stranglehold. "Hurry!"

He lay as he had been, not looking up at her.

"Please . . . ooohh . . ." she whimpered, biting her lip. "You have to be alright. We have to get out of here. There isn't much time." She looked over her shoulder and saw the terrifying spectacle. Crackling, cruel flames devouring everything in sight.

Bending on one knee, smoke curling around her, she reached for him.

"Hey!" she cried, but still he didn't move. She touched his shoulder, rolled him over, and fell backward screaming as she saw his face, a mangled, bloody mess, as if he'd been beaten to a pulp. Blood pooled on the floor, and she saw splatters against the wall where the blast had thrown him. Sightless open eyes stared blankly.

Gasping, coughing, she knew she had to leave him. She had no choice but to save herself. To save the baby.

Her lungs were on fire as she made her way toward the back rooms, where the trapped smoke had collected. She ripped off part of her dress, held it over her nose and mouth, remembered prayers she'd long forgotten as she eased through the blackness, bumping into poles, her eyes burning, blinded by the smoke.

There had to be another way out of here. Had to! oh, God, why had she agreed to meet him here? Why? It was foolish.

Think, Abi, think . . . you don't have time for this.

Frantically she rushed to the back room and tried to ignore the heat that radiated as if from a blast furnace. Coughing, gasping, stumbling, she moved deeper into the building, through smaller rooms that had once been offices . . . Where were the damned windows?

She saw none and she was panting now, terrified beyond belief. Surely she would get out. She had to. For herself. For the baby.

She smelled a new odor . . . burning flesh . . . and she threw up as she flashed back to the crumpled man on the floor. Sweet Jesus, the flames had reached him. He was being cremated in this burning hell.

Where was the damned door!

Then she saw it. Through the smoke . . . a change in the wall. Thank God! She threw herself at the old panels, found the knob. Her fingers burned as she turned the brass fixture and she yanked with all her might.

Nothing happened.


She tried again, threw all her weight into pulling the damned thing open.

It didn't budge.

Oh, no.

"Help!" she cried, coughing, banging on the door, hearing the first sounds of sirens in the air. "Help me! Now!" Her voice was pitiful against the roar of the flames, a scratchy, raw whimper.

She was coughing now, hacking and fighting to drag in air. She couldn't be dying. Not now. She was so young. Crying, screaming, pounding on the door, she prayed that someone would hear her . . . someone would save her . . .

Her knees buckled.

She had no air.

The heat was so intense she had to fight to keep from blacking out . . . she lifted a fist. Pounded again and noticed the flames, licking across the floor, creeping around her, circling that little spot where she stood.

"No!" she screamed, clutching her abdomen as she struggled for a last, searing breath and realized with a horrifying certainty that she was going to die.

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