Consume Me

When I was little, about 5 years old, my mom used to cry a lot. I didn't understand what was happening, all I could see is that my daddy has disappeared. "Mommy, where's daddy?" I would say all day long, and to that she would respond "Don't worry about dad" and her eyes would start tearing. I later learned that he died, in a car accident, that's when everything started to be hard.
My mom was not nice, she was actually doing a lot of drugs, and how many times did I come home to her being so drunk she couldn't walk. Growing up, I had to take care of her, I was the one cooking at home, and as soon as I could start working, I started paying the bills. We were living in an horrible house, I don't even know if we could call this a house, we had two bedrooms, a tiny bathroom and the living room and the kitchen was all in one. I didn't have a childhood, it was ruined by my mom. On top of that, I could take care of her as much as I wanted too, she would beat me, I remember trying to hide a black eye with concealer when I was 14, concealer I had stolen, of course.
My only good memory was Andy. I met Andy in highschool, I was 15 and he was too, we were born with a month of difference, I was a month older. He was my best friend and he still is. Today we are 18, he is in a band called Black Veil Brides and they are really successful, I am proud of them, I've seen them grow and I know them 5 so well, we are like a family. Andy is helping me paying my bills, I am still living with my mom, I am seriously thinking about leaving her though and helping the band, I want to work for them.
Oh, I forgot to introduce myself, my name is Lena Downhill.


"Lena? Where are you we've been waiting for you for an hour!" Andy is mad at me, I can feel his anger through the phone.
"I'm sorry, it's my mom, she... Anyway, I'm coming sorry.
-It's okay, don't worry" I hang up. I am always late when it comes to going to one of their show, Andy is used to that but he seems more pissed off than usual. I am sure he broke up with his girlfriend, I knew it was not doing fine between them. But let's not jump into conclusions, I should take off now.
I am walking to the concert, It's 10 mins away and I need to walk. My mom came home drunk again, but with a guy that is about my age, it's unacceptable for me, she is 32 and she has me, I don't want to see that. You know what, it's weird because I hate her really bad, but I love her at the same time, she could have abandoned me too but she didn't, and she is only 32, she had me at 15, she had a tough life too.

"I am here, sorry I am so late" I say as I enter the dressing room of the boys.
"Lena, I am so going to kill you" Yup. Andy is mad.
"But Andy, I have my mom do you remember?
-Yeah but you said you will be on time.
-You believe what I am saying now?" We both laugh, he come closer to me and gives me a big warm hug.
"I ain't mad Lena" He whispers in my ear.
I know Andy, but I like you so much, I can't stop thinking about you leaving me. If you leave me, I will be so lonely.

Notes

First chapter of my new story, You need to know that I prefer short chapters than long chapters, this was my lil disclaimer.