I'd Die For You

*Roku's POV*

I been sitting in the hospital everyday after school for a month now. Chris didn't even move once or show he was going to wake up. I was sitting at the side of his bed and holding his hand tightly in mine. Why did this have to happen to him? Why did he wait to tell me his feelings. It turned out that Chris loved me as much as I loved him. It was love at first sight and we hid it from each other and our friends. I really wish he was awake so I could tell him, but something told me it would be the waiting game for now. He was stable, and so at peace, but I wanted him to wake up. To open his brown eyes and look at me, but nothing yet. Everyone comes to visit him, but I'm the only one that stays the night. I mean I don't have a lover so I can stay and the guy I love is here.

"You know Roku, waiting for him to wake up is going to cause you to end up hurt more. You know he might now wake up. I been talking to his doctors and even if he did. Maybe he won't remember any of you." His father walked up to his son and kisses the top of Chris head before sitting down on the other side of the bed.

"He won't forget, you don't know your own kid. He's really strong and a good hearted person. He will be able to get out of all of this. Just give it time." I smiled at him and he smiled back at me.

"Thought you would stay that. I'm glad that Chris has you. I really am. You never let him down, even the first day you met he was happier then he was in the car here. He didn't want to live because he was afraid of what happen. Matt, Liz and them finding out he was the cause of Nick's death. But we told him over and over that it wasn't his fault. He never listen to any of us and would look at the house everytime we were near it, so we needed to get him away. I just hope that Kim would have forgave him and tell him it wasn't his fault, but she took us moving that everything was his fault. I should have stay home....." He just looked at his kid before me.
"This could have happen any time anywhere if she really wanted to get to him." I just hold Chris hand tighter, I wanted him to wake up so bad.

"I know, anyways, you should get home. I know you like to stay but we should leave. It's up to you." He got up and walked out of the room, I on the other hand stay there.

"Come on Chris, you have to wake up. It's been a month now. I know you're in there and can here me. Just please show me any show that you know I'm here for you. You need to wake up, please. I....I love you...." I never said the words out loud and I held his hand in mine, tighten my grip on his hand and holding them against my forehead. "Please just wake up, if not now then soon. Please!" I wanted to cry but was trying to keep my calm. A nurse that I grew to know came in. She wanted to check on his stab wounds and lived up his hospital shirt. I could see they were just starting to turn to scars.

"I still can't believe this was his mother that did this. I don't know why people have children just to torture them. He's been doing good though. I don't know what is keeping him so strong but he's doing good. His father things that taking him off everything would save him money but we told him he could wake up at any time that taking him off anything that he is hooked to, would kill him and be murder." The nurse smile as she seen my confused face.

"Wait, he could wake up at any minute?? But Mike said that he might not. Don't tell me his dad is out to kill him now." I just looked at him and frown.

"No he's not going to kill him. He wanted to like his kid deal with this without all the stuff but we talked him out of it. He's good now." She smiles and pulled down Chris shirt after putting on new bandages. "There, all good as new." She smiles some at me. "Don't worry, give it a week. I think he will start showing signs of moving. Then we wait for them eyes to know." She smiles and walks out of the room leaving me and Chris alone.

"You hear that? You're going to woke up soon. I can't wait to have you back with us. We will help you and do everything for you. We aren't mad at you, we know what happen back in LA and everything. Just know that we are going to be here for you. Just wake up soon so that you can come back to us. I really do love you..." I kissed his hand before putting it at his side slowly before walking out of the room. It was time for me to come home and give other people a chance to see him. I went back to my house and fell asleep in my bed. I didn't have time to talk to the other girls. I just wanted to sleep.

*2 Weeks Later*

I was sitting in school, Andy and Cambria were talking about going out tonight, there was a open gig and the guys landed it with the help of Sandra on the drums. I didn't know if I was up for it. I was just zoning out and thinking of things before getting a text. I looked down at my phone and seen that it was from Sarah. When I open the text without the teacher seeing it. My heart dropped a bit. "This morning, Chris heart stop, but the doctors got him stable again. The thing is from his heart stopping, it could be even longer before he wakes up. I'm sorry Roku. I don't know what to do anymore. Father said we don't have the money to keep him here or hooked up to all of this. So we are bringing him home and hope for the best that he will pull through his on his own or go in peace in his own room." My heart just snap and I got up, grabbing my things and heading to the door of the classroom.

"Miss, Roku, what are you doing? Get back in your seat." She looked at me and I just looked right at her.

"You're going to tell me to get back in my seat when I just found out that my friend is at home and is dying because he's in a coma....yeah...I'm going home...." I just walked out of the classroom and I heard everyone whispering, no one knew about what happen with Chris. It was all a serect and even the news couldn't talk about it because Chris father pay them off.
I was walking down the halls until I heard someone following me. I didn't want to stop in case it was James or one of his friends. But soon I felt someone stop me and when I turn around to see who it was. Everyone was there, Andy had been the one to stop me and was looking at me weird with everyone else. "What's going on? What are you talking about?" They were all worry and I'm sure they knew who it was.

"Sarah text me, one Chris almost died his morning, they got him stable but he almost died. Two, they took him off everything because his father don't have the money to keep paying everything. And three, they are just going to leave him in his room, hope he wakes up or dies in peace." I just looked around from them. I felt like I was going to start crying again.

"No, he can't die, there is no way in hell he will give up. Don't think about that Roku. Yes his heart stopped but it doesn't mean it will again. Maybe he just needs to be in his room, in his home and I heard that Mike really redid everything in the house. But you need to stay strong. Maybe while we are at the gig, you stay with Chris. I know you want to be there to see us play but I think it's best you stay behind." Andy just pulled me into a hug and everyone else hugged us. I'm so happy for friends like this in school.

"I'll keep you guys updated, but I just really want to get home....or to see Chris..." I walked out of the school and walked to the block that Chris and Andy lived on. I seen Sarah's car outside. His dad redid everything, it didn't even look like the same house on the outside and the inside was even different to. He's been doing a lot of remodeling with the money he sue his wait for. They weren't together anymore, he got rip of her after almost killing Chris and got parent rights for both them since they were still under age. Though with the money he used to fix of the house he could have use to keep Chris. But I know he wanted to make it a better place.

I walked up to the door and knock, hoping that Sarah was home, I haven't been in this house since the day all that happen. I waited for a bit until the door open and Sarach pulled me into a hug. "I'm so glad you're here, I really can't stay being in the house known my brother is here and so helpless right now. Come on." I walked through the house, the living room was bigger now, he had knock down the wall and make it that the living room, Dining room and Kitchen were almost one huge room now. The stairs were redone too, they have all new things in the house, the kitchen was bigger. It was like a house you would see in LA. It had to cost a lot of money. "I know, my dad went over board with fixing up the place, but with mom not here we have money again and he even redid our room. Chris is going to love his room when he wakes up, if he does." We walked up to the door that was Chris room. I could tell he had everything taking off and replace. As you open the door, the stairs went right up, then no longer close and went up. There was green everywhere. All his posters were up, covering ever spot on the wall. I was in shock because this room was really cool. There was huge TV on the wall now, his computer was on a brand new desk and even had a sofa and everything in his room. It was bigger too, his room what the whole roof now. He had his own bathroom that was bigger now, his own living room on the otherside and then his bathroom side. I was in shock but if he never woke up again. Why do this?

"Wow, your dad really made sure he would not remember this place. It's huge, all of us can fix in here now." I smiled and seen Lily even had her own spot in the room, there was a little dog house with her name on it and toys everywhere in this one area of the room. She runs to me barking before going over to Chris and jumping up on the bed laying next to him. Even his bed was bigger now. His dad had got him a king side one and it didn't even take up have his room. "You don't mind if I stay here. I mean I really don't want to go back to school until I know that he's going to be okay. I want to fail to stay back with him. If he pulls out of this."

"I know, he needs you more anyways. My dad even thinks it best because right now he's still alive, just not awake." She walked over and pet Lily before walking out of the room leaving me there but calling up. "Make yourself at home Roku, you can watch TV or go on the computer. I know Chris wouldn't mind. He really liked you as a friend..." She walked down and shut the door.

I walked over to the bed and just holding his hand again. I looked at him and sighs a bit. "Come on, you have to wake up. I mean it, stop fucking around with me, with all of us. Wake up!" I sighed a bit and I would sit by his side for hours before getting up and going online. He seems to save all his info to sign in quick. I wanted to check on things, but I don't know if he would want that. It wasn't until a email popped up. It was from that Liz girl he use to date. I frown a bit before opening it to read it. What I found inside the email wasn't good. I delet all the mails and blocked them. I don't care if he gets mad, he don't need that in his life when he wakes up. I know he will, I believe he will. I blocked everyone that was giving him issues. I care too much for him to see him hurting.

*Few Days Later*

I haven't been in school for 4 or maybe even 5 days now, almost a whole week. I know that everyone was worry about me but I wanted to spend all my time with Chris, even if he was just laying there. Friends don't let other friends alone. I was sleeping on the sofa in his room and woke up to someone coughing a bit. I didn't think anything about it at all until I remember that Chris and I were the only ones in the room other then Lily and she wasn't the one coughing. I sit up fast and looked over the back of the sofa to see Chris moving a bit in his bed. I got up and walked over to him and held his hand. His eyes weren't open but I could tell that he was slowly waking up from being asleep for so long. "Chris, I'm here for you. It's okay, don't worry, you don't have to try and force yourself awake. Just take time and I'm happy that you're showing signs of moving." I smiled bright and that fast Sarah and Mike were up in the room and standing with me.

It wasn't until they show up that he slowly open his eyes and just looked around for a bit before looking at us. He looked so tired and confused before trying to sit up but couldn't, his dad had to help him and he looked around the room in shock before looking at all of us.

"How long have I been out?" He was just confused right now. "This is my room but, it's much bigger and different."

"You been out for a month and almost 3 weeks. We had to pull you out of the hospital because we didn't have the money to put into it. But don't worry son, it's just us, your mother is gone and she won't be allow near you or Sarah. I put a end to that and fast." He smiles and looked at me. He then looked down at our hands and I pulled away and walked over to the sofa.

"I see, I still feel tired but I think I'm good." He hold his stomach to see if there was any wounds there and sighs when he found no pain or anything. "It's really good that we got alway from her. I'm guessing everything changes now?"

"Yeah, dad did a remake of the whole house. You should see it. It's really nice on the inside and outside. He wanted to make this our own house and that's what he did and now it's just the three of us. No one else, with mom out of the picture. She don't even know where we are because dad told her we were moving back to Cali after he had her locked around. She isn't happy at all." Sarah laughed a bit and Chris smile.

Chris slowly got out of bed with the help of his dad and sister. It was good to see how this family got along and they moved him to the computer where he wanted to go and he was turning it on and looking around. I had remove everything that could hurt him. I even blocked them people from his old school and got rid of all the emails. After talking for a bit, Sarah and Mike both left the room to do other things. It was just me and Chris in the room and he was there staring at the computer before looking to me.

"I'm guessing you saw everything people was saying to me? I don't blame you, I would do that same and it's good that you block them because I just couldn't no matter how mean they were." He sighs a bit and I walked over to him and putting the note down. He smiles a bit and looks up at me. "I was wondering in my sleep if you read it or not. I really treated you all badly and I shouldn't have. I should have just let you in to help me. But I'm so stubborn at times." He saids a bit and looks down.

"You can't help but be like that, I seen what they said to you, the way the talked to you. It was like you were the monster and they weren't when I know fact out that they were. You don't push people like that and I blocked them for a reason. Don't go unblocking them or I'll kick your ass." I smirked at him and he just laughed.

"Don't worry, I can see my dad wants a new life for us. It's good that you did that. I can't believe what he did with my room though. I mean everything is so much bigger now." He was looking around in shock. "Anyways, did you read all of the note?" I nodded and he blush some. "You always been there, I mean it might not been that forever but the first day, just up until now. I could hear you when I was asleep but I just couldn't answer or wake up." I was blushing now too. "Did you really mean what you said?"

"Yes, I did, there is not point in hiding it when you already know what I said and how I feel about you. I mean I trying not being that way I wanted you as a friend but the more I know about you, the more I seen people hurting you and the fact you almost died. I know that it's a long shot but I do like you a lot." I looked away from him and he just pulled me into a hug and held me there.
"I like ou a lot too." He smiles when I looked at him and just hugged him back. He was one and true friend and I couldn't wait to see where our friendship and like for each other would go. We then went back to his bed, he was getting tired and so I put him back to sleep, meaning I could go on the sofa again.

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A/N: Sorry if this chapter is short or weird, typing when half asleep is not good. But hope you enjoy.

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