My Brother is WHO?

Jinxx P.O.V

As soon as I saw Sammi I ran to her, she meant so much to me! I grabbed Holly and introduced my little sister to my wife, and they got on really well, I was glad about that, we all talked for a while before Hol went to talk to Iz who was over by Jake, I swear that Iz and Jake were like brother and sister, oh well. I went and sat down between Sammi and Holly, Sammi seemed off today and wasn’t as talkative as she normally would be, I brushed it off as nerves about meeting Hol and started talking to Andy, I knew what he had planned and knew Juliet would love it.

Shorty after Andy proposed we got up and went back to the bus for the night since the guys who had girlfriends wanted some time with them before they had to leave again.

Holly’s P.O.V

We got back to the bus and sat about talking for a bit until Andy and Juliet went to bed then shortly after Jake and Ella went, but the rest of us stayed behind for a bit giving them some time, I thought Jinxx and Sammi would go to but they stayed with me, Iz, Ash and CC, strange I thought. Jinxx turned to Sammi "Are you alright babe?" He questioned with worry in his voice and she looked at him rather coldly "No, Jinxx I want to take a break from each other, we hardly see each other, were often not alone when we are together and I still love you but I want to see what being apart for a bit feels like." she said and his face saddened as she said this "Jinxx I love you and I'm glad we married but now I just want to see what it’s like, please forgive me, could we please get back together after if this just makes US worse?" she questioned and he nodded with his eyes turning glassy, I could tell this would have a bad effect on Jinxx.

"Sammi, could you please leave now while this sets in, I will make sure he doesn’t do anything stupid I swear" I told her she nodded gave him a quick kiss on the cheek and then left, I looked at my brother and went to sit by him he had already stared spacing out "Jinxx, Jinxx, hello can you hear me Jinxx please answer" he didn’t, I was scared, I knew what was happening, this could end badly "Jeremy Miles Ferguson please look at me!" I yelled, he was still spaced out, the others looked at us confused but I just ignored them more focused on my brother "I never meant to be the one who kept you from the dark, but now I know my wounds are sewn because of who you are, I will take this burden on and become the holy one, but remember I am human and I am bound to sing this song" I sang softly to saviour helping him to calm him down, despite getting funny looks from the others, and he slowly looked up at me with tears in his eyes "Hols, she’s gone" he managed to say before he broke down and started crying into my chest I looked down shocked then started playing with his hair and making shushing noises, I couldn’t stand to see my brother like this, I heard him quieten and saw that he had cried himself to sleep and I smiled sadly at him and kissed his forehead slowly getting up and lying him on the couch and going to get a blanket for him and shooing the others off to bed with a quick whisper saying that I would explain to them tomorrow.

I couldn’t sleep that night afraid that Jinxx would wake so I got a blanket and went to sleep on the couch opposite knowing that if he woke and started crying it would wake me us because I was a light sleeper. I slept through so I knew he had not woken and when I woke he was still asleep so I quietly went to get a drink and sitting back down on the couch to keep an eye on him. Half an hour later he woke and looked at me sadly and asking if the others were up "No. Are you alright now?" I questioned and he nodded slightly "Yes, I will be fine, I've just got to let go" he sighed, I went over and sat by him and wasn’t surprised when he cuddled me again and we sat like that until Jake came out and saw the blankets and I just shook my head discreetly, Jinxx hadn’t noticed mine yet, when he looked over about to ask something so he went to the kitchen followed shortly by CC who looked at Jinxx worriedly, I smiled and he sat down opposite. Next Ella walked in with her hair up in a messy bun then just walked past to the kitchen to speak to Jake, through all of this Jinxx still hadn’t spoken so I looked down and saw his eyes had started going glassy again I sighed and once again started softly singing to him to get him to calm down.

Soon everyone was up and everyone was worried about Jinxx but he didn’t move or speak and I knew he was just thinking about everything. Everyone looked at me with a look that said come on now tell us what happened so I gently managed to get him to talk to them and say what happened and then he broke down again and just pulled me tighter to him and once again I played with his hair while waiting for him to calm down, once again he cried himself to sleep, his behaviour was worrying me now.

Ash looked over at me "What happened last night when you started singing" he asked, I sighed and started explaining "Well he started spacing out a bit and I knew that he was letting himself get to terms with what happened but when he was unresponsive I knew he was having an anxiety attack which is a history in our family and I knew what to do since my dad taught me when it kept happening to my brothers, When he came around he broke down and cried himself to sleep so we all left but I couldn’t sleep since I was worried, so I came and slept on the couch and when he woke I came over and he just started spacing out again so I sang him back and he just stayed quiet letting himself get used to it and when you wanted an explanation I managed to get him to talk then he broke down again. I refuse to leave his side until I know he is fine again." I explained to them and they all nodded and walked out while I convinced Jinxx to get a shower and I would get one after.

He nodded and then got up and I did to he walked to the bathroom and turned the shower on but I stayed with him and looked at him "have you got anything like a blade or anything you can harm yourself with" I asked and he shook his head I just looked at him "Jinxx I know all the lying traits in our family and I can tell that you just lied to me now please hand it over trust me you don’t wanna self harm because you suffer and it hurts me to" I said firmly and he reached under the sink and handed me a razor and I walked out and went to talk to Andy.

Notes

Sorry for the late post I’ve been very busy