No one gets you, a plastered on fake smile.

Help me. I'm drowning in myself.
"WITH KNIVES AND PENS WE MADE A PLIOT WOOOOOOAAAAAHHH"
What the hell...OH oh yeah....hi... I'm Lilly. I'm 14 years old and I hate life...why should I like it...I mean its given me nothing to love..any who, I self harm. a lot, not gonna lie. I just don't see the point of living, but I'm scared to end it all. I wish someone would help me, but I'm unhelpable.
some of my favorite bands are, sleeping with sirens, pierce the veil, all time low, falling in reverse, Juliet Simms, escape the fate, annnndddd BLACKVEILFUCKINGBRIDES. sorry. cant help it. any who today I'm off from school. I might go to the park...yeah ima do it. I get up stretching out cause c'mon man sleeping hurts and walk to the bathroom washing my face and throwing my hair in a ponytail. I end up doing my makeup the same with some eyeliner and some red lipstick and start straitening my blue hair. I wonder what I'm going to wear today...hmmm oh let me guess? Black skinny jeans and a bvb shirt? Fucking right I am. I walked to my room getting my outfit and changing. alright I think I'm ready....should I tell my mother? nah she wont notice. alright lets do this shit potato. what the fuck lilly....anywhore
ima start walking...woah what the fuck..theres so many teenage girls up ahead..i wonder whats going on...I walk up to the stores door, 711 hmmm (; any who I'm just gonna go in. I probably should get some bandages I'm running low. I politely shoved my way up to the front since they wouldn't move, a small guy with a few missing teeth looked at me and said "scuse me but do you need anything from the store itself?" I looked at him, fucking duh "umm yeah..whats going o" "YO TERRYLE LET HER IN MAN I DONT THINK SHES GONNA RAPE US" someone said cutting off. that bitch. I walked in the store turning and looking for some bandages when someone stepped in front of me "nice shirt" they said, I looked up and mother of god I'm gonna scream...ANDY FUCKING BEIRSACK IS SMIRKING AT ME!!! I wonder where Juliet is.."umm hello" he said looking confused. oh great lilly just stand there! I looked up fuck hes tall and whispered 'thanks and hello" he chuckled and motioned me to follow him. mother of god here we go.

Notes

HIII SO IM LILLY AND THIS IS A STORY. sorry for mistakes I'm new.....anywhore
tell me what I can do to make this better and ill update soon!! love ya