Will you still find me beautiful?

Mom is back from business. I have kept my word to Randi. He has kept his.


MIDNIGHT

I lay on my bed thinking. SWS plays in my ears. I absent mindedly trace my finger over my scars when Randi comes in. He shuts the door behind him
Hey kiddo, he says softly

I say nothing having already removed my bracelets I show him my wrists. He compares then smiles.

Good job kiddo I'm proud of you start packing we leave tomorrow.

He walks out and then I begin jumping excitedly.

I blare Perfect Weapon out of my speakers lost in a trance of happiness. My dad bangs on my door but I don't here him.
He swings it open and starts yelling and cussing. He grabs my stereo and throws it out the window. It lands and breaks. I stand there in horror as he begins to scream at me about the time and work and how selfish I am. Mom comes in and tries to pull him back to bed, and he does something I've never seen. He shoves her. Randi runs in and sees the situation and tells dad off. Dad retreats to bed. I go to check on mom, but she's already gone smiling to check on Jaz. How many secrets has she kept? Randi walks in and demands my blades. I guess he knows me better than I thought. I give him one. The one in my makeup bag. I have to, but he doesn't need to know that.

He looks at me and tells me he can't go with me to the concert but that Jaz will go with me. I'm dear than her at least I'll call the shots with miss bitchy pants. He goes to bed and Jaz comes in. She has fear in her eyes. I sit up and straighten up and ask her what's wrong. She tells me she's afraid of daddy. Woah daddy? She's 16 that's not normal. I let her crawl into bed with me safe and sound and she falls asleep smushed between me and the wall. I follow not long after.

Notes

So give me ideas what do you think? I will update regularly I swear. I have so much time on my hands