Cursed by love

I rushed into the room. I leaned against closing them. I breathed out and smiled like a full moon. Suddenly room lighted up.
“How was it?” Two girly voices attacked me. I gasped. Then I moved noticing Juliet and Katie sitting on my bed and Andy lying on another.
“Like really guys?” Girls identically sat upstanding. “Tell us all about it!” I looked around. Andy was busy with his phone, so I decided to talk.
“Okay, he took me on the roof. But he redid it on the most romantic place I´ve ever been. We ate. Talk. A lot. Then he played me on guitar, and we sang together.” It was weird for me talk about it in front of a guy I laid in same bed three weeks ago.
They stared at me. “It´s too late. You should go. I´m tired.” They stood up and walked away. I threw myself on the bed, and I was paying attention to my ceiling.

“What are you doing here?” I shouted from the top of my bed.
“I forgot my mobile.” Andy walked to the second bed and picked up his phone. He inserted it to his back pocket. At that time, I was already sitting. He jumped next to me. He was dangerously coming closer. I felt his breath on my face.
“What the hell --“ Inside I was burning. And through it all, I pushed him aside.
“Tell me that you don´t love me and I´ll stop!” I looked deep into his eyes.
“I can´t! But it isn´t right. You are TAKEN. It was your choice.”
“But you left me…” We sat opposite in silence and just wonder what happened to us.
“And you leave now, please…”
“I will, but I´m not giving up!” He shut the door. I listened to his steps on the hallway. I don´t know what noise was louder. His steps or my heartbeat.
I jumped off the bed and pulled out my diary.

I´m fighting with myself. With my heart. It´s too hard to be around him. It´s too hard to deny I have strong feelings for him. It´s too hard to forget.
Anyways, today date was brilliant. I enjoyed. After a long time of sadness, I survived something great. And I don´t regret that. I don´t regret that I feel something to Matt.
I´m confused…

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