Save me from myself

Riley's POV


Have you ever felt just totally worthless? Like no one truly cares or loves you? Like you just simply exist? Well I have... What have I ever done to deserve this, to feel this way. All I've ever wanted was to feel loved and trusted, and when I finally feel content and happy it all gets ripped away. Who am I kidding, Andy deserves better anyway. Am I just going to lay in bed all day? Yep...... I can hear mumbling and shuffling coming from the front of the bus, they have made a few attempts to try and get me out of bed, but they all failed. I really can't believe this all started over a stupid fucking dare!!!


"Riley, we're going to the show now. Are you sure you don't want to come?" I hear Ashley ask me from behind the certain.

"I'm sure, thank you though...." I feel really bad for not going. I just simply can't face Andy, I'll probably break down if I do.

"Oh well.....ok. We'll be back later." Ashley says, I can tell he's worried about me, but its not his problems, plus I don't want to bring him into my issues.

"Okay, do great out there!" I say enthusiastically. He chuckles.

"Don't we always..." I can practically hear the smirk on his face.


After all the guys left, I just sat in my bunk on my phone, eating cheetos. I don't know if me and Andy is done or not.... I'll ask him in a few days. We had so many great moments together. Would he really throw all that away, because of a little kiss that meant absolutely nothing. I've never loved nobody like I love him, am I really gonna give up on us, I have to fight for him....

He's my everything.......

Notes

Filler chapter....sorry, will try to update tomorrow!!
Love you guys!

-Ray