Sweet Blasphemy
Alright! Lets Drink
-Recap-
She smiled and drew a heart with her fingers. I laughed and sat next to Andy. "Meet me backstage after the concert." I whispered into his ear, making him shudder."Because, I, wanna do that again."
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I waited anxiously, adjusting my outfit, backstage. "You look so beautiful. If only you were into girls." Arizona teased. I watched the boys play and I sang along quietly. Chris looked over and gave disapproving stares at my outfit. I pulled my arms around myself and looked down at the floor. Andy looked over next and stumbled over his words momentarily. I smirked, now aware of the effect I had on him. The set ended and The boys started to exit off the stage when Andy surprised me. "Excuse me, before you all go, I would like to introduce the newest member of BVBArmy! Kass, come out here please." I stepped out slowly onto the stage and felt everyones eyes on me."Andy, what's going on?" I whisper/yelled, not realizing that the microphone was picking up what I was saying."Everyone, I would like you to meet C.C.'s little sister, who isn't very little, Kassadie.This beautiful girl has had it rough and I would love for you guys to completely support her. She is going to sing a song for you!" I looked at Andy with horror in my eyes."Wh-What?" Everyone started chanting 'Sing! Sing! Sing!' I looked out into the crowd and somehow felt the courage I needed to have in order to sing. I moved in front of the microphone and music for my favorite song. I looked back and saw Arizona giving me a cheezy smile and a big thumbs up. I glared and dragged my thumb across my neck in a 'You are DEAD.' motion. I sighed and began to sing this song. I finished the song and everyone clapped and hollered."Thank you." I said quietly. I rushed off stage and nearly collapsed. You stupid girl, do you really think that they liked you? They were just being kind because Andy likes you. You should have died that day in the bathroom. I clutched the sides of my head and fell to my knees. "STOP! STOP IT! GO AWAY!" I yelled, tears streaking down my face.Arizona dropped in front of me and stared with knowing eyes. She did the only thing she knew to do, she hugged me. Everything was a blur. I felt many arms wrap around me, until I was left in only one persons. My eyes slammed shut and my head filled with incessant ringing. I was clutched to someones chest. I don't know who. I tried to open my eyes but, to no avail, did it work.I think I fell asleep, but I wasn't sure. Again, I was standing in a void of darkness. I looked around and the blackness faded into a scene.
The girl in front of me looked so familiar. She was screaming at a man."Dad, what are you saying?" Her eyes filled with tears. I wanted to reach out and hug her. THe man advanced towards her. "What I'm saying is that you are a diappointment! I wish you were never born!" Now I knew. I knew why she was familiar. The girl was me, well, a younger me. I was about 14 and my dad had come home from a business trip and I was talking to Arizona. It had been on speaker phone and she was telling me that she was bi-sexual and my dad had heard. I remeber shutting off the call and turning to face him, only to be met with his open palm. I grasped my own cheek, and watched in horror at the abuse that followed. After that, it was an everyday occurence. I always kept it hidden from my mother, not wanting to break her heart.
"-Adie? Hello? Kass wake up." Someone was calling my name.
I was pulled from the dark and into the blinding light."Oh! Kassadie! You are okay!" Arizonas voice called. I sat up slowly and looked around. I was in the bus. In Andy's bed. I think I started hyperventaling.
I got up and stumbled to the kitchen, grabbing the bottle of Jager that was on the counter."I need a drink, anyone want to join me?" All the boys raised their hands. I held the bottle above my head and yelled, "Alright! Lets drink!"
She smiled and drew a heart with her fingers. I laughed and sat next to Andy. "Meet me backstage after the concert." I whispered into his ear, making him shudder."Because, I, wanna do that again."
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I waited anxiously, adjusting my outfit, backstage. "You look so beautiful. If only you were into girls." Arizona teased. I watched the boys play and I sang along quietly. Chris looked over and gave disapproving stares at my outfit. I pulled my arms around myself and looked down at the floor. Andy looked over next and stumbled over his words momentarily. I smirked, now aware of the effect I had on him. The set ended and The boys started to exit off the stage when Andy surprised me. "Excuse me, before you all go, I would like to introduce the newest member of BVBArmy! Kass, come out here please." I stepped out slowly onto the stage and felt everyones eyes on me."Andy, what's going on?" I whisper/yelled, not realizing that the microphone was picking up what I was saying."Everyone, I would like you to meet C.C.'s little sister, who isn't very little, Kassadie.This beautiful girl has had it rough and I would love for you guys to completely support her. She is going to sing a song for you!" I looked at Andy with horror in my eyes."Wh-What?" Everyone started chanting 'Sing! Sing! Sing!' I looked out into the crowd and somehow felt the courage I needed to have in order to sing. I moved in front of the microphone and music for my favorite song. I looked back and saw Arizona giving me a cheezy smile and a big thumbs up. I glared and dragged my thumb across my neck in a 'You are DEAD.' motion. I sighed and began to sing this song. I finished the song and everyone clapped and hollered."Thank you." I said quietly. I rushed off stage and nearly collapsed. You stupid girl, do you really think that they liked you? They were just being kind because Andy likes you. You should have died that day in the bathroom. I clutched the sides of my head and fell to my knees. "STOP! STOP IT! GO AWAY!" I yelled, tears streaking down my face.Arizona dropped in front of me and stared with knowing eyes. She did the only thing she knew to do, she hugged me. Everything was a blur. I felt many arms wrap around me, until I was left in only one persons. My eyes slammed shut and my head filled with incessant ringing. I was clutched to someones chest. I don't know who. I tried to open my eyes but, to no avail, did it work.I think I fell asleep, but I wasn't sure. Again, I was standing in a void of darkness. I looked around and the blackness faded into a scene.
The girl in front of me looked so familiar. She was screaming at a man."Dad, what are you saying?" Her eyes filled with tears. I wanted to reach out and hug her. THe man advanced towards her. "What I'm saying is that you are a diappointment! I wish you were never born!" Now I knew. I knew why she was familiar. The girl was me, well, a younger me. I was about 14 and my dad had come home from a business trip and I was talking to Arizona. It had been on speaker phone and she was telling me that she was bi-sexual and my dad had heard. I remeber shutting off the call and turning to face him, only to be met with his open palm. I grasped my own cheek, and watched in horror at the abuse that followed. After that, it was an everyday occurence. I always kept it hidden from my mother, not wanting to break her heart.
"-Adie? Hello? Kass wake up." Someone was calling my name.
I was pulled from the dark and into the blinding light."Oh! Kassadie! You are okay!" Arizonas voice called. I sat up slowly and looked around. I was in the bus. In Andy's bed. I think I started hyperventaling.
I got up and stumbled to the kitchen, grabbing the bottle of Jager that was on the counter."I need a drink, anyone want to join me?" All the boys raised their hands. I held the bottle above my head and yelled, "Alright! Lets drink!"
Notes
SO SORRY FOR DISAPPEARING! I went to camp and then I was home for about 30 minutes before I had to leave and go babysit. Im back now and I promise to try and update again today! Ps...Let me know if you have caught on to my little signature thing. Its so unbelievable obivious.Okay, well Thats all I guess...>>>Link for Kassadies outfit>>> http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=85972410
@Alicecandream
it was very cliche aheh sorry
3/7/14