They Can't Stop Us From Our Freedom

8am finally came, but I stayed in bed for a little while longer just to be sure he was gone. I got up and trudged to the bathroom. I jumped back when I saw myself. Is that what I look like? My eyes were red and my body was badly bruised, most were black and blue but the ones on my stomach were yellow. How the actual fuck was I going to hide this? The cuts weren't much better. the deepest one had bruised around it and was raised. They hurt to touch.

My phone rang.

"Andy Biersack is calling you" it said on the screen.

"No, no, no, not now," I whispered to myself panicked.

I let it go to voicemail before deciding to call him back.

I took a deep breath and hit the call back button.

"Hello," God his voice was sexy over the phone.

"Um hi whatcha need?" my voice was shaky and raspy.

"Are you alright Windy?"

"Yeah I'm alright, I just woke up but whatcha need?" I needed to get off the phone my eyes were hot with tears. All the events of last night came flooding back.

"I just wanted to make sure-" I broke down cutting him off. "Windy, what's wrong?" I couldn't answer. "Do I need to come over there? Forget it I'll be over in 10."

NO, NO, NO, HE COULDN'T SEE ME LIKE THIS. But I didn't have time to hide it. I heard a knock on the door after five minutes.

"WINDY OPEN UP I KNOW YOU'RE IN THERE." he yelled through the door.

I heard keys in the doorknob. Crap he remembered where I kept the keys to the house.

"WINDY WHERE ARE YOU?" I gave him no response. I heard footsteps coming toward the bathroom. Fuck.

"Windy what are you--WHAT HAPPENED?!" he said more shocked than angry. I broke down. I couldn't even talk for the first 20 minutes.
I told him everything that happened. I took at least an hour because I kept breaking down every three sentences. He looked at my wrists a couple times and after I was finished telling him about my brother, he hesitantly asked about them.

He picked up my arm and I winced. "What happened?"

"I'm sorry Andy I had to." I said choking on my tears.

"What'd you use?"

"I keep blades in the back of my phone just in case."

"Have you ever before?" he was avoiding saying the word "cut".

"No but I've considered."

"Why?"

"I don't know, my parents, my friends, what I've done to other people."

"Oh yeah you were one of those girls weren't you?"

"Yeah but I wish I wasn't…"

"Speaking of school, aren't you supposed to be there right now…?"

"I DON'T WANNA GO. I CAN'T GO BACK AND FACE EVERYONE LOOKING LIKE THIS.'

"Okay but doesn't Lindley need you?"

"I'll go back tomorrow."

"Mmm okay well while I'm here and while you're here maybe we could move you in."

"Andy?"

"Yeah?"

"Do you mind staying with me for a little while while I sleep, I was up all night and I don't want to stay here alone."

"Sure."

We climbed back into my bed together. I cried into his arms for a little and then fell asleep. When I woke up it was 12:30. Andy was asleep with his arms wrapped around me. I carefully pulled him off of me and got up and went to the bathroom to get my phone. I had a missed call from Lindley. She was on her off period right now so I decided to call her back.

"Hello?"

"Hey Linds."

"OMFG WHY ARE YOU NOT HERE RIGHT?!?!"

"I…I'll tell you later. How's it going?"

"PEOPLE FUCKING SUCK."

"Yeah I realize that. Where are you?"

"I'M HIDING BEHIND THE SCHOOL."

"Okay why are you yelling?"

"BECAUSE I'M SO FUCKING PISSED OFF. NO ONE WILL TALK TO ME. EVERYONE KNOWS WINDY EVERYONE KNOWS."

"What the fuck is going on in here?" Andy came in.

"ARE YOU WITH ANDY RIGHT NOW WHILE IM IN THIS FUCKING HELLHOLE?!" she yelled into the phone.

"Lindley just ditch and meet us at my house I need help getting my stuff together."

"Ugh fine I'll be there in 30 minutes bye"

"She's ditching she'll be here soon," I told Andy.

"Are you going to tell her what happened?" he asked. I broke down. He pulled me into his arms and kissed the top of my head. God he's so perfect. No Windy stop. "I can tell her if you would like."

"Yeah that would be good." I said trying to collect myself.

We began to pack up my stuff. My body hurt like hell but I pushed through the pain. We filled my car first and we had filled half of his before Lindley showed up. She looked like she had been crying and I don't blame her, Sydnee can ruin lives. I ran up and hugged her.

"Thank God you're okay I thought you had died or something when I didn't see you this morning then you didn't pick up your phone and wow I need to shut up. HEY ANDY." she waved to him excitedly. She looked happy to be away from school. She hadn't noticed my bruises yet.

"We should get packing so we can go pick up your stuff." Andy said to Lindley.

"Let's go," she replied. She hadn't noticed my wrists or the bruises yet, she must not have her contacts in. Andy took my hand and interlaced his fingers in mine. Wait what? We aren't dating what is he doing. I pulled away immediately.

"Dammit you guys my car just…" her sentence trailed off. She noticed. "What…what happened to you." I broke down and Andy explained after he carried me inside.

"Wow I can't believe that asshole did that…are you going to do anything about it?!" she asked.

"There wouldn't be a point to that he would just want more revenge," I said.

"Umm why don't we get to work."Andy said changing the subject.

"Yeah good idea."

"I can feel the sexual tension." Lindley whispered to me.

"He doesn't like me and I don't even know if I like him." I whispered back.

"You really should because I see the way he looks at you and he totally does."

"You're a liar."

"Secrets don't make friends!" Andy yelled from across the room.

"Neither do cliche comebacks!" I yelled back.

"That wasn't a comeback! Learn your stuff, Lewis."

"Fine, neither do cliche, overused statements, Biersack!"

"That's better! But seriously, why are you guys whispering?"

"None of your business!"

"Whatever!"

We finished about 15 minutes later. I left a note for my brother.

"I fucking hate you and I hope you're happy I'm leaving."

"Okay guys where to first?" I asked.

"Umm we should probably go to Lindley's so we can just make it in one trip." Andy said.
"Okay two questions: Are your parents home? Will they be mad? And do we have enough space?"

"That's three questions." Andy said with a smirk.

"Yeah whatever," I said turning to Lindley, "so?"

"I have THREE answers: no, yes, and I have a whole van left to fill."

"Wait question, why do you have a rape van?" Andy asked.

"It isn't a rape van, and I play drums and someday I want to be in a band so I figured I might as well buy the van now."

"You drove that to school?!? How the fuck did you manage to be popular when you look like a rapist?" Andy said laughing.

"Sydnee used to pick me up everyday, she never knew I had my license let alone a car so she willingly did it."

"Ahh okay."

"We should get going," I said impatiently. I just wanted to get away from this place.

Notes

sorry i havent been posting as frequently theres been a lot of drama aggh whatever ill be fine...i normally just get really distracted on tumblr so if you guys get impatient just spam my tumblr because im on it like 24/7 and while youre there you should follow me ;) anyways yaah

Never Give In, Never Back Down
~Hailie