They Can't Stop Us From Our Freedom

y Windy, I've been waiting…" Braydon said.

"Waiting for what…?" I asked a little scared and creeped out.

"For you," he came closer.

"What..what are you going to do…?" I asked now freaking out inside and shaking on the outside. I wanted to run but the door opened inward and i was already pinned against it.

"Well you see," he said as he grabbed my ass and stared down at my boobs, "you're looking very, very seductive right now." he started to move his hands up my back.

"Braydon stop." I said trying to break free.

"Now don't struggle, you'll only make this harder for me and painful for you." he yanked my arms up and pinned them against the wall so he could take off my shirt. I was freaking out. He couldn't do this. I wasn't ready for this.

"Braydon get off of me." I said weakly. He slapped me and I was starting to cry. I felt dizzy. Everything felt like a dream. This couldn't be happening. He dragged me to his bedroom and bolted the door.

"STOP PLEASE."

"Now that wouldn't be any fun, would it?" he pulled off my pants and started to undress himself. I tried to run but he pinned me down with his foot.

It all happened so fast I couldn't comprehend anything that was going on. I felt pain everywhere from him hitting and kicking me. My mind was foggy and my body was numb. I knew what he was doing but I was in such shock none of it felt real. I wanted to die. Right then and there. Everything has been happening so fast. When he finally fell asleep i picked the lock on the door and got out. I had nowhere to go so I went to my room and blocked the door with everything I had. I unscrewed the back of my phone and pulled out the blades I kept there just in case. I had never cut before but I had definitely thought about it. I felt worthless. He used me. Shaking, I took the blades and unlocked the door. I figured, that since he had already raped me, it couldn't get much worse. I went into the bathroom and picked up the first blade. With a shaking hand I put the blade to my skin and pushed down. It hurt but it was worth it. I saw the blood immediately start flowing out. I sliced my wrists three more times before I had had enough. I cleaned up everything, put my blades back in the back of my phone, and walked back to my room. I was a wreck. I was in pain and bruised everywhere. The most noticable ones were on my neck and my hips from him holding me down. I also had a giant one across my stomach and it hurt to close my legs. I was everything I never wanted to be. What was Lindley gonna think? I'm sure she would help but I'm not sure if I want her to know. It was a sleepless night, most consisting of hysterical crying and haunting thoughts. I shook all night. After this I would be out of here, but it wouldn't matter. That was terrible. I'm going to have nightmares for years. I feel so worthless, he wasn't even drunk not that it would have mattered. He still would have done it. I can't even say what he did. It just so…so scarring. Will I ever be able to do it again, but for real. I don't think I'll be able to. I started to feel the bruises forming on my neck and my stomach. Oh God i wasn't gonna be able to hide these. Everyone's gonna know. I was dreading tomorrow. Oh wait, it already was 5am. Only three more hours before my brother leaves and only four more before I go and move in with my new family. I don't want to go anymore. I don't want anyone to know. I just want to die. I'm not good for anything anyways. My parents don't want me, my brother only wanted me here so he could..so he could…rape me. I can't even say that or think those words without bursting into tears. And I bet Black Veil Brides will just get rid of me after they get sick of me. Everyone else does. I wouldn't be surprised if Lindley left. The only reason she stays is probably because I know all of her secrets. Why even try anymore?

Notes

so i tried to make this as dramatic as possible without having to describe rape...i kinda failed when i did try to describe it soooo...and the next chapter is gonna be big changessss yaaaay so subscribe because im hoping to have it up by tonight and if not then tomorrow morning but i wont be home today so idk if its gonna happen and yaaah

Never Give In, Never Back Down
~Hailie