InsaniKey 2

“Wait, what?” I stop him with my words.

“I said this is your journey, CC. Not mine.” He says without turning around.

“What?” I look up at the ceiling. “Jinxx?”

“I’m here.” Jinxx says quietly from the sky.

“Am I on a journey?” I ask myself aloud.

“I don’t know Ceese. I don’t have all the answers.” Jinxx replies and for the first time, a tinge of uncertainty taints his voice.

“Where are you?” I ask.

He exhales a loud sigh, burdened heavily with annoyance. “I’m in a room with a chair.” He pauses, the uncertainty in his voice becoming stronger, louder and palpable.

“No.” I say quietly, trying to stop realization from taking place.

“I see 4 walls, a ceiling, a floor and a desk.” He continues, sounding a little less sure of himself.

“No.” I repeat. This isn’t possible; he has to be the one running this game. This can’t be happening again.

“And that’s all I know.” Jinxx concludes.

I look at Ashley, my face tensing and turning into a glare. “I’m not here am I?” I shut my eyes. “I’m asleep and if I wish hard enough, I’ll wake up.”

When I open my eyes, Ashley is standing in the same place, looking at me with grave concern. “Maybe you’re not on a journey.” He suggests. “Maybe things are fine the way they are CC. Maybe you don’t need to keep searching and asking questions nobody has the answer to.”

I stare at him for a moment and look up at the ceiling again.

“Don’t say it.” Jinxx’s voice warns.

“You’re thinking too much CC; if you say those words you know what’ll happen.” Ashley warns.

I feel a lump form in my throat, blocking part of my airways and messing with my tear ducts until I force my throat muscles to swallow it down. I’m not going to cry, give up, or continue living in some fantasy world like everybody else I know. Things aren’t okay, and I can’t live like this anymore. Something better is out there and I deserve to be a part of it.

My head is tilted so far back that the base of my skull is resting on my shoulders. “I have to know.” I sigh.

“Damnit CC.” Jinxx says.

Ashley smiles and squeezes my shoulder. “Now you’re on an adventure.”

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