Love Isn't Always Fair
Chapter 4
My fingers drummed against my chest as I stared up at the ceiling. My feet were propped up on the side of the couch as I hummed quietly to myself. I’d just gotten off work, so I still had on my black slack and white button up shirt. My dark blue vest sat on the coffee table.
The kids were at school and Jinxx was at band practice. I sighed at the thought of Jinxx. This was suppose to be a temporary situation, but here I was three years later. Not that Jeremy really cared.
I ran my hands through my hair and thought about the last three years. I want to say that things got better and everyone was happy, but I’ve always hated liars. So here's the honest truth. Andy did not put up much of a fight during the divorce and he signed away his rights without hesitation. I thought that would be the last I heard of Andy but I was so wrong.
My son Drake found a love for music. And his favorite band was none other than Black Veil Brides. Drake constantly bragged about living with Jinxx to all of his friends. I had to deal with listening to Andy’s voice blaring from my son’s radio. He was constantly talking about Andy and what was even worse, were the stupid photos of Andy hung all over the wall.
Catiline was old enough to remember Andy, and she resents him. She doesn’t know exactly what happened, but she remember how much it hurt me. I tried to not show emotion around the kids, but sometimes I would break down crying. Cat knew something was up. Cat now had her own little attitude problem. I try not to be too hard on her, but her rebellious streak was getting to be a bit too much.
As for Jinxx and I..well...to say the least Jinxx and my relationship has gotten stronger. In complete honesty, Jinxx and I occasionally hook up as a way to take out our emotions. Jinxx has voiced several times that he wants to date me...but the tiniest part of me hoped that maybe...just maybe Andy would someday come back to us. Funny, considering I’m the one who left.
I grabbed my phone off the coffee table and checked the time. It was 2:56 pm. I sighed and swung my feet off the couch. I stood up, stretching and walked into the kitchen. I grabbed the premade cookie dough and started to bake cookies for my kids. By 3:15, a warm plate of cookies sat on the table as well as two glasses of milk.
“MOM!” I heard Cat yell. I could hear the door slam shut and chuckled. Drake had a problem with being quite. I heard foot steps as the two made their way into the kitchen. Drake practically pushed Cat over as he ran into the kitchen.
“Sorry, they aren’t homemade.” I said, pulling the ponytail holder out of my hair. My hair was back to it’s natural black color and it wet down to my shoulders. “I haven’t been home very long.” I state as I began pulling my hair back up.
“You work tonight don’t you?” Drake asked. I nodded my head. I worked two part time jobs but I made sure I had the weekends off to spend with the kids.
“Will you two be okay until Jeremy gets home?” I asked. Cat rolled her eyes in response.
“No mom, we will burn the house down and die of starvation.” I lowered my eyes giving Cat the mom look.
“Attitude.” I stated before heading out of the kitchen. I returned a few minutes my black slacks replaced with tan khakis and the white button up now red. The button on my shirt that had my name is small black letters over the big red ‘Target’ Logo.
“When are you going to get a real job?” Cat asked. I sighed and rubbed my temples.
“I’m trying Cat. Isn’t that enough?” I asked. Cat looked at the ground. I bent down and kissed her forehead.
“I expect to hear all about school tomorrow.” I said. Then moved to Drake and kissed him. “Make sure you do your homework. I love you two. Jeremy should be home in about ten minutes.” I slid my phone into the pocket.
“Love you mom!” I heard Darke call after me.
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I walked into the house, shutting the door softly behind me. After locking it I made my way silently down the hall. I made three stops on my way to Jinxx and my bedroom. The first stop I made was to check on Cat. I poked my head in my room and was greeted by her snores. Next, I stopped and checked on Drake. I was greeted to Drake’s breathing and the sound of The Mortician's Daughter. I quickly shut the door. My last stop was the bathroom. I took a quick shower.
I enter the bedroom wrapped in nothing but a towel. I used the soft glow of my cell phone to guide me in the dark. I opened up my pajama drawer and threw on an oversized t-shirt. I threw the towel in the hamper then climbed into the bed.
Jinxx’s arm wrapped around me and he whispered, “Welcome home.” I smiled and turned so we were facing each other.
“Why are you still awake?” I asked. “It’s almost midnight.”
“I was waiting to make sure you made it home safe.” Jinxx answered before he kissed me. My hands tangled in his hair as he deepened the kiss. One of Jinxx’s hands rested on my inner thigh while the other was groping my breast under my shirt.
Jinxx broke the kiss and bit down hard on my neck. I arched my back, moaning.
“Rough day?” I asked jokingly. Jeremy’s only response was a low growl. Jeremy pulled down my underwear as he continued to litter my neck with kisses and bites.
Jinxx moved so he was towering over me, one hand beside my head while the other hand was rubbing my clit. I moaned his name. Jinxx chuckled.
“Be quiet.” He whispered. “Unless you want to wake the kids.” Before I could make a snarky remark, Jeremy was kissing me again. Suddenly, he slammed into me. I moaned into the kiss and dug my nails into his back.
Jinxx continued to pound into me, his thrusts becoming more sloppy as we both began to reach our peak. I came, biting hard into Jinxx’s shoulder. Jeremy gave a few final thrusts before cumming as well. He pulled out of me and laid down beside me.
“Andy’s an ass.” Jeremy said. I looked at him. Patiently waiting for more. He sighed, then rolled onto his back. He had one arm behind his head and he was staring at the ceiling.
“He has to have everything his fucking way. And it’s so frustrating. He’s so self absorbed. And he had the fucking nerve to talk about you today. Talking about how much he missed you. How much he loves you. Then he proposed to Juliet.” My heart stopped.
“He..did what?” My voice broke at the end. Tears trailed down my checks.
“I wanted you to hear it from me, rather than Drake during one of his rants or from the internet.” I nodded my head and rolled over.
“Thank you for telling me.” Jinxx’s arm wrapped around me.
“I’m sorry.” He whispered. I said nothing in return. I just stared into the darkness.
The kids were at school and Jinxx was at band practice. I sighed at the thought of Jinxx. This was suppose to be a temporary situation, but here I was three years later. Not that Jeremy really cared.
I ran my hands through my hair and thought about the last three years. I want to say that things got better and everyone was happy, but I’ve always hated liars. So here's the honest truth. Andy did not put up much of a fight during the divorce and he signed away his rights without hesitation. I thought that would be the last I heard of Andy but I was so wrong.
My son Drake found a love for music. And his favorite band was none other than Black Veil Brides. Drake constantly bragged about living with Jinxx to all of his friends. I had to deal with listening to Andy’s voice blaring from my son’s radio. He was constantly talking about Andy and what was even worse, were the stupid photos of Andy hung all over the wall.
Catiline was old enough to remember Andy, and she resents him. She doesn’t know exactly what happened, but she remember how much it hurt me. I tried to not show emotion around the kids, but sometimes I would break down crying. Cat knew something was up. Cat now had her own little attitude problem. I try not to be too hard on her, but her rebellious streak was getting to be a bit too much.
As for Jinxx and I..well...to say the least Jinxx and my relationship has gotten stronger. In complete honesty, Jinxx and I occasionally hook up as a way to take out our emotions. Jinxx has voiced several times that he wants to date me...but the tiniest part of me hoped that maybe...just maybe Andy would someday come back to us. Funny, considering I’m the one who left.
I grabbed my phone off the coffee table and checked the time. It was 2:56 pm. I sighed and swung my feet off the couch. I stood up, stretching and walked into the kitchen. I grabbed the premade cookie dough and started to bake cookies for my kids. By 3:15, a warm plate of cookies sat on the table as well as two glasses of milk.
“MOM!” I heard Cat yell. I could hear the door slam shut and chuckled. Drake had a problem with being quite. I heard foot steps as the two made their way into the kitchen. Drake practically pushed Cat over as he ran into the kitchen.
“Sorry, they aren’t homemade.” I said, pulling the ponytail holder out of my hair. My hair was back to it’s natural black color and it wet down to my shoulders. “I haven’t been home very long.” I state as I began pulling my hair back up.
“You work tonight don’t you?” Drake asked. I nodded my head. I worked two part time jobs but I made sure I had the weekends off to spend with the kids.
“Will you two be okay until Jeremy gets home?” I asked. Cat rolled her eyes in response.
“No mom, we will burn the house down and die of starvation.” I lowered my eyes giving Cat the mom look.
“Attitude.” I stated before heading out of the kitchen. I returned a few minutes my black slacks replaced with tan khakis and the white button up now red. The button on my shirt that had my name is small black letters over the big red ‘Target’ Logo.
“When are you going to get a real job?” Cat asked. I sighed and rubbed my temples.
“I’m trying Cat. Isn’t that enough?” I asked. Cat looked at the ground. I bent down and kissed her forehead.
“I expect to hear all about school tomorrow.” I said. Then moved to Drake and kissed him. “Make sure you do your homework. I love you two. Jeremy should be home in about ten minutes.” I slid my phone into the pocket.
“Love you mom!” I heard Darke call after me.
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I walked into the house, shutting the door softly behind me. After locking it I made my way silently down the hall. I made three stops on my way to Jinxx and my bedroom. The first stop I made was to check on Cat. I poked my head in my room and was greeted by her snores. Next, I stopped and checked on Drake. I was greeted to Drake’s breathing and the sound of The Mortician's Daughter. I quickly shut the door. My last stop was the bathroom. I took a quick shower.
I enter the bedroom wrapped in nothing but a towel. I used the soft glow of my cell phone to guide me in the dark. I opened up my pajama drawer and threw on an oversized t-shirt. I threw the towel in the hamper then climbed into the bed.
Jinxx’s arm wrapped around me and he whispered, “Welcome home.” I smiled and turned so we were facing each other.
“Why are you still awake?” I asked. “It’s almost midnight.”
“I was waiting to make sure you made it home safe.” Jinxx answered before he kissed me. My hands tangled in his hair as he deepened the kiss. One of Jinxx’s hands rested on my inner thigh while the other was groping my breast under my shirt.
Jinxx broke the kiss and bit down hard on my neck. I arched my back, moaning.
“Rough day?” I asked jokingly. Jeremy’s only response was a low growl. Jeremy pulled down my underwear as he continued to litter my neck with kisses and bites.
Jinxx moved so he was towering over me, one hand beside my head while the other hand was rubbing my clit. I moaned his name. Jinxx chuckled.
“Be quiet.” He whispered. “Unless you want to wake the kids.” Before I could make a snarky remark, Jeremy was kissing me again. Suddenly, he slammed into me. I moaned into the kiss and dug my nails into his back.
Jinxx continued to pound into me, his thrusts becoming more sloppy as we both began to reach our peak. I came, biting hard into Jinxx’s shoulder. Jeremy gave a few final thrusts before cumming as well. He pulled out of me and laid down beside me.
“Andy’s an ass.” Jeremy said. I looked at him. Patiently waiting for more. He sighed, then rolled onto his back. He had one arm behind his head and he was staring at the ceiling.
“He has to have everything his fucking way. And it’s so frustrating. He’s so self absorbed. And he had the fucking nerve to talk about you today. Talking about how much he missed you. How much he loves you. Then he proposed to Juliet.” My heart stopped.
“He..did what?” My voice broke at the end. Tears trailed down my checks.
“I wanted you to hear it from me, rather than Drake during one of his rants or from the internet.” I nodded my head and rolled over.
“Thank you for telling me.” Jinxx’s arm wrapped around me.
“I’m sorry.” He whispered. I said nothing in return. I just stared into the darkness.
update pleeeeeeasssssseeeeeee
10/24/17