Ashlandil

I hurried into the venue, knowing I was a little late; the guys were gonna be pissed at me, they'd called me probably eight times already yeesh.
I glanced at my reflection as I strode past the bus, amd scowled. I'd mismatched a couple buttons in my haste to get out of that girls apartment. I quickly fixed it, ran a smoothing hand through my hair, and darted into the venue.
I'd slept with Kacy a couple times before, and she was a sad excuse for a human. She'd been overjoyed to hear from me, and disgustingly happy to sleep with me now that I had a "girlfriend."
Stupid woman.
She could never compare to Kenali.
I strode into the venue, hearing the guys talking, and I heard Kenali laugh at something they'd said.
I frowned.
I'd hopped off the bus when we'd got here a couple hours ago telling them I had some business to do, and no one had thought anything of it. The guys didn't mind babysitting Kenali, though she would strangle me if she knew that was how I'd phrased it.
I stepped into the dressing room.
"Where the hell have you been?" CC demanded the instant I stepped inside, and all their eyes went to me.
I shrugged, seeing Kenali sitting at Andys makeup table, swinging her legs.
Why was she at his table?
"I know I'm a little late. Business took forever," I muttered, stepping to my table, which happened to be by Andys.
Kenali watched me, and I glanced at her, feeling like she knew exactly what I'd been doing. Now I felt guilty, even though I had no reason to be.
"We were starting to worry," she said, absently tucking a strand of hair behind my ear. "You were gone for so long."
"I'm sorry," I apologized sincerely. "I really didn't mean to be so long."
"You could have called."
I hesitated.
All the guys were studiously looking away, as if waiting for a fight to broil. Kenali was being very calm, which had never been a good thing.
Did she know about Kacy? Already?
I hadn't even had a chance.
"I really am sorry, babe, I couldn't get to my phone," I mumbled, fishing through my bag. "I'll call next time."
"Alright," she was still just looking at me; it was freaking me out.
"I will," I looked at her, hoping she wasn't mad. "Really. I'll call."
"I believe you will," she told me with a straight face, her voice monotone, and I sent her an anxious glance. After a moment, she grinned, and I felt myself relax.
"You're such a twat," I grumbled, and she laughed, leaning forward to give me a kiss.
She hesitated as she pulled away. "Why do you smell like that?"
"Like what?" I stiffened.
Oh shit oh shit oh shit.
"Like," she sniffed again, "cheap perfume."
I felt four judging pairs of eyes abruptly latch onto me; whose side were these guys on anyway?
"Uh, some fans stopped me on the way in wanting autographs and pictures," I lied smoothly. "That's probably what it is."
"Oh," Kenali frowned."It smells terrible. Someone should really tell her that."
My lips twitched.
"I'll see you guys later," she said, hopping off the table. "Have fun with your show!"
"We will," the guys all chorused.
She gave me another quick kiss, wrinkled her nose at Kacys strong perfume, and then trotted out the doors.
There was a moment of silence.
Then, "You are such a piece of shit!"
I glared at Andy.
"How could you fucking cheat on her, man?" Andy demanded, turning on me with clenched fists. "How could you? She loves you! She would never do that to you!"
God, he had no idea.
"I didn't do any fucking thing," I hissed. "And it wouldn't be any of your business regardless!"
"Of course it is!" he glared at me. "She's my friend, and she doesn't deserve that!"
"She's just some fucking girl you met a few months ago, Andy, and that was because of me! And she's my girlfriend, so stay the fuck out of our relationship!"
"She deserves to be treated right!"
"I DO treat her right!"
"Guys!" Jinxx snapped, "Nows not the time ---."
"You hardly treat her like she deserves! You never take her anywhere, you fight with her constantly ---."
"Couples fight!"
"Not the way you two do! She's an angel, Ashley, she deserves better then you!"
"Andy!" I heard Jake hiss.
I narrowed my eyes, feeling fury roll through me.
How fucking dare he.
"Do you think I don't know she deserves better?" I hissed angrily. "Do you think I don't know she's gonna figure that out and leave me for someone she actually gives two fucks about? I treat her the best I know how, you high and mighty fucker!"
Andy took a step toward me, and I dared him to punch me.
"You're going to break her heart!"
I wouldn't break it, I didn't even have it.
"Don't you think I don't know how you feel about her," I spat at him, and his expression turned uncertain a moment as I turned the tables. "You wish she was yours! You're so full of jealousy over her being with me you can barely fucking stand it!"
"That's not true!"
"IT IS!" I bellowed at him, shoving him back into his chair. "I see how you look at her! Don't you criticize me on faithfulness when you would sleep with her if she would keep her legs open long enough!"
"Ashley!" CC squawked.
Andy shoved away from his chair angrily and took a swing at me, but I dodged, tackling him and sending us both sprawling to the floor.
"GUYS!"
"Stop it!"
"Ashley!"
"Don't talk about her that way!" Andy bellowed.
"Stay the fuck away from my girlfriend!" I shouted.
We thrashed, and I was trying my damndest not to break his pathetic mortal body in half.
"Stop!" I felt someone pull on my shirt, but I jerked away, not through beating the shit out of our lead singer.
The perfect fucking guy.
The one she was in love with. "Andy --- no!"
He punched me, his hit a little harder then a mortals but no where near as strong as mine.
I growled, slamming him down against the floor.
Stupid fucking Andiel!
I knew she needed better!
I knew she didn't love me!
I KNEW THAT!
"Ashlan!" I froze, seconds away from slamming Andy again, and raised my eyes guiltily.
Kenali stood in the doorway, looking surprised, and then her jaw clenched in anger.
"Get off him!" she hissed at me, her eyes flaring purple.
I hesitated, then uncurled my fingers from his shirt, letting him fall back against the ground with a huff.
I rose to my feet, and her fingers bunched in my shirt as she jerked me out of the room after her, striding down several doorways before abruptly turning and throwing me in one.
I staggered, knocking into a shelf of cleaning supplies.
A janitors closet?
"Kenali ---."
"What were you doing?" she shrilled at me, and I winced. She slammed the door behind her and faced me, her fists clenched. "You could have hurt him!"
"But I didn't ---."
"Of all the humans you could attack, why him? What has gotten into you? He's fragile! The entire POINT of me being here is to keep him safe!"
"Kenali ---."
"You better have a damn good reason, Ashlandil, because I am so TIRED ---."
"I don't have a good fucking reason," I bellowed, losing my temper. "I just wanted to beat the shit out of his stupid smug face, alright? God forbid I do something you don't approve of!"
She glared at me, piqued.
"Don't yell at me! I ---."
"Yknow, maybe not everything I do revolves around your stupid fucking suicide mission!"
"It's not a suicide mission!" she squawked.
"It is! If it wasn't for me, you'd be dead by now and you know it! You won't take care of yourself because you're such a little prude!"
I grabbed her arms, shoving her back against the door, getting in her face.
"And sleeping with me won't tide you forever, because it sure as hell isn't enough for me!"
She froze beneath my grip, and I stiffened as I realized what I'd said.
"You don't have to sleep with me," she said after a moment, her feelings hurt. "I never asked you too."
My grip went lax.
"Kenali, I ---."
"I never asked you to do anything," she stared at my chest, refusing to look at me. "You're the one who insisted."
Fuck me.
"Kenali, I'm sorry, I didn't mean ---."
"Is that where you were tonight?"
"What?"
"If it's not enough to sleep with me you should have just said, not lied to me or --- or thrown it in my face!" she shoved me away from her. "You don't have to lie to me!"
"Kenali ---."
Her eyes flicked to mine, and I cursed, seeing them damp with tears.
"You can go off and be with whoever you wanna be with! When have I ever told you otherwise?"
"Stop bitching and listen to me," I snapped, wanting to explain before she got ahead of herself and decided to hate me again.
She pressed her lips together, so I took it as a sign to continue.
"Look, it can't be just us all the time, okay?" I brushed her hair behind her ear.
"Our sins won't allow it. Otherwise... Otherwise I would never look at anyone else." I said softly, and her eyes rose to mine again. "I would never even consider another partner. But it can't be that way, Kenali, we'll sicken, you know that. You're going to have to find a mortal as well, and soon. We can only sustain each other for so long, love."
"But I don't want another," she said in a small voice. "I can't. It... It scares me."

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