Nerves coiled in my stomach. I had never stopped round a guy's house before and here I was following Jake up a flight of stairs from the lower carpark. I was trying to smile on the outside, but inside I was a quivering mess.

My eyes flicked to my boyfriend. He was in front of me, removing his keys from his jacket. This was really happening. I needed to channel my inner Shay. She would totally relax and be flirty and cool. I tried to push nervy, geeky Dakota down, but it seemed like it was completely ingrained.

We got to the door and the lock clicked open. My nerves were still running wild when I heard the sound of barking. When I looked down there was a small brown dog running round my feet and wagging its tail.

"Awh, how cute." I smiled, leaning down.

"Yeah, everyone thinks that at first," Jake chuckled. "Ernie, Trixie."

The brown dog ran into the flat as did the one next to Jake. I stepped over the threshold and followed him. The dogs continued to charge after us even as I shut the door. They were incredibly lively. It was so cute.

The lounge was huge and open-plan, leading into the kitchen. Jake unzipped his jacket and I almost giggled when I saw his t-shirt was still damp.

"I'll be right back. Make yourself at home." He said, disappearing into a back room.

I decided to explore a little. I walked over to the unit lined with CDs and glanced through them. Ernie came bounding over now that I was lower to the floor. He tried to climb onto my lap and proceeded to lick my face.

"Ernie, stop." I laughed.

I ended up carrying him over to the couch and sitting down. He continued to bound around and roll onto the floor. Trixie seemed to have relaxed and was curled up on her bed. She wagged her tail when I called her name. Ernie clambered onto the couch and stretched across my lap.

"Your name's not Trixie." I giggled, rubbing his belly.

The sound of a door slamming startled Ernie and he leapt off my lap. I turned round and smiled when I saw Jake walk back through. My nerves returned and I faced forward again. I felt him sit next to me.

It wasn't until he tickled my neck and I snorted out a laugh that I looked at him. I covered my mouth. Well, that was embarassing. Jake took the chance to pull me closer and wrap an arm round my shoulder. It's fine, we hugged like this on bonfire night. Yeah, but on bonfire night we were in public. Now we're alone together.

His hand traced circles on my arm and I took a shuddering breath. I glanced up at him and he smiled.

"I won't do anything that makes you uncomfortable." He murmured.

"It's cool. I'm cool." I nodded.

We ended up ordering pizza. I felt sorry for the pizza guy being bombarded by crazy dogs when he arrived. Ernie did try and join us when we sat down and was quickly told off. He sloped over to his bed and huffed sadly.

"That's adorable." I laughed.

"You won't be saying that if he eats your food." Jake chuckled.

I gradually relaxed and ate pizza whilst watching films. No horror films, thank god. After watching Fragile, I think I'd gone off horror. I still had nightmares even now.

We were halfway through some old film and I was kind of bored at this point. The dogs were fast asleep. I glanced at Jake. He was watching, but his eyes were slightly glazed over. A sign that he was probably bored too. I let my gaze wander to the games consoles underneath the tv. I wasn't really a gamer girl, but it could be fun.

I shifted a little and lifted my head to ask about the games. I nearly head-butted Jake and I blushed, mumbling a very squeaky apology. He didn't reply and his eyes drifted to my lips. I could either go along with this or say no, but I was curious so I nodded.

He dipped his head and our lips met, gently at first. Our lips moved together and I tentatively lifted my hand and rested it on Jake's shoulder. The kiss deepened and our tongues moved together. I was very much aware that my body was reclining and I jumped a little when my head hit the pillows.

I could feel Jake on top of me and my legs were parted, allowing him to lay on top of me. It also allowed me to feel everything. I whimpered when he sucked my lower lip and bit down slightly.

We pulled apart and for a moment, I was stunned. I could either stop this right now, or let it continue. I wasn't even sure what to say.

"W-we could touch and stuff," I fumbled. His eyes were slightly darker, almost black. "I-i mean, we don't have to. Just ignore me."

I was about to apologise when his lips pressed to my neck and I gasped instead. The kisses were soft at first and I sighed. I felt Jake smirk and then he bit me. I yelped and it turned into a whimper when he started sucking on the skin between my neck and shoulder.

Jake lifted his head and our lips met again. This time with more fervour. I kissed back and a moan slipped out when his hand traced up my side. His thumb trailed under my breast and my body responded by arching upwards. Probably the wrong thing to do because his hand slowly covered it and I gasped when I felt his thumb move in circles.

I had to admit I was a little hurt when he pulled back. Was I really that bad? I squeaked when I noticed he was removing his t-shirt. In the swimming pool I hadn't really noticed that much and I had turned away when we both got dressed. Now I could see everything. His body was toned and the tattoos looked amazing. My mouth went dry and my brain nearly short circuited.

The t-shirt was discarded and he smirked, beckoning me closer. I sat up and allowed him to grip the hem of my top. I was still running on adrenaline so I nodded. My top came off too and when it did, so came the nerves.

I knew I was pale, really pale and small. My bust was 34A so I wasn't the biggest girl ever. I felt exposed, sitting with my bra on show and I really wanted to hide myself.

"S-sorry, I'm kind of small." I whispered.

"Hey, don't get upset," Jake gripped my face. "I wasn't lying when I said you were the most beautiful girl ever. You really are."

I let out a nervous laugh. For some reason, I felt a little more confident. I shifted closer and pressed my lips to his in a soft kiss. The kiss deepened and he pushed me back on the couch. I could feel the warmth radiating from his body and I sighed.

For some reason my body had a mind of its own and I arched myself against him. I was more than a little shocked when he pinned my hands to the sofa and rolled his hips into mine. A moan was absorbed into the kiss.

At the back of my mind I knew we should stop before we went too far, but I was enjoying this. My nerves were still there, but I was starting to get comfortable with this. The sound of a phone ringing jarred me and we pulled apart.

Jake was gone in a second and I glanced over at him. It sounded like he was talking to one of his colleagues and I sat up, feeling more exposed and a little stupid. He walked back over to me and once he'd hung up he turned the phone off.

I accepted his hand and we walked to the bedroom. I had left my top on the lounge floor, but didn't really have time to think about it when he turned and kissed me again, pressing my body close.

We ended up on the bed. This time the seriousness of the situation hit me like a tonne of bricks and I pulled back, feeling stupid and nervous.

"C-can I admit to being a little scared?" I whispered.

Jake chuckled and shifted to the side and I turned to face him. His hand brushed some of the hair from my face.

"It's fine if you're nervous. I want you to tell me when you're worried about anything." He smiled, and I blushed.

"I-it's just, I've never gone this far and I don't want you to not like me anymore."

"I will never not like you." He replied, kissing my forehead.

I sighed when he brushed his fingers through my hair and shifted closer. My eyes felt really heavy. This was so amazing.

"I love you." I mumbled.

It took me about thirty seconds to realise what I'd just said and I woke up instantly, pulling back and stuttering like an idiot.

"I-i'm so sorry. I mean, oh my god, I'm such an idiot."

Jake pulled me closer and I met his gaze. He probably didn't love me back. After all, we had only been properly together for a few weeks.

"I love you too." He said.

My eyes widened and he chuckled at my dumbstruck expression. It took me a moment to react and I snuggled closer. My eyes shifted shut and I smiled. For now, I had no worries or fears. Everything felt right.

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