sometimes the things that keep us alive kill us

Kyle's point of view


I got inside our school building and went to the lockers where Andy was standing like always, his fringe covering part of his beautiful face, I ran over to him and he pulled me into a hug, I heard Sarah mutter 'bitch' under her breath as she stands in front of him, Andy's hand went to my waist and I looked up at him smiling. Sarah was my friend until I started talking to Andy and I appeared to have changed "sorry but I have to steal Andrew back" I said, me and walked to our spot "so what did you have to tell me?" Andy asked putting my blonde hair behind my ear "Promise you want get mad?" I said, he placed his pinky infront of me "I promise" he said softly "I'm genderfluid" i said with a slight smile, his hand moved off my waist and he looked like he was about to say or do something but he just looked at me in complete shock, at least if he starts to hate me I have the summer to find new friends considering this is the last day for the school term, he then pulled me into a huge "I'm so proud of you, who else have you told?" He asked still hugging me "no just you" I said we both pull out the hug and the bell ran

Time skip

I waited on Andy at his car, he walked out and opened the car door and we both got in, we are spending the day together before I go to my aunties for the summer, we decided to go to the mall and I suddenly want to dye my hair, I turned to Andy with a big smile on my face "Why have you got a big cheeser on your face for?" He asked "Can you help me dye and cut my hair?" I asked him "But your blonde hair so beautiful and your mum will kill you" "I asked her about it before and she said yes, please Andrew!" "Ugh fine but don't cry to me when you dye your beautiful blonde hair" I done a little hop and grabbed Andy's arm dragging him to the drugstore, I got the the hair dye and I decided I wanted black and red, I paid them we went and got pizza "so what was Sarah talking to you about at lunch?" I asked trying not to sound protective or noisy "She was telling me there's some guy who she likes but apparently her bitch of an ex best friend took him before she could get a chance but I zoned out like half was through it because of you being sexy as usual" he said whispering the part probably hoping I didn't hear him. We got to Andy's and went to his bathroom to dye my hair first we cut it to my shoulders then a bit shorter then more, when we were done cutting it I realized that it's just a bit longer then Andy's, I dyed my fringe that I now had red and the rest black and I must admit I loved it. I feel more myself.


Andy drove me home and when we arrived we both got out, I decided I was going to tell my parents about my genderfluid, I'll probably just get told I'm confused or some shit like that, we both stepped into my house and I announced I was home "I'm home" I shouted "In the kitchen hunny" my mom shouted back, I grabbed Andy's arm and we ran down the hall to the kitchen as soon as I walked in all eyes widened and I suddenly got nervous please don't have a panic attack I told myself feeling my breath get heavy "what did you do to your hair?" My big sister Hannah asked, Hannah his brown hair and always complains about it "Before I explain my hair I have to tell you all something and it's not the best new you'll ever hear but I'm genderfluid" I said trying to be confident but I can feel my legs shaking and I felt Andy place his hand on my back for support "so you are boy and girl?" Hannah asked as my parents were in a state of shock "Yeah, sometimes I'll wanna be a boy and other my girly self" I explain and she just nodded "How long have you known this angel?" My mom asked "Since I was 10, that 'faze' when I was a tomboy that's when I know I really was" my mom just nodded like Hannah processing what I said "Do you like both boys and girls?" My mom asked "Yeah" was my simple reply "Can everyone just shut the up, this is a Christian house and I will not allow this" my Dad finally spoke "Dad your the only Christian in this house" I pointed out "As far as I'm concerned my daughter died today he said getting up and walking out of the house
"As much as I disapprove of this you are who you are and you can change that, I love you no matter what" my mom told me, Hannah just grinned, I guess did has his new favourite child.

I walked Andy to his car "I'm going to miss you kyle" Andy said hugging me tight "I'm going to miss you too but you'll see me soon" I told him still in his embrace, we both pulled away and I felt his lips crash into mines, we started kissing and our tongues joined as it turned into a whole make out section, this was my first ever kiss and I was off of this blue eyed angel. We both pulled away and he bit his lip "bye beautiful"he said kissing my forehead as I said "bye handsome" he pulled away and got in his car, I waved him off and ran back inside as it started to ran, I ran up to my room and started packing for Florida.

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