He holds my arm, shakily in his hand. I manage to remove my eyes from his hand to his eyes. They are brimming with tears, this is new... I've never had anyone care, but then again why would anyone care? He kisses the top my wrist lightly before pulling me into his chest.
"It'll be alright... I promise..." He whispers and I push him off.
"No Ash... it won't ever be. My dad died when I was 10 my mom blames me for my twins death, before I was even born. A year ago to the day she commited sucide and in her fucking note she blamed me. My fucking brother pretended to care till I turned eighteen then he raped me. I can't even tell my best friend, cause it would put her through hell. So Ashley when it is ok i'll believe you but until that moment I wont. I don't need anymore unrealistic hope." I say, almost pure anger blazing in my eyes. I grab my guitar and start singing as the lyrics come to me.
"This pain hidden in each laugh
Each moment, each memory?
What will it take to make you see?
I'm dieing

Can't stop this path
I've tried and tried again
This doc's note gives me a week
This week I'm gonna take, I'm gonna take

I'm gonna live till I die
When I'm dead I'll say good bye
There is no farewell til my grave is filled.
Only my memories will stay
Little glimpses of who I was

But never fully me...
See when we die we're worth so much more
I can no longer feel your warmth, why did you leave me??
What are you talking about?
I'm right here can't you see?
Or is this just the ghost of me...
A deathly phantom of what used to be...

Call my name
Prove to me that I'm worth something
Something more than this
More than death, more than darkness
More than bliss...."
I finish off humming quietly, I totally forgot Andy and Ashley were there... oh shit..
"That was amazing..." Ashley breathes and I smile before nodding. Andy is just staring mouth open slightly.
"Fucking Jesus christ... you should have an EP, a recording label, something... you are amazing." He whispers and I smile before shrugging. I'm nothing special. Never wil be.
"Death... so what do you say?" Andy asks and I smirk slightly.
"Well Biersack what are you going to do if I say no?" I say and he looks slightly down fallen.
"Go back to playing small gigs and at bars and stuff..." He mumbles and I chuckle before nudging him.
"Warped." I say and they both look at me stunned.
"What?" Ashley breathes and I smile.
"I said Warped. As in Warped Tour... so if I'm doing this you better be ready for work." I'm embraced in both their arms and grunt slightly, I like my space and I hate people.
"Erm my gerd... get the fuck off me bitches." I grumble and Ashley laughs before trying to poke my side and fails miserably, poking my boob instead. My eyes narrow and his widen in shock.
"Beretta eine Lektion erteilen" Ya I speak german... lay off. Beretta is immediatly on her feet and backing Ash into a corner.
"Um... call her off!!" He begs and I just smirk as she lets off a rumbling bark. Andy looks slightly stunned.
"freigeben" I snap and my dog comes and lays by my feet, leaving Ashley looking at me stunned.
"What she speaks German? Surprised?" I ask wriggling my eyebrows... Ashley needs to learn what a PERSONAL BUBBLE IS!!