Love Again

Get up.

Coffee.

Make Breakfast.

Take Jemma to daycare.

Clean the house.

Pick Jemma up.

Make dinner.

Put Jemma to bed.

Wait for Denis to call.

Sleep.



That has become my daily schedule for three years. Once Jemma was born we decided to move into my mom's house after her death. My mom died the day my baby was born. It's sad really, I can't figure out whether I should mourn that day or celebrate. Denis usually is there and calms me down, but I don't know. The last time I modelled was when I had a big baby bump and that was for some pregnancy commercial. Since then, I've been a stay at home mom.

Ever since Jemma, I haven't gotten a single night off, I've been working my ass off everyday and am lucky I get six hours of sleep. I feel it, I'm starting to crack under pressure and I don't know how much more I can take. I just need a night to myself, that's all really.

"Mommy there's someone at the door." My baby says knocking me out of my train of thought.

I get up from the couch and answer the door. "Hello Belle, I'm here to pick up my beautiful niece." Ben says and hugs me tight. Ben's the perfect honorary uncle, he's there just when you need him the most, and I need him now.

"Thank you so much for coming." I whisper, finally a day off for me.

"No problem love. Jemma!"

"Benjy!" My three year old squeals and jumps into her uncle's arms.

"What are we gonna do this weekend squirt?" Ben asks Jemma.

"We're gonna go to Chuck E. Cheese's, and the zoo, and the ice cream shop." Jemma says, almost pronouncing everything correctly.

"And we're gonna visit Aunt Sakura and she's gonna make you look like a pretty princess." Ben says to Jemma making her so happy. I kiss my baby's forehead, give Ben her bag and wave them off.



Freedom At Last!!!



I run upstairs and start running a bath as my phone goes off, I answer it. "Hello?" I ask, we don't have caller ID.

"Hey beautiful, that I'd just check in with how you're doing." Denis says. Right now he's off recording the vocal parts for Asking Alexandria's new album.

"I'm doing great, Ben just took Jemma for the weekend so now I'm gonna take a much needed bath."

"God I wish I could be there with you, but I won't be home till Monday."

"How's the studio?"

"This new album's going to be amazing."

"That's good to hear baby."

"Okay I have to go back to work baby, I love you."

"I love y-" he hung up on me. The fuck?! I should just relax and put on some music. I enter the tub and put my iPhone on shuffle, "Beautiful" by Christina Aguilera blares through the speakers.




Andy's POV


I miss her. I miss her smile. I miss her eyes. I miss her laugh. I miss waking up to her. I miss her falling asleep in my arms. I miss her, But I've moved on. I started dating a year after she had the baby, that beautiful baby girl. Last year I met someone who changed me, her name's Ruby. Ruby's only nineteen years old, but she's amazing. She's always there when I need her, and even when I don't she's still there for me. She loves me, and part of me loves her.

Part of me will never not want Belle, Belle was my first everything. My first friend, first girlfriend, first kiss, first person I've ever had sex with, first woman I asked to marry me, first woman I've fallen in love with. And truth be told I thought she would be the last pair of eyes I'd look into before death, but that doesn't seem like an option anymore.

Juliet fucking did this. Juliet took away the woman I love because of her obsession. If I had never met Jules, I'd still be with Belle. Belle wouldn't have gotten engaged to Denis, she would have never left LA, she wouldn't have met Denis, she wouldn't have done that interview, Oli Sykes wouldn't have kissed her, Scout wouldn't have kissed me, and I wouldn't have cheated on Belle all those years ago.

I wish I could go back to that night I told Belle that I cheated on her. I wish I would've handcuffed myself to her until she forgave me. I wish I could have been honest about why I did it and maybe things would have happened differently. Maybe I'd be married to her, maybe we would have a kid already, maybe.

"Mom, Dad, we're here!" I yell as Ruby and I step into my parent's house.

We walk into the living room. "Oh my gosh, you must be Ruby." My mom says giving my fiancé a hug.

"More beautiful in person." My dad says as he hugs her.

"And younger too." My mom says under her breath. "Andy, can we have a little talk in the backyard?"

"Uh sure." I say. I kiss Ruby's cheek before joining my mom on the back porch.

"How old is she?" Mom whisper yells.

"She's younger, I know, but she's a really nice girl once you get to know her." I defend.

"Age Andy."

"Nineteen."

"Andrew Dennis Biersack! She is like ten years younger than you! I would have rather you get back with Juliet."

"Juliet destroyed everything between Belle and me, I'd rather be with Ruby."

"Ugh, can you do me a favour?"

"Sure mom."

"Can you ask Ms Greco if she has any baby powder?"

"Why?"

"Your dad has this really bad rash on his-" I cut her off.

"I'll just ask her, no need to explain."


I walk across the street and ring the doorbell...

Notes

Shout outs:

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