Somethings happen for a reason

I Woke up to Ashley close to my face,shaking me,and repeating my name. "W-what do you want Ashley?" I said half asleep. "Oh uhm we are thirty minutes from home. So I wanted to wake you up so you can get ready and stuff." He answered back. I was still half asleep when I got out of my bunk. Ashley began to walk away but I stopped him. "A-Ashley." I said. "What's up Alex?" Ashley asked. "Can I have a hug? I really need one." I said "of course hun." He said giving me a hug. I felt so warm and safe in his arms. He finally let go and said,"you should get your stuff ready we are going to be dropping you and ally off in a few minutes." "Okay I replied. I went to ally o see if she was ready and she was ready before I was. Soon enough I was ready to go back to my home where my thoughts attack and eat me alive.

20 minutes later the bus stopped. I looked out the window to see allys house. Ally went around giving everyone a hug. I thought I should do the same. First I hugged Ashley,then Jake,then jinxx,then CC. I was looking for Andy. He was sitting down on the couch. As I was walking over to him he looked at me and got up from the couch and went upstairs. I felt tears coming but I held them back. Ally and I got off of the bus. I looked at ally and she looked at me. I gave her a big smile. She gave me a big smile. I dropped my things and gave her the biggest and warmest hug ever. Then we both went inside.

Hours later it was time to go to sleep. I laid down and fell into a deep deep sleep.

A few hours later I woke up. My depression was starting to kick in. As I was wake I was panicking. I got up and went to the bathroom. I was looking in the mirror. I looked at myself in the mirror and felt tears rising in my eyes. I went downstairs to get my phone. As I was looking for my phone in my bag I found a blade that I kept in my bag before we stayed with bvb. I picked up the blade and memories flashed back into my mind of when I almost killed myself. I went to the trash can and threw it away. I needed some fresh air so I put on a pair of jeans and a sweater. I got the Keyes to allys car and drive to the bridge. The bridge where I met Andy.

I finally arrived at the bridge. I parked the car and got out. I went over to the bridge. As I was standing there I got flashbacks of when I first saw Andy's face. When he first saved my from jumping. When he grabbed my hand and took me to the bus. The cool air was hitting my face. I thought to myself "I need Andy back I need him back." I got back into the car and drive back to allys. Ally was still asleep. I went downstairs and turned on the tv. I was too depressed to go to sleep. So I watched tv until morning came along.

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