So you're a fan

I woke up and didn’t feel like Andy was here anymore. I sat up still undressed looking around and saw no clothes, but mine on the floor. ‘Did he freaking leave me. Did he just use me as a sex object?! That fucking bastard.’ I thought to myself getting frustrated and angry. I clenched my fists and stood up from the bed. I grabbed some clothes off the floor and put them on. I tried to find my phone and when I did I went straight to my contact list. I scrolled through the very few contacts I had and did not find his in there. ‘Did he fucking go on my phone and delete his contact too. How far is this gonna go?!’ I kept thinking more and more, pacing in my room. I finally clenched my fist and punched a wall. Nothing broke, thankfully, but my wrist and knuckles started hurting and it felt like those broke. Why the fuck did I just punch a wall... I looked at my knuckles and saw red forming into a growing ball. Fuck how hard did I punch it.
I ran to the bathroom trying to find something to stop the bleeding. I found nothing. I held my wrist tightly.

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I sat on the floor against the bathroom wall and closed my eyes, whilst holding a towel against my knuckles as it bled. I took the towel off and checked if the bleeding slowed down. Luckily it did, I washed my hands after and walked into the living room and stared at the door again. Why do I keep staring at the door?... There must be something that makes me stare at the door, what could it be… I pushed that thought away and went to the window. I looked out and had mixed thoughts go through my mind, which couldn’t make up if I was angry or sad. I took deep breathes as I had thoughts of what he had done. ‘Did he do it on purpose, or was it because of Juliet?’ I couldn’t choose whether it was one of them. I walked away and immediately knew what to do. I put my shoes on and grabbed my keys. I opened the door and slammed it behind me. Not paying attention to the loud noise it would make, I sped to my car unlocking it and started driving.

I went to the place I knew was best. The place where I could never stay angry or sad. I drove and I as I pulled up into a parking space I could not believe what I saw. It could not be real. Not now….

Notes

;) I hate school ;)