Kissing the Concrete
Chapter 59: Atleast there's no more drama
About a week later
No drama. Atleast there were no drama anymore.
This week had been both lonely and good for me, in a way. It had been good for me in the way that I wasn't stressed out about anything anymore. There was no threat of death, no physical pain, no drama in general. I could focus on the grades that had worsened from all my absence, and building up my relationship with Jenna again, that had been fluctuating during the past month.
In the nighttime though, I felt lonely and wanted to call Andy again. I wanted him to hold me, to say that it was all okay and to feel like I had someone. He wasn't good for me though, and I was afraid to fall into the viscious cycle of scary events, drama, pain and fright again.
Andy hadn't texted me since that first day, and part of me was scared that he would move on. I didn't want to lose him, but I knew that I would mentally break down if I hadn't taken this break. This time maybe not in a way that I could get out off.
I had an early day this day and decided to meet up with Jenna at a nearby starbucks. After all, I needed some girltime. It was a happy sight to see. Phoenix and Jenna had gotten together again a few days prior, but a relationship should never mean that you lose your best friend.
"Hey!"
"Hey!" I said, in response to Jenna's happy greeting.
"How are you?" She said, after giving me a hug.
"Not to well. I'm kinda puzzled about the Andy-thing."
"Remind me again why you guys broke up? It is stupid! You are perfect for each other, and you still love each other! Was the break-up 'just because'?" She almost yelled. I took a deep breath.
"I needed a break from all the drama. Kidnapping, almost getting shot...Andy almost dying. I can't deal with it anymore, not in a while."
Jenna just stared at me for a second, sighed and facepalmed.
"I'm gonna be brutally honest with you because I am your best friend, but are you completely INSANE?!"
I was at a loss of words.
"He almost died! And you are leaving because of a set of coincidences?"
"There were no coincidences! All the things that happened had a cause, and that cause was Andy!" I said. My fingers reached for my hair as I burried my face in my hands. "I don't blame him. I just don't know if he's good for me."
"He is good for you! Just look at you! You are super-sad without him!"
I sighed.
"How do you know the pills they found weren't intentional? How do you know it wasn't to kill the pain, but to kill himself? He needs you. And you need him." Jenna said.
She was right. I needed to make this right.
Instead of just texting or calling Andy, I decided to just head right over after the coffee with Jenna. I guessed he was probably going to just be chilling out.
When I came over though, it was a completely different sight than what I had expected. The door was wide-open and right inside, I met someone I only had met once earlier. The girl with the blue hair. Lexi.
Notes
Another chapter. Not feeling the story as much as I did earlier, and it'll probably end in a few chapters. The one problem I have is that I want to end it dramatically. But I will find a way.
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4/25/16