I could hear singing. Andy was singing Carolyn. I wrapped my arms around him and snuggled into his chest. His chest was really squishy...OH god Reya, it's your fucking pillow. I opened my eyes. It wa my alarm on my phone playing Carolyn. I thought the pillow was Andy. My god I'm going crazy. Of course it's not Andy. Wake the hell up Reya. I turned off the alarm and struggled out of bed. School. Hell. Prison. I got up and put on a pair of blue skinny jeans with rips in them. I put on a black slim fit t shirt with a blue jay spread across the front with glitter and fade effect, one of Sirens. I brushed out my still straight hair and out on my makeup as best i could to look like yesterday. I put on my blue batman high top converse and pulled a matching blue hoodie on. I pulled up the hood so my parents couldn't see the color in my hair. It would work since it was raining outside. I got my BVB bag together with my stuff and my purse and walked to the kitchen. I said goodbye to my parents and walked out the door. I'm free. I put my stuff in the backseat and turned on the car. Plugging in my iPod I found the song Fallen Angel. I loved this album, Set the World on Fire. I hadn't listened to every song yet.
I drove through the rain to school. I parked in my space and sighed as I stared at the school. Here goes nothing. I unzipped the hoodie, and pushed up the elbows since it was already 70 degrees. I got my bags and walked into school. I dropped my hood in the doorway. EVERYONE was looking. I blushed and walked to my locker. Everyone was shocked or started whispering when I walked by. Why are they whispering? Do they know about Seth and Travis? Did they hear about my band? Are they talking abut my looks? Oh god why can't they just look away? I unlocked my locker and took off the hoodie, exposing the bruises on my arms, but it was too hot for me to keep it on. I fluffed out my long layers, trying to cover my shoulders and neck. I jumped as Siren skidded to a halt beside me.
"YOU. LOOK. AMAAAZING!" she said.
"It was your doing," I laughed.
"I know." she smiled and grabbed my BVB bag (doubles as my book carrier) because I can't lift anything. She followed me to our shared first hour. I opened the door and everyone was looking at me. I shyly shuffled to my desk in the back corner of the class. Siren sat next to me (best seating chart ever). The door opened, Seth walked in. He met my gaze and sneared as he looked away. A girl sitting behind him, across the classroom, lockede eyes with me. It was Annmarie, the girl whose text showed up on his phone.
"So, Reya, what's up with the...look? Finally crawl out of the fucking emo hole? Do you stash a blade in your pocket for your cutting emergencies?" she said cruelly. The class busted out in laughter. I sunk in my chair trying to hide.
Siren glared at her. "Well at least she doesn't need to go live in a fucking hole. You deserve to fall in a fucking hole. You'd break those ankles of yours with those damn heels. How about you go fix your raccoon face?"
"Oh, so the fashion wannabe is gonna stand for her little friend?"
"Damn right I am. And I'm not a wannabe, that'd be you you Barbie doll copy. Are you boobs plastic too?" siren retorted. The class's was roaring with whispers and comments everywhere. All eyes were on me, Siren, and Annmarrie.
"Oh Reya, I hear you fucked some emo at a concert this weekend. How nice to cheat on your boyfriend." some girl said.

I was on the verge of tears. I love siren. She stood up. "How about you all shut up and learn what really happened. Our band Prescription Poison opened for a famous band called Black Veil Brodes at a rock festival in STL and we got to hang out in VIP tents with Blood on the Dance Floor, Breathe Carolina, Flyleaf, My Chemical Romance, and Framing Haley. Reya sang amazingly and that fuck," pointing at Seth, "got arrested and got his ass beat by a rockstar for putting his fucking hands on Reya. That's why he has a fucked up jaw and his hand is broke."
One of the boys in the class looked at Siren confused. "He said that it happened at football practice. Sure a rockstar beat him up. I bet you guys didn't even go to STL."
Seth smiled. "I have no idea what the hell you two are talking about. Go live your pathetic fantasies at your house. I bet you guys get wet to posters of them hoping they'd fuck you."
The teacher walked in. I was on the edge of breaking down. Seth glanced back at me, satisfied with the damage inflicted. I needed to leave, escape. At the end of the hour I almost hurt myself in an attempt to get the hell out of the classroom. Siren ran along behind me. I pulled it together after a pep talk in the bathroom, and fixing my face, and we went to the next class. I got through to sixth hour, being invisible as possible. That doesn't work well when you are the object of all of the gossip. Sixth hour was lunch. I sat with Siren, Tyler, Allie, Blake, Dylan, and two friends of Tylers. Everyone stared at our table and we kept getting paper wads thrown on our table with stuff like "Emos" "Fags" "Whore" "Slut" "Cheater" "Fakes" "Liars" "Kill yourself" in it. I pulled out my phone.
You: This day gets worse and worse.
Andy: What happened?
You: Things got out about my band, Seth, and people are saying I'm a whore, I cheated on him, and he said he got hurt at practice. No one believes me.

I sat there waiting what seemed forever, he didn't reply. I had to put my phone up to return to class. I didn't even concentrate the rest of the day. I sat with my headphones in and didn't even attempt to seem interested in work. I just completed my assignments in silence. At the end of last hour I grabbed my bag and walked out of the school. At least it stopped raining. Something bumped into me, shooting pain down my ribs. Seth was in my face.
"Did you really think anyone would believe YOU? You just made yourself look like a fool. Nice going with the extensions." he yanked on my hair. I leaned over, hurting my ribs more. "No one believes you and no one will. You are pathetic. Worthless. Disposable. Why don't you go cry to your emo fag boyfriend? I bet he'd just love to hear from you right now about your pointless attempt to seem like a victim. I bet hell just move on to the next worthless fasngirl who wants to fuck him. Oh he likes you? Oh poor you. Wouldn't he just love to be here right now?"
"Hell yeah I would, so I can do this!" Seth whipped around just in time to contact his face with Andy's fist. Seth doubled over. Everyone was watching. I small circle formed around us. Andy spit on the ground next to Seth's foot.
"Anyone else wanna not believe Reya? I'm Andy. Andy Biersack of Black Veil Brides. The lead singer. Anyone here think she lied about Seth attacking her? And his scumbag friend travis too? I'll gladly talk to who doesn't believe her. Reya and Sirens band is coming on tour to open for my band. You can see them in Alternative Press and the Rolling Stone next month. You might even see them on Warped Tour. Anyone else wanna call Reya names? I'll talk to you too. Name calling is fucking pathetic, your in high school get the fuck over your egotistical shit minds." he walked over to Seth. "Stay away from her. I'll make the conflict in the hotel look like a first grade playground fight." Andy shoved him and came over to me. He hugged me, all towering 6'3" of Jim, and took my bag from my shoudler. He wrapped an arm around me and motioned for Siren to join us. She skipped along with a "hmp" and followed us to the lot. She got in my car, since she didn't drive today. Andy got in the drivers seat. "Sorry, I got a...ugh a bit carried away." he said with a smirk on his face.
"How did you get here?" Siren asked from the backseat.
"The bus dropped me off my the street. We are still in st Louis and I am free all afternoon and night. I missed you Reya and I knew you were having a hard time, so I had the driver take me here." he said quietly. He brushed his hair out of his eyes. "Let's get you the hell out of this place." He turned the car on and got on the main road.
"Ummm, Andy? Could you drop me off at my house? I have to watch my little cousins." Andy nodded and followed the directions Siren gave. She got out and promised to text me later. Andy backed out of her drive and drove me home. We idled in my driveway for a moment. A song came on my iPod that I didn't know. It was gentle. The guitars faded in. It was calming.
Andy started singing along to the track.
I never meant to be the one who kept you from the dark
But now I know my wounds are sewn because of who you are
I will take this burden on and become the holy one
But remember I am human and I'm bound to sing this song

So hear my voice, remind you not to bleed
I am here, saviour
Will be there when you are feeling alone, oh
A Saviour
For all that you do so you live freely without their harm

So here I write my lullaby to all the lonely ones
Remember as you learn to try to be the one you love
So I can take this pen and teach you how to live
What is left unsaid the greatest gift I give

So hear my voice, remind you not to bleed
I am here, saviour
Will be there when you are feeling alone, oh
A Saviour,
For all that you do so you live freely without their harm

Saviour ill be there when you are feeling alone, oh
A Saviour, for all that you do
So you live freely without their harm

When I hear your cries, praying for life,i will be there

When I hear your cries praying for life I will be there

I will be there! I will always be there! I will be there!

I will fight!


I think my heart just melted. It was exactly what I needed to hear. It was like when I was 15 and heard their song Carolyn for the first time when I was considering suicide. It stopped all the bad thoughts and reminded me that someone cared. Andy cared. I reached over and pulled my keys out of the ignition and got out. Andy grabbed my bags frm the back. I walked around to the drivers side and wrapped my arms around his slim frame. He did the same, resting his head on mine. "Andy?"
"Hmm?"
"You're amazing."
"Yourre pretty amazing too Reya. Just remember," he pulled back to look at me, "You will never be alone."

Notes

Sooo much happening !!! Thanks so much for reading guys (:
the whole savior thing was spontaneously written. I heard it on my spotify radio for BVB when I was writing that part and I was like screw it this works XD this for reading and comments and all that good stuff!