Isis POV

Early morning, I was scrolling through my phone as I was laying in bed waiting for the day to start, I came across an appreciation post where a fan brought up my arm scars and appreciated how I don't allow it to affect my lifestyle and how Ashley is an amazing person for seeing past that. I sighed as I scrolled past that because I knew that wasn’t the case. I noticed that that person started a hashtag "#keepstrongIsis" and "#wesupportIsis" I went to see all of the posts under the hashtag and saw more posts of people making fun of my scars and some were showing more support. I never cared much about how others saw me. But with something about being viewed as someone who was self harming themselves didn't sit well with me. I began feeling really low and alone because very few people actually knew what happened. I gotta start covering myself up more.. At least my arms. I jumped when I heard the bathroom door open to see Ashley come in. I quickly got out of twitter and pretend to be asleep. I had the covers over my head and laid there quietly until I felt someone lay on top of me.

“Seriously?” I groaned. I hear him laugh.
"This beds a bit lumpy." He said.
“I wonder why..” I said sarcastically.
"And it talks." He laughed again. I pulled the blanket away from my face and licked his cheek.
“I lick too!” I said laughing.
"There's only one place you can lick that I’d like." He said wiping his face.
“No thank you.” I said, “I’m good with licking your face.” I licked his face again.
"You're gross." He laughed.
“Correction.. I’m a weirdo.” I said, “And that’s why you still love me!” I rolled over so I was on top of him and he was under the blankets now. “I win.”
"If you say so." He winked, "and only cuz I let you pin me."
“Yeah right..” I said, “Are we going to reenact halloween again?” I laughed as I remember the pieces of the blurry night of he and I rolling all over the floor at the Halloween party we went to.
“No tour bus,” he smirked, “But we can improvise.”

He rolled us over and climbed off of me so we could lose the blanket. As soon as that was out of the way he was on top of me kissing me. The kiss was rough as I tangled my fingers in his hair, he straddled me, his hands exploring my body. He was being really rough, he pushed himself against me, pushing me further into the bed. I let out a small moan as he started undressing us both, his touch, light as a feather teasing me, he pulled my legs apart and entered me. I let out a satisfied moan as he thrust inside me. His hand found its way to my neck, and tightened, too much. I tried to say his name, but all that came out was a strangled cry. I pulled against his wrist, which only made his grip tighten more. He lifted his head, to look at me, an evil smirk on his face, it scared me. I scrambled some more trying to get him to loosen his grip. His thrusts started getting faster as he got close to finishing, I couldn’t enjoy it as I was losing oxygen. I felt tears fall from my eyes as I tried to get him off again. I could feel myself going light headed.

“Ashley!” I choked, “Stop, I can’t breathe!” I felt him twitch inside me as he climaxed. Only once he’d finished, did he let go of my neck. My hands replaced his as I gasped, I moved to the head of the bed.
“What the fuck was that!?” I cried.
“Your punishment.” He said coldly as he got himself dressed.

I sat there in shock as he carried on as normal. I headed into the bathroom to get away from Ashley and compose myself. I had a look in the mirror to see if there was any marks on my neck, it looked slightly red but not enough to have bruises. I decided to have a shower, I took my time, hoping that Ashley wouldn’t be around once I finished. After I was done, I looked over my clothes trying to decide to on what I should wear for the day. I’ve thought about everyone who voiced their opinions about my scars. I started searching for my thin long-sleeved shirt I brought along with me and put on a pair of jean shorts and went on with my day. We all met up at the studio. No one was sitting in the lounge because the rest of the guys were finishing up with all of the vocals in the sound room. I’ve noticed Gemma there scrolling through her phone and sat across from her. I pulled out my phone and started scrolling through all of the comments I was reading through this morning. I sat there for a good five minutes on my phone until Gemma realized I was there.

“Hey!” she said, “I didn’t noticed you came in.”
“Yeah, I figured..” I mumbled as I kept my eyes on my phone as I continued to scroll through what I was reading through. She came and sat next to me.
"Whatcha dooooing?" She asked. I locked my phone before setting it down.
"Noooothing..?" I said looking at her funny.
"So," she said, "how'd the talk go?"
"Better than I expected." I said, "things are fine between us."
"So you had sex rather than talking then." She had a playful look in her eye. I felt my face heat up.
"What!" I said covering my cheeks with my hands to hide the color, "We talked, I promise!"
"Hmm." She said unconvinced, "you have the 'just fucked' look about you." I laughed.
"Anyways!" I said trying to change the subject, "It was after we talked! Which by the way went decent... The convo not the sex.. I mean.. Wait… Forget it."
"Whatever," she laughed, "you like the sex."
"This is off subject!" I said embarrassed and annoyed as I tried to go back on topic. "We talked and he said that he can't help the way he is now because he's so scared of losing me."
"Likely story." She said raising one eyebrow.
"Can you blame him? He nearly witnessed my death." I raised my voice. "He thought he lost me."
"Still no excuse to act like a jealous idiot." She said, "we all nearly lost you, not just him, he needs to let you breathe."
"It'll take time for him to adjust." I said, "everyone handles situations differently"
"If you say so," she said, "I'm not convinced."
"Well.. It's not for you to decide." I mumbled as I nervously tugged at my sleeves.
"Maybe not," she said, "but you know how I like to worry." I crossed my arms.
"And you know how often I tell you not to." I and raise an eyebrow.
“Yeah that’s never gunna happen.” she laughed, “So are you not melting in that top?”
“Nope. I’m from Phoenix. Remember how hot is was there?” I said.
“Yeah!” she exclaimed, “I died from the heat there, but still this is hot here too.”
“Nope. It’s a bit chilly for me.” I said tugging at my sleeves again.
“Chilly willy!” Gemma smiled. ”Dammit, my sisters been rubbing off on me.”
“Yup.”, I said, “It’s THO weather for me.”
“I thought that was my job.” Ashley said as he entered the room. I glanced at worriedly at him and saw CC not far behind him.
“EW!!!” Gemma squealed covering her ears, “There’s innocent ears about shh!”
“Innocent my ass!” Andy said as he walked in after CC and sat next to Gemma.
“Your arse is no way innocent!” Gemma exclaimed, “I’ve been on the receiving end of it before!”
“Gross..” I said laughing. CC came over to me, and sat next to me, but as he was sitting down he farted.
“Ok that was an accident,” he said, smiling, “Sorry.” He got up and before he walked over to the other side of the room I kicked his butt as he left me with the smell.
“Fucking hell dude..” I said as I muffled my face into Ashley’s chest.
“Yeah that’s a normal smell for him.” said Gemma wafting the smell away from her.
“That smells worse than Ernie’s farts.” Laughed Andy.
“You boys are fucking gross!” I said.
“Don’t act like you dont fart!” Gemma said.
“I’m a lady, I don’t fart...” I said with an innocent face.
“Whatever.” Gemma said, “You’re less lady than me, and that’s saying something.”
“Lies!” I laughed.
“I can believe that.” said Andy, “The unladylike bit, not it being lies.”
“Shush.. You wouldn’t know.” I said. “If anyone would, it would be him.” I pointed to Ashley.
“No comment.” he said. I bursted out laughing.
“Smart.” I nodded.
“That can also mean that he’s calling you a man.” said Gemma.
“Again, no comment.” said Ashley, trying to keep a straight face.
“That can also mean you better shush or I’ll come over there and smack both of you guys.” I threatened with a smile.
“Try me.” Gemma smirked. I took off my sandal and threw it at her direction.
“Oh shit! The sandal! I forgot you’re mexican too!” CC said laughing, “Better watch out for that.”
“I don’t want your stinky shoes!” Gemma squealed as it landed near her.
“That was just a warning. La Chancla will hit your head next.” I said laughing.
“La what?” Gemma asked, “I don’t speak Mexicoan.” I face palmed.
“La Chancla!” I said again, “It’s SPANISH for the sandal!”
“What like when parents give their kids smacked bum?” Gemma asked confused.
“Pretty much.” I said, “Although I got both.”
“So hey!” Andy said getting everyone’s attention, “Remember how you mentioned the Purdy’s Chocolate the other day?” I nodded.
“Wait, you were there for that?” I asked.
“Yup!” Andy nodded proudly and turned his attention to Ashley, “So anyway, after talking with them, I’ve mentioned your name and they were excited to invite us over and we can go make our own chocolates together.”
“How romantic.” laughed Gemma.
“Aww Andley!” I laughed, Andley glared at both Gemma and I. I stroked Ashley’s cheek with my index finger. “Shhh… You love me.”
“Freak.” said Gemma.
“Seconded.” said CC raising his hand.
“And you guys still hang out with me!” I said.
“And I still haven’t figured out why.” Gemma smirked.
“Because I’m awesome.” I said.
“No.” said CC
“EVERYTHING IS AWESOME!” I sang.
“Oh for fuck sake.” Gemma sighed. “Don’t get her started on that, or we’ll never hear the end of it, believe me I know from experience.”
“Just because you can’t handle my awesomeness.” I held my arms out wide, nearly hitting Ashley in the process. He glared at me and I laughed nervously. "Oops." Bob walked into the room with Jake and Jinxx.
“Alright guys, it seems like we are done for today so if no one has any questions, we are free to go.” Bob said looking at Andy.
“Yeah actually there is one thing I would like to talk with you about.” Andy replied then he looked at us, “You guys can go and I’ll catch up with you guys later.” We all nodded and walked out and stopped right outside the door.
“Now what?” CC asked.
"Ummm no idea." Said Gemma, "I'm crap at planning things."
“I wanna shoot things..” I laughed. Gemma hid behind CC.
"Not me please." She said with her head popping round his arm.
“That’ll give a whole new meaning to killing two birds with one stone.” I said.
"Hate you." She replied.
“Lets go play laser tag!” Jake said, “I think I saw one on the way to our hotel.”
“That sounds like a great idea!” CC said.
“I’ll be on Jake’s team!” I shouted with my hand up.
"I bagsy CC!" Shouted Gemma.
"How about we see if the do free for all?" Said Jake, "that way there's no arguments."
"Sounds good to me." Said CC, "there was no way I was going to have Miss I-Have-Zero-Hand-Eye-Coordination on my team."
"I thought you loved me?" asked Gemma
"I do but you're really bad at shooting," he said, "I've seen you play Xbox."
“Every person for themselves!” I said, “You are all doomed.”
"Whatever," said Gemma, "I have my ways of winning." She smiled her best evil smile.
“Being weird doesn't make you a winner.” I said, “In that case I would be a champion.”
"Champion looser." Taunted Gemma making an ‘L’ with her hand on her forehead.
“Says you!” I said. “I’m gonna text Andy with all of the info of the place”

I sent Andy a text of the address of where we were going and he told us to wait for him to start. We all entered into a taxi van and went to where Jake saw the place that had laser tag. The place we went to was really cool turns out there was also a bar/billiards area meaning there wasn’t any kids around. Right when we got in we purchased our passes which meant we could do everything we wanted as many times as we liked. After grabbing a few drinks, we sat in the bar area that was next to the pool tables as we waited for Andy. Gemma and I sat at the table with our drinks next to a pool table as CC and Ashley started a game against Jake and Jinxx. I laughed as I heard In The End play through the speakers.

“Perfect timing..” I said to Gemma.
“AS YOU FADE INTO THE NIGHT!!!” sang Gemma, waving her arms around. I laughed as I covered my face as I pretended to not know her.
“Oh man.. Someone make her stop!” Jinxx laughed.
“NEVER!” She laughed.
“Seriously stop murdering our songs.” said CC as he came towards us to take a drink of his beer.
“Never!” Gemma said again.
“Weirdo!” I laughed. Ashley came near me with his drink as he waited for his turn. It was weirding me out how quiet he was being around everyone. At the same time, it was making me nervous.
“Jaaake..” Gemma whined, “Teach me how to play guitar like you?” Jake laughed.
“Hell no.” he said, “definitely if it’s gunna be anything like your singing.”
“Well that’s mean.” said Gemma. CC handed me his cue.
“Take this a sec, “he said, “I’ll be back, I don’t trust no coordination girl over there to not pot the black.”
“Hey!” said Gemma, “I’m not that bad!”
“Yeah you are.” he laughed as he walked off. I nodded at Gemma.
“Told ya.” I laughed as I stood up.
“Why does everyone think I’m bad at pool?” Gemma asked no one in particular. Right now it was Jake’s turn, so I quickly went behind him with my pool stick and poked his butt with it to distract him.
“What the fuck?” He asked laughing. I stood there trying my best to look innocent.
“I didn’t do anything!” I shrugged and pointed to some random passerby, “That guy did.”
“Riiight..” Jake said looking at me suspiciously. It was finally my turn now so I looked over and got ready for me shot. I bent over the table and right as I took my shot, I felt a poke in between my legs, making me mess up. I stood up and glared at Jake.
“You started it.” he shrugged, “Don’t start what you can’t win.”
“I’ll win at everything!” I said holding my pool stick like a staff.
“You shall not pass!” said Jake pretending to be Gandalf in The Fellowship of The Ring.
“Fly you fool!” said Gemma, gesturing me to chase him, we ran around the table a couple of times before I saw that Ashley was glaring at us and CC had come back and looking at us weird. I also noticed Andy walking up to us.
“Uhh.. What did I just walk in on?” He asked.
“Me chasing Gandalf.” I laughed.
“Gandalf,” said Jake, “Yes, Gandalf The Grey is what they called me, I am Gandalf The White.”
“Okay I haven’t seen the movie to know what the hell you’re talking about.” I laughed.
“We need to remedy this.” said Gemma
“Nah I’m good.” I said, “I know for a fact that those films are too long.”
“Are we ready for laser tag now??” CC asked, excitedly.
“Onwards!” I said as we started walking towards the door. I felt Ashley grab my hand firmly holding me back, making sure everyone passed us.
“What do you think you’re doing?” He asked out of earshot of the others.
“I dont know.. I have a feeling you’re going to tell me anyway..” I mumbled with sarcasim as I looked away. He tightened his grip on my hand to a point it nearly hurt, I turned to him quickly.
“You need to stop flirting with my band mates,” he said, “Andy wasn’t enough so you had to start on Jake?”
“We weren’t flirting!” I told him. “I ‘flirt’ more with Gemma than I do with Jake and Andy combined.” I chuckled at that thought.
“Stop flirting with everyone,” he responded, “You’re mine and no one elses.”
“It’s not a big of a deal..” I said under my breathe as I looked away.
”It really is,” he said, “You’re not even doing it subtly, it’s full on flirting, and everyone can see it. What happened to fidelity?”
“But we were just playing around. Everyone can see that too, except for you.” I said.
“You’re acting like a common tart,” he said, “someone who will drop their pants for anyone, I expect any girlfriend of mine to stop that behaviour when I ask them to. This flirting has to stop.”
“Hey you two ok?” said Jinxx from behind us.
“Where did you pop up from?” I asked.
“I heard you two,” he said, he looked to me, a serious look on his face, “Are you okay?”
“Mind your own business.” snapped Ashley. As he walked off, he pulled me away as I gave Jinxx an apologetic look, he nodded but still looked worried. We walked towards the line as it was starting move into another room. We then were lead into a dark room that had a purple light that made my white hair light up. We saw all of the laser vests and guns that were hung up on the wall. On one side of the wall, was vests and guns lit with blue led lights and on the other wall, had vests lit with red led lights.

“I want red!” said Gemma as she ran over to the red lit vests.
“Blue! Because red sucks.” I said as I stuck my tongue out at Gemma.
“Noob!” said Gemma laughing
“Nope. All pro’s know that color doesn’t matter.” I laughed.
“It really does,” she replied, “Only Noobs choose blue.” The rest of the guys chose their colors and soon after, we were given our instructions of what to do and what not to do.
“...And most importantly, have fun!” The person talking finished and opened the doors. I made sure to let everyone in front of me before I got in. Right as I stepped into the doors, I shot everyone already gaining my first few points. I ran my way upstairs and ducked into a corner only to be shot right away. I turned around only to see that this hideout spot has been taken by Gemma. I glared at her and once my gun reloaded, I shot her back and ran off. I bumped into Jake and shot him.
“Hah! Sucker!” I told him as I ran off.
“Dammit!” Jake shouted.
“You bitch!” I heard someone shout from the lower level
“Serves you right! Camper!” shouted Gemma, “Now move, that’s my spot.” I continued running to find another hiding spot and ran behind a wall. This time I made sure to see who was there and saw it was Ashley hiding out. I glared at him and shot him before I ran off again.
“What the fuck?” I heard him mumble. I laughed as I ran into another hiding spot by the other ramp. I turned to see that the spot was already occupied by Andy so I shot him making him immune and unable to shoot me for the next 20 seconds. I then pulled him out and pushed him out in the open. By then his gun has reloaded and Gemma shot him again.
“I killed Sirius Black! I Killed Sirius Black” she sang, while laughing.
“My names Andy!” he shouted to her, “And you’re not Bellatrix.” I laughed again as I shot Andy again when I noticed his light go on again.
“Oh for fucks sake!” he sighed glaring at me, “Bye.” he said walking off.
“Loser!” I shouted after him. I saw Jinxx pass by and shot him as well.
“Stop shooting me!” I heard CC shout from far away.
“Nope!” shouted Gemma, “You should find a better place to hide.” I hear footsteps come up the stairs and saw CC finally join us all up stairs. Of course I had to shoot him.
“Finally!” I laughed.
“Seriously?” he said, “I just reset! Stop teaming up with Gemma against me.”
“Never!” I laughed as I shot him as he was reloaded again. I felt my vest vibrate.
“Woohoo!” shouted Gemma, “I gotcha again!” She ran off before I could retaliate. I quickly ran to her now open hiding spot and waited for her to return. When I saw her approach me, I shot her at the same time she shot me.
“Traiter!!” I laughed, “We were supposed to stick together!”
“When did we agree this?” Gemma laughed running off again and didn’t see that Jinxx was right behind her and ran into him. I walked up to both of them and shot them.
“Every man for himself then, traitor!” I said.
“I am no man!” said Gemma. Jinxx reloaded and shot both of us while laughing before he ran off.
“What the fuck?” I asked looking at Gemma confused. I quickly ran away and claimed my hiding spot, before the timer went off signaling the end of the game. We all headed to the room where we got our vests and guns and hung them up again before we walked out.
“I win!” shouted Gemma.
“No you didn’t!” I laughed as we looked at the screen with the scores, “Jinxx did!” Jinxx had the last kill and the most points. Runner up was Gemma and I as a tie, followed by Jake, Ashley, Andy and last being CC.
“How did I lose to no coordination people over there?” CC moaned, pointing to Gemma and I.
“Cuz you suck.” said Gemma
“Not that’s your job.” he responded, Gemma replied with her middle finger.
“Hey! I’ve never said I was bad with coordination!” I said, “The only thing I can’t do is bang some stupid drums!”
“Hey!” he said, “Drums are awesome, and you suck too.” I gasped.
“I do not!” I said.
“Hey Ashley!” shouted CC, “Does Isis suck?” I punched CC’s arm.
“You would know.” Ashley answered. I faced palmed in embarrassment.
“Oh my god.. Can we not talk about this?” I asked glaring at Ashley.
“Seconded.” said Gemma.
“So we have an early morning tomorrow and it’s getting late.. So hotel?” suggested Andy. We all nodded in agreement and headed back to the hotel for the night.

Notes

Yes.. The chapter title was named after the Asking Alexandria song "I wont give in"!

Anyways... so we were supposed to update but we completely forgot to upload because we were supposed to finish this chapter but instead got distracted with writing the next chapter. (Which is really good btw!!).

Gemma and I worked really hard on finishing this today so we hope its decent! Lol we had a whole lot more to add, but it got late on her end so we just had to cut it short. Also it was refreshing to have a fun/silly chapter with bvb! It's been a while.

So I really wanna know..What do you guys think of Ashley's new personality? So you guys still ship me and Ashley? Dun dun dunnn... Lol

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