Blood Thirsty

*Andy's POV*

I sat in the bathroom for what felt like a millennium, ignoring the pleads of Ashley for me to come out and tell him what's wrong. I almost lost control. I curled up in the corner, feeling the cool wall kiss my cheek as I pressed my head against it. Why couldn't I just be human, and not a danger to my friends. Every waking moment of every day is spent trying to control my thirst. It leaves me feeling weak, the flames of desire refusing to be quenched. The only time my thirst is fully satisfied is when I feed from Ash, but even then, I'm afraid that I won't be able to stop one day, and his death would be my burden. I shuttered at the thought of his spirit haunting me, forever cursing me for his murder. I was pulled from my thoughts by a soft knock at the door. It was Jinxx. "Andy? Please let me in?" He asked softly. I sighed, knowing that I couldn't hide from him, and opened the door, letting him pass before I shut the door again. I sat in the corner again, while he sat down across from me. He stared at me for a few moments, before he let out a soft sigh. "Ash told me what happened. I thought you were just going to talk to him, not make out with him then run." He said humorously. He was attempting to lighten the mood, but it wasn't working. "I-I don't know why I just did that. But, it felt so right. I didn't want to stop, but I almost lost control. I wanted to bite him, and make him mine. He's not mine to have though." I whispered, feeling tears fall down my cheeks. Jinxx just sat there, listening to me cry. "Well, Ash is confused as fuck right now. He thinks that you're messing with him. You need to tell him how you feel." He urged me. I looked at the floor. "I can't. I just can't..." Jinxx sighed, obviously frustrated. He got up, leaving me alone in the bathroom. I could tell that he wasn't mad. He just didn't know what to say. I walked out of the bathroom, and quickly got into my bunk before Ash could see me.

*time skip 2 weeks*

I've been avoiding Ashley more than ever for the past two weeks. My thirst has gotten so bad that I've barricaded myself in my bunk, only coming out for shows. I was becoming a monster. Jinxx tried to get me to feed from him, but I knew that I wouldn't be able to stop. I was ready to crack. I heard a soft knock on my bunk, but I didn't move. I tried to pretend to be asleep. "Andy, I know you're awake." Jake said sternly. Shit. He pulled back the curtain. I flinched at the sudden light. Jake forced his way into the bunk, ignoring my pleas for him to leave. Oh god! His sent! I haven't eaten in days, and his sent was almost enough to make me go mad! "Andy, what's wrong with you! You have been avoiding all of us, and you look sickly! You're scaring all of us! Please let us help you!" I could see the pain in his eyes. "Jake, you need to leave. I can't control myself much longer! I don't want to kill you!" I whimpered, tears falling down my face. His face softened, understanding the situation more. "Ashley misses you. He's been depressed, continuously saying that it's all his fault. He won't say what happened." Jake whispered softly. This made me feel worse. "It's not his fault. I-I love him.... But I'm afraid that I'm going to hurt him, even kill him...." I said between sobs. We sat there, the words hanging in the air like a thick fog. I felt Jake's arms wrap around my body. I sobbed into his chest as he rubbed my back. We stayed like this for a while. I could feel my thirst getting stronger and stronger, so I tried to push him away, but he held on. "Jake! I can feel my thirst taking over! You have to leave! Now!" I yelled, struggling harder to get him away, but I was too weak. I felt him shove his wrist into my face. I broke. I sank my teeth into his warm flesh, tasting his blood. I started drinking from him, like a man dying of dehydration drinks from a stream. He cried out in pain, begging for me to stop, but I couldn't hear him due to my extreme thirst. I felt someone rip me from him. "ANDY! YOU'RE KILLING HIM!" Jinxx screamed. I suddenly realized that Jake was almost pure white, passed out in the bunk. What have I done?!?!

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