Save Me From Myself

*Alyssa's point of view*

I hold Melissa's toned bare body in my pale arms. She plays with the red parts of my hair, braiding small parts of it. I run my finger tips back and forth on her smooth shoulder, listening to her soft breathing. I enjoy this girls company. The sex is great, don't get me wrong but she's just someone is much rather cuddle. Strange. I'm not normally one to stick around but damn, this girl just has this thing that makes me feel all warm and fuzzy.

"Hey, what're you thinking about?" Melissa asks, looking up at me with her soft eyes.

I shrug some and smile, "I don't know. How much I enjoy you with me."

Her cheeks turned a soft pink, "I-I'm glad you like me being around.

"God, you're so cute!" I exclaim, kissing the top of her head, "I swear, you are as about cute as it gets."She lets out the absolute most adorable little giggle/snort that I have ever heard I'm my life. It only makes me squeeze her tighter and closer to me. "What did I say? Cute as hell!"

Melissa turns her head and kisses a spot on my chest, "I really enjoy you too." She snuggles herself back into my body.

I hold her until I hear her fall asleep, I unfold my arms from her and gently lay her on the empty spot next to me. I push myself from the mattress and walk myself into the bathroom. I stare at my ivory body in the mirror. I've lost some weight, my ribs are getting visible again. Maybe this is what I get for cutting off my best friend. It had to be done. I became the source of his drinking. I need to be out of his life. I only made it complicated. I wouldn't have been able to give him what he needed. He needed someone to fix him. I don't fix people. I can't fix people, I only end up breaking people who need me the most.

Melissa, please don't need me.

Notes

God this is so short but I wanted to update something. I'm really grounded and being hella risky. It'll be better soon I promise!