Feathers In A Glass Box

-Andy's P.O.V.-

I went to our tourbus and found CC from the couch. He had passed out and there were beer cans everywhere. I sighed and went to the bunk room. I searched around CC's bunk, and after awhile I found a small plastic bag under his pillow. I opened it carefully, and it had antidepressants and bloody razors in it. I tried so hard to not to cry, but I couldn't help it anymore. For the whole time he have been pretending that everything is fine, but in reality he's going trough hell. Why didn't he tell about it for me? I've always said that he can talk to me if something's wrong, but no. He keeps quiet and hurts himself. At least he has a medication, but it doesn't help. He has been hurting himself, and he haven't even told about it. ''Oh, hey, i didn---'' CC was cut off by me. ''What are these?'' I asked with my eyes filled with tears. ''U-uhm..'' He knew that he couldn't lie to me anymore, so he didn't say 'i don't know'. He didn't say anything. ''I'll ask again - What are these?'' I felt so mad. So fucking mad. ''U-uhm.. They're.. uh..'' CC muttered and he really didn't know what he would say for explanation. ''You've been hurting yourself and you didn't even bother to tell about it for us?'' I asked angrily. ''N-no, it's just--'' CC was cut off by me again. ''Are you so fucking stupid that you don't understand how much this hurts?!'' I growled. ''I'm sorry..'' He muttered and I could tell that he was about to cry. ''Take your shirt off'' I demanded. ''What?'' He was confused. ''Do as I say'' I snarled. He took his shirt of carefully and his body was full of deep and inflamed cut marks. ''Why the fuck are you doing this?'' I grunted angrily and took a step closer to him. ''I... I thought it would help..'' CC's voice cracked and he moved his face down, avoiding to look me in the eyes. ''Did you though how much it would hurt us?'' I asked. ''N-no..'' He replied. ''Did you though that you could talk to me if you feel down?'' I asked. ''It wasn't just feeling down.. It felt like i'm fucking drowning to sadness and stress..'' He bursted into a cry. ''Hey, baby, it's alright..'' I hugged him carefully and tried to calm him down. ''It's alright.. I'm here for you..'' I kissed his head and stroked his back gently. ''I'm so sorry, Andy..'' He cried. ''Shh.. It's ok.. I'm sorry that I yelled for you.. You really don't need it now..'' I talked to him until he was totally calm. ''Would it be okay if I sleep with you tonight..? I don't want that you do something for yourself..'' I asked quietly. CC nodded as a reply and I smiled for him a bit. We went to sleep to his bunk and I was spooning him as I stroked his stomach. His ribs and shoulders were full of deep cut marks, and it made me almost cry to see them. I never thought that CC would to anything like this to himself, he seemed so happy all the time. ''Andy..?'' I heard CC's quiet voice. ''Yeah..?'' I asked. ''What i'll tell for the others..?'' He muttered. ''I can tell.. Don't be scared, I promise that they'll understand..'' I kissed his as he rolled over and pressed his head against my chest. ''I hope so..'' He answered. ''Hey..'' I moved my hand on his jaw and lifted his face up. We had an eye contact for awhile, until I kissed him gently on the lips. For a second he was confused and he didn't know he'd do, but he ended up to kiss me back. I went on top of him and we started quite passionate make-up session. He moaned into the kiss as I rubbed his cock trough his pants, making him hard. ''Mm.. You're already hard and I haven't even done anything yet'' I grinned and bit his earlobe. CC gasped when I started to kiss down his torso. He let out a soft moan as I nibbled at his hip bone. I smirked at the noises of approval and I had to admit, CC probably had the sexiest moan i’d ever heard. I laid between his legs and kissed his inner thigh, making him moan a bit. I smirked for him, took his boxers off and threw them onto the floor. CC bit down hard on his bottom lip as I took him into his mouth. He gripped the sheets tightly in his fist as I started to bob my head up and down. “Fuck..!” CC gasped, arching his back. The ache in my drummer’s gut was getting stronger and his body was starting to heat up as pleasure coursed through him. Suddenly I stopped, sat back up and smirking for the boy beneath me. CC’s cock was dripping with precum and he felt like he was about to explode. I pressed myself up against CC’s entrance, sliding the tip of my cock in. Once again CC moaned at the burning sensation. “Wrap your legs around me, it’ll make it easier” I whispered. He did what I said and I started to move very slowly inside him. ''F-fuck it feels so good..'' CC moaned and wrapped his arms around my neck, trying to relax his muscles as I started to build a rhythm. I reached my free hand down, taking him into my hand and starting to stroke him. He moaned because of the biggest pleasure he ever had and dug his sharp nails into my back. ''Oh- Fuck! R-right there!'' He suddenly moaned loudly and scratched my back. "Mm... I found it." I mumbled, moving down and kissing CC’s neck. I started to thrust into him, making sure to hit his spot each time. Despite the pain, CC was overwhelmed with such an intense feeling of pleasure that he didn’t care. ''Andrew!'' He screamed my name practically and he sounded so hot. ''You're so fucking tight..'' I moaned and felt my own orgasm to built. CC’s whole body started to shake as the feeling in his gut intensified. He slipped his eye shut, screaming my name as the most amazing sensation took over. He arched his back as he felt himself cum over my hand.
I had to restrain myself from cumming as CC’s muscles clenched around me. The look on CC’s face as he rode out his orgasm was the most beautiful site i’d ever seen. "F-Fuck Christian." I groaned as I started to climax, lacing my fingers in the boy’s silky black hair. The pleasure overwhelmed me as I came deep inside the boy before starting to slow down, cherishing every moment of pleasure. Both me and CC were out of breath, our skin flushed and sweaty. I pulled out of him and flopped down next to him. ''Fuck that was good..'' I was trying to catch my breath as CC snuggled up to my side, wanting to be close to me. I wrapped my arms around him and kissed his forehead. ''Good night, C'' I smiled as I heard him snore a bit.

Notes

IT TURNED OUT SO LONG OH MY I'M SO SORRY!