Who could save me now?
Deep everything.
*Skylar's POV*
Today was the day that Virginia had to leave. I knew it would have to come, but i didnt want it to, i needed my big sister. Sammi, Lauren, & Juliet were going to be leaving again soon, so who would i have besides my boys. No one. There it was again. I would have no one. I knew it was stupid to think because i had more people there for me than anyone could imagine, & all the people that are here for me, girls dream of meeting. Virginia had to go back & get Ryan & spend some time with Sammy. I knew that. But i hated to see her go. I walked her to the door of the tour bus & gave her a hug & kiss. & with that i walked back into the back room & plopped onto the bed. I have made my mark on that bed. I sleep on that bed with whoever. Mostly Andy & Juliet because its supposed to be their bed. But sometimes some of the other guys will come in there. But the bed has my Yo Gabba Gabba sheets & comfeter on it. Therefore, i have left my mark on it. I laid down & started thinking. What did i ever deserve to have him cheat on me? I gave him everything. We hardly EVER fought. I was good to him. But i didnt give him sex. & I guess if a relationship is going to be good in this society then there needs to be sex. I was so lost in my train on thought that i didnt realize Brent laying next to me. Brent is Austin's little brother. He is 17. He's around my age & he's attractive, but i dont think i could ever get him because of what i just went through with Jace. Brent & I were close, he helped me get through the days i just wanted to give up. Thats when it happened. Mine & Jace's song started playing. I tried to keep my cool but the tears started coming almost instantly. I couldnt control them. Brent embraced me in a hug & started 'shhhhh' ing me. That's when Ronnie came in. He gave a helpless sigh. He's been really worried. He thinks i might do something stupid to harm myself, which in all reality is very possible if i cant stop feeling this way. Ronnie picked me up & started rocking me until i fell usleep. I loved him because he was my hero. He always would be.
Today was the day that Virginia had to leave. I knew it would have to come, but i didnt want it to, i needed my big sister. Sammi, Lauren, & Juliet were going to be leaving again soon, so who would i have besides my boys. No one. There it was again. I would have no one. I knew it was stupid to think because i had more people there for me than anyone could imagine, & all the people that are here for me, girls dream of meeting. Virginia had to go back & get Ryan & spend some time with Sammy. I knew that. But i hated to see her go. I walked her to the door of the tour bus & gave her a hug & kiss. & with that i walked back into the back room & plopped onto the bed. I have made my mark on that bed. I sleep on that bed with whoever. Mostly Andy & Juliet because its supposed to be their bed. But sometimes some of the other guys will come in there. But the bed has my Yo Gabba Gabba sheets & comfeter on it. Therefore, i have left my mark on it. I laid down & started thinking. What did i ever deserve to have him cheat on me? I gave him everything. We hardly EVER fought. I was good to him. But i didnt give him sex. & I guess if a relationship is going to be good in this society then there needs to be sex. I was so lost in my train on thought that i didnt realize Brent laying next to me. Brent is Austin's little brother. He is 17. He's around my age & he's attractive, but i dont think i could ever get him because of what i just went through with Jace. Brent & I were close, he helped me get through the days i just wanted to give up. Thats when it happened. Mine & Jace's song started playing. I tried to keep my cool but the tears started coming almost instantly. I couldnt control them. Brent embraced me in a hug & started 'shhhhh' ing me. That's when Ronnie came in. He gave a helpless sigh. He's been really worried. He thinks i might do something stupid to harm myself, which in all reality is very possible if i cant stop feeling this way. Ronnie picked me up & started rocking me until i fell usleep. I loved him because he was my hero. He always would be.
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6/28/13