Who could save me now?
Im in love, thats all that should matter.
*Skylar's POV*
It had been two weeks since Jimmy told me he was in love with me. That meant we left LA today. I still havent forgiven Jimmy & i hadnt planned on it. He really fucked up. If he planned on keeping our friendship then he shouldnt have told me that he loved me. That was completely selfish of him. Here i was getting all pissed off over it again. It was stupid. I had Jace. Why was i getting so upset. I knew he loved me. He had told me so many times that he loved me & that there was no other girl. He told me there would never be another girl....
*Jace's POV*
'Alright, sweetie, i really need to go. I told you this was a one time thing & this is the eigth time we've hooked up. I have a girlfriend. Please quit calling me.' I said, out of breath. I dont know what i was doing. I loved Sky, i really did. But who was i kidding? I was a 16 year old englishman. I needed sex in my life & she didnt want that. After what just happened between me & Jessyca, i felt really bad. So i stopped at the store on the way back to Andy's. Thats where i ran into Ashley. 'Hey dude!' He yelled as soon as he spotted me. I didnt know what to do so i just waved. I didnt want to act wierd around him. So i just picked up the roses & the giant 40 dollar teddy bear that said 'I love you!' & stepped in line. Thats when i saw them. Trailing after Ashley was Andy, CC, Jake, Jinxx, Jacky, Ronnie, Ron, Derek, Ryan, Alan, Austin, Phil, Tino, Juliet, Lauren, & Sammi. Oh no. Jake had the most pissed look on his face. Someone knew about mine & Jessyca's fling. Jake had to know & i couldnt have him know because he would kill me. & If he tried to do that, all of the other guys would do that. The whole point is, that I cant hurt her. Thats their angel... She'll be devistated. This thing with Jessyca needed to stop. I pulled out my phone & went to the contact that said 'Jessycaaaaaa.' I typed out ;
Hi, this needs to stop. Everything. I cant sleep around with you anymore. Okay, bye.
I wish it would have been that easy, but of course it wasnt, because she had to reply. ;
Why baby?
I let that one go. I didnt reply. I couldnt. I wouldnt get sucked in. I love Sky. I love Sky. I love Sky. I kept telling myself over & over. Which i guess was true. In a way. I did love her. But was i in love with her the way i used to be? I think, i was going to try my hardest. I relived the day i first met her. The beautifulness i saw. The liviliness in her eyes.
*A day later*
'Okay, Jess. I really have to go!' I said, pulling up my pants. I broke my promise, yet again. I blew her a kiss as i was walking out of Jessyca's door. & In that moment, i was in deep shit, because there stood all of the Black Veil Brides, Falling In Reverse's, & Of Mice & Men's. But the worse part? Skylar was cradled into Ronnie's side, just like she was the day i met her...
*Skylar's POV*
I almost didnt belive Jake when he said that he thought Jace was cheating.. But then i thought about it. All of the signs were there. I got so pissed.. Jake then told me that he knew who it was. Her name was Jessyca.. & he knew where she lived. Thanks to a little late night snooping. There we were, standing outside of the strangers house. All 16 of us, when Jace walks out. He's blowing someone a kiss, with a grin on his face, fastening his pants. Thats the first shot to the heart. Wait, no, thats the second, the first one is standing here in the first place.. When he saw us, his face went pale. A tear escaped my cheek as i stiffened, Ronnie tightened his grip on me. 'Babe, let me explain..' Jace started to say. All of the guys, including Jacky started to say something when i raised my hand & told them to wait one second. I walked into the bus, quickly walking back out asking for some help, the guys came in with me. We gathered every stuffed animal, toy, anything, he has ever bought me, every letter ever wriiten, every article of clothing, everything. I walked back out to him & i began. I threw the giant teddy bear & roses that he bought me YESTERDAY. 'These were because you thought of my beauty.' I said, with no emotion. Then i just started picking up random items. The vest he bought me 'This was because you loved me so much. You couldnt imagine your life with anyone else.' Still emotionless. After an hour, i had one thing left, & i was still completely emotionless. I had one thing left, i was going to try & hold it together. 'This is the letter you wrote me on our 5 month.. Dear you. In French, you dont really say 'I miss you. You say 'Tu mo manques' which is closer to 'You are missing from me.' I love that, you are missing from me, you are essential to my being, you are like a limb, or an organ, or blood,. I cannot function without you. & I can never stop thinking about you, its like youre always etched into my mind, Youre carved there. Its stupid really. Because a million words cannot describe how much i love you. I know forever is a long time, but we will accomplish that. I will be the most faithful boyfriend you have ever had, promises<3 I love you, Skylar, Jace.' & With that, a tear esacped my eye. 'Babe, let me-' 'NO! Theres no fucking explaining to why you cheat on someone, Jace!' I screamed. Everyone seemed shocked when i yelled. Hell, i was shocked, i managed to keep my cool for almost an hour & a half, & no i lose it. Its understandable. Jessyca opens the door. She's gorgeous... 'Oh, hello Jessyca! HOW WONDERFUL OF YOU TO JOIN US! YOURE JUST IN TIME TO WITNESS SOMETHING AMAZING!' I scream as i run up to Jace, tears streaming down my face. 'Skyalr!' He yells. Pleading. I stop, about two feet infront of him. Im sobbing at this point. 'Dont you DARE say my name like i mean ANYTHING to you. You are a worthless cunt! You do not deserve to walk to face of this motherfucking earth & whoever fucks you is absolutely trash, no offense, 'i say to Jessyca. I walk over to all the animals & start chucking them at him. 'I hate you! SO MUCH! DONT ASK FOR ANOTHER CHANCE CAUSE YOU WONT FUCKING GET IT YOU WORTHLESS CUNT.!' Then i fall on the floor & sob.. It suprises me when Jessyca comes up to me & says sorry. Thats when i lost it. ' & When i said no offense! I TAKE THAT BACK! YOURE JUST AS BAD AS HIM! JAKE SHOWED ME ALL THE TEXTS YOU WHORE! YOU KNEW HE HAD A GIRLFRIEND!' & With that i got up & slumped into the bus. I was drained. I waited for the other guys to come in, & when Jake came in, i said thanks to him & laid on him. I lost it...
*Half hour later*
The door makes a creak, i didnt even bother to turn & see who it was, i could care less. 'Sky, can we talk.. Please' Jace said. I got up, 'TALK!' I screamed. 'Alone..' 'No, if you cant say it in front of them then you cant say it at all...' i said.. 'Im sorry... Sky i really am..' 'Jace.. I. How do you.. I cant even belive you have the nerve to walk in here & tell me sorry right now. You cheated on me, more than once. I know im not perfect. I know im hard as fuck to deal with. But relationships are supposed to be about working that out. & You totally betrayed my trust. & My brothers trust. We have two years left on this tour. & That sucks, because i will not continue it being your girlfriend or your friend. Im sorry, wait, who the fuck am i kidding?' I laughed. 'Im not sorry. Were not friends. I dont care if you hang out around here, because 5 other guys live on this bus, but if you think that youre going to talk to me, & not get a shitty reply, or be ignored, youve got another thing coming, son.' & With that i walked into the kitchen. Jinxx started. 'You are lucky that she's hurting, this girl means so much to us, that if she wasnt so in love with you we'd murder you. It is going to kill her not to talk to you, but she will try her hardest.' & With that, he came in the kitchen & let me colapse into him.
It had been two weeks since Jimmy told me he was in love with me. That meant we left LA today. I still havent forgiven Jimmy & i hadnt planned on it. He really fucked up. If he planned on keeping our friendship then he shouldnt have told me that he loved me. That was completely selfish of him. Here i was getting all pissed off over it again. It was stupid. I had Jace. Why was i getting so upset. I knew he loved me. He had told me so many times that he loved me & that there was no other girl. He told me there would never be another girl....
*Jace's POV*
'Alright, sweetie, i really need to go. I told you this was a one time thing & this is the eigth time we've hooked up. I have a girlfriend. Please quit calling me.' I said, out of breath. I dont know what i was doing. I loved Sky, i really did. But who was i kidding? I was a 16 year old englishman. I needed sex in my life & she didnt want that. After what just happened between me & Jessyca, i felt really bad. So i stopped at the store on the way back to Andy's. Thats where i ran into Ashley. 'Hey dude!' He yelled as soon as he spotted me. I didnt know what to do so i just waved. I didnt want to act wierd around him. So i just picked up the roses & the giant 40 dollar teddy bear that said 'I love you!' & stepped in line. Thats when i saw them. Trailing after Ashley was Andy, CC, Jake, Jinxx, Jacky, Ronnie, Ron, Derek, Ryan, Alan, Austin, Phil, Tino, Juliet, Lauren, & Sammi. Oh no. Jake had the most pissed look on his face. Someone knew about mine & Jessyca's fling. Jake had to know & i couldnt have him know because he would kill me. & If he tried to do that, all of the other guys would do that. The whole point is, that I cant hurt her. Thats their angel... She'll be devistated. This thing with Jessyca needed to stop. I pulled out my phone & went to the contact that said 'Jessycaaaaaa.' I typed out ;
Hi, this needs to stop. Everything. I cant sleep around with you anymore. Okay, bye.
I wish it would have been that easy, but of course it wasnt, because she had to reply. ;
Why baby?
I let that one go. I didnt reply. I couldnt. I wouldnt get sucked in. I love Sky. I love Sky. I love Sky. I kept telling myself over & over. Which i guess was true. In a way. I did love her. But was i in love with her the way i used to be? I think, i was going to try my hardest. I relived the day i first met her. The beautifulness i saw. The liviliness in her eyes.
*A day later*
'Okay, Jess. I really have to go!' I said, pulling up my pants. I broke my promise, yet again. I blew her a kiss as i was walking out of Jessyca's door. & In that moment, i was in deep shit, because there stood all of the Black Veil Brides, Falling In Reverse's, & Of Mice & Men's. But the worse part? Skylar was cradled into Ronnie's side, just like she was the day i met her...
*Skylar's POV*
I almost didnt belive Jake when he said that he thought Jace was cheating.. But then i thought about it. All of the signs were there. I got so pissed.. Jake then told me that he knew who it was. Her name was Jessyca.. & he knew where she lived. Thanks to a little late night snooping. There we were, standing outside of the strangers house. All 16 of us, when Jace walks out. He's blowing someone a kiss, with a grin on his face, fastening his pants. Thats the first shot to the heart. Wait, no, thats the second, the first one is standing here in the first place.. When he saw us, his face went pale. A tear escaped my cheek as i stiffened, Ronnie tightened his grip on me. 'Babe, let me explain..' Jace started to say. All of the guys, including Jacky started to say something when i raised my hand & told them to wait one second. I walked into the bus, quickly walking back out asking for some help, the guys came in with me. We gathered every stuffed animal, toy, anything, he has ever bought me, every letter ever wriiten, every article of clothing, everything. I walked back out to him & i began. I threw the giant teddy bear & roses that he bought me YESTERDAY. 'These were because you thought of my beauty.' I said, with no emotion. Then i just started picking up random items. The vest he bought me 'This was because you loved me so much. You couldnt imagine your life with anyone else.' Still emotionless. After an hour, i had one thing left, & i was still completely emotionless. I had one thing left, i was going to try & hold it together. 'This is the letter you wrote me on our 5 month.. Dear you. In French, you dont really say 'I miss you. You say 'Tu mo manques' which is closer to 'You are missing from me.' I love that, you are missing from me, you are essential to my being, you are like a limb, or an organ, or blood,. I cannot function without you. & I can never stop thinking about you, its like youre always etched into my mind, Youre carved there. Its stupid really. Because a million words cannot describe how much i love you. I know forever is a long time, but we will accomplish that. I will be the most faithful boyfriend you have ever had, promises<3 I love you, Skylar, Jace.' & With that, a tear esacped my eye. 'Babe, let me-' 'NO! Theres no fucking explaining to why you cheat on someone, Jace!' I screamed. Everyone seemed shocked when i yelled. Hell, i was shocked, i managed to keep my cool for almost an hour & a half, & no i lose it. Its understandable. Jessyca opens the door. She's gorgeous... 'Oh, hello Jessyca! HOW WONDERFUL OF YOU TO JOIN US! YOURE JUST IN TIME TO WITNESS SOMETHING AMAZING!' I scream as i run up to Jace, tears streaming down my face. 'Skyalr!' He yells. Pleading. I stop, about two feet infront of him. Im sobbing at this point. 'Dont you DARE say my name like i mean ANYTHING to you. You are a worthless cunt! You do not deserve to walk to face of this motherfucking earth & whoever fucks you is absolutely trash, no offense, 'i say to Jessyca. I walk over to all the animals & start chucking them at him. 'I hate you! SO MUCH! DONT ASK FOR ANOTHER CHANCE CAUSE YOU WONT FUCKING GET IT YOU WORTHLESS CUNT.!' Then i fall on the floor & sob.. It suprises me when Jessyca comes up to me & says sorry. Thats when i lost it. ' & When i said no offense! I TAKE THAT BACK! YOURE JUST AS BAD AS HIM! JAKE SHOWED ME ALL THE TEXTS YOU WHORE! YOU KNEW HE HAD A GIRLFRIEND!' & With that i got up & slumped into the bus. I was drained. I waited for the other guys to come in, & when Jake came in, i said thanks to him & laid on him. I lost it...
*Half hour later*
The door makes a creak, i didnt even bother to turn & see who it was, i could care less. 'Sky, can we talk.. Please' Jace said. I got up, 'TALK!' I screamed. 'Alone..' 'No, if you cant say it in front of them then you cant say it at all...' i said.. 'Im sorry... Sky i really am..' 'Jace.. I. How do you.. I cant even belive you have the nerve to walk in here & tell me sorry right now. You cheated on me, more than once. I know im not perfect. I know im hard as fuck to deal with. But relationships are supposed to be about working that out. & You totally betrayed my trust. & My brothers trust. We have two years left on this tour. & That sucks, because i will not continue it being your girlfriend or your friend. Im sorry, wait, who the fuck am i kidding?' I laughed. 'Im not sorry. Were not friends. I dont care if you hang out around here, because 5 other guys live on this bus, but if you think that youre going to talk to me, & not get a shitty reply, or be ignored, youve got another thing coming, son.' & With that i walked into the kitchen. Jinxx started. 'You are lucky that she's hurting, this girl means so much to us, that if she wasnt so in love with you we'd murder you. It is going to kill her not to talk to you, but she will try her hardest.' & With that, he came in the kitchen & let me colapse into him.
You're welcome (:
6/28/13