Who could save me now?
Completely & uterly pissed.
*Skylar's POV*
I was still completely & uterly pissed. 'Babe, they just walked out the door. Give it some time.' Jace said, trying to comfort me. 'HE FUCKING TOLD ME HE LOVED ME. I DONT KNOW HOW MANY TIMES I NEED TO SAY IM IN LOVE WITH YOU.' I said. ' I just dont want to lose you...' I said, a tear escaping my eyes. Oh no. It was going to happen. Here comes the breakdown. I got up & started walking to my room before i started to worry everyone. But apperently it was too late. As soon as i got in my room all the thoughts started rushing in. I couldnt stop the tears. My door opened then. 'Come here.' Said Jake. 'Im fine..' I tried to tell him. 'Skylar, dont lie to me, you are laying on your bed sobbing, you are not okay.' I leaned into him & sobbed. Jake was always there when i needed him & i loved it. He was awsome. I loved my big brothers. I loved having them. They were perfect people.
*2 Hours later*
I guess we had fallen asleep, because i woke up in Jake's arms. There was a puddle if drool on his shirt. 'Shit.' I muttered to myself. I started wiping his shirt trying to wipe it away. It wasnt working very well. But i was trying to get it. All of a sudden i hear a little chuckle. It's Ash. 'We've been checking in on you guys.' He said taking a step foward. 'Jake used to go through the same shit that you do. He was depressed, social anxiety, self harm, suicide attempts, eating disorders.' He kept going on. How did he know about all of this stuff. He could sense what i was thinking. 'Its obvious, & we're all worried sick about you. Why do you think you & Jake are so close? He loves you so much. We all love you so much. If something happened to you... I dont even know what any of us would do..' Ash said with sadness in his eyes. I started to cry all over again. But this time they were happy tears. I tried to be quiet because with me being so down lately, it was apperant that Jake hadnt gotten any sleep in the past few weeks. I dont think any of them had. I hugged Ash. 'I love you bro.' 'I love you too babygirl. Are you still... Do you still have the eating disorder....' He asked in nearly a whisper. No one knew about that.. 'No, Ash, i stopped that once Jenna found out.' Lie. Jenna never found out. But i did stop it. 'Good, i cant see you hurt. I love you too much.' He said. 'Lets let him sleep, you wanna go for lunch?' Ash asked me. & With that, we walked out the door.
I was still completely & uterly pissed. 'Babe, they just walked out the door. Give it some time.' Jace said, trying to comfort me. 'HE FUCKING TOLD ME HE LOVED ME. I DONT KNOW HOW MANY TIMES I NEED TO SAY IM IN LOVE WITH YOU.' I said. ' I just dont want to lose you...' I said, a tear escaping my eyes. Oh no. It was going to happen. Here comes the breakdown. I got up & started walking to my room before i started to worry everyone. But apperently it was too late. As soon as i got in my room all the thoughts started rushing in. I couldnt stop the tears. My door opened then. 'Come here.' Said Jake. 'Im fine..' I tried to tell him. 'Skylar, dont lie to me, you are laying on your bed sobbing, you are not okay.' I leaned into him & sobbed. Jake was always there when i needed him & i loved it. He was awsome. I loved my big brothers. I loved having them. They were perfect people.
*2 Hours later*
I guess we had fallen asleep, because i woke up in Jake's arms. There was a puddle if drool on his shirt. 'Shit.' I muttered to myself. I started wiping his shirt trying to wipe it away. It wasnt working very well. But i was trying to get it. All of a sudden i hear a little chuckle. It's Ash. 'We've been checking in on you guys.' He said taking a step foward. 'Jake used to go through the same shit that you do. He was depressed, social anxiety, self harm, suicide attempts, eating disorders.' He kept going on. How did he know about all of this stuff. He could sense what i was thinking. 'Its obvious, & we're all worried sick about you. Why do you think you & Jake are so close? He loves you so much. We all love you so much. If something happened to you... I dont even know what any of us would do..' Ash said with sadness in his eyes. I started to cry all over again. But this time they were happy tears. I tried to be quiet because with me being so down lately, it was apperant that Jake hadnt gotten any sleep in the past few weeks. I dont think any of them had. I hugged Ash. 'I love you bro.' 'I love you too babygirl. Are you still... Do you still have the eating disorder....' He asked in nearly a whisper. No one knew about that.. 'No, Ash, i stopped that once Jenna found out.' Lie. Jenna never found out. But i did stop it. 'Good, i cant see you hurt. I love you too much.' He said. 'Lets let him sleep, you wanna go for lunch?' Ash asked me. & With that, we walked out the door.
You're welcome (:
6/28/13