Finding Grace

"it's a girl!" Vale squealed excitedly, then frowned. "Wait. Fuck. That's gonna cost me."
"Well, the babys hand was in the way, so I'll have to go back and get another ultrasound," I sighed, flicking through all the ugly maternity clothes at the mall.
I grimaced, not liking anything that I saw.
"All of these are awful," I sighed.
"They are," Vale agreed. "Hideous, actually. But you gotta pick something because wearing sweat pants to the rest of our shows probably isn't gonna fly forever."
"I know," I grumbled.
"Oh look at this! I can't keep calm, I'm having a baby," she chuckled in amusement, her black hair knotted on the top of her head. "Its cute! You have to get it!"
I glanced at the price and grimaced.
"It's a twenty dollar t shirt, I can't do it. I spent most of my shopping funds at the baby store the other week."
"Why didn't you half it with Andy? He's the one who knocked you up, he needs to pay for shit too!"
"Shh!" I glanced around as the other people shopping sent us nasty looks.
Vale rolled her eyes. "Really, Leah, has he been paying for any of the baby stuf?"
"I haven't asked him too," I mumbled, flicking through fat jeans.
"You shouldn't have to ask, he just should," Vale sounded aggravated. "He can't shirk everything off on you! You have to carry the little peanut around, anyway, so he could at least buy it things."
"Vale, I don't wanna talk about it," I mumbled, knowing I would start crying if I did.
I was starting to stress out the bigger I got and the farther along, because I didn't see how we would get everything done and set up in time for the baby, and Andy just .... He just wasn't acting right.
He hadn't been the same since I'd told him I was pregnant. I felt like everything was going downhill for us.
I sniffled, wiping hastily at my face before Vale noticed and went into an Andy hate rampage again.
Once this week was enough.
I hissed, pressing a hand against my stomach as pain rippled through it.
"Leah?" Vales head turned in my direction, and then she was at my side.
"I need to sit down," I gasped, clutching her arm.
"Okay!" she quickly guided me to a bench, and I sat heavily, bending over slightly to try to ease the pain
"Do you need to go somewhere?" she asked, fluttering around me worriedly.
"Ah, no," I huffed, the pain passing. I fumbled through my purse for my bottle of water, quickly chugging it.
"It's okay. The doctor said too much activity and dehydration could be the reason I'm cramping so bad," I said wearily; I was always so tired, so drained feeling, it was all I could do to get out of bed anymore.
I hadn't wanted to even come shopping but Vale had insisted.
And now she was just looking at me worriedly.
"I'm fine, really," I forced a smile at her. "It's normal."
I hoped so at least.



Where was Andy?
I'd tried calling him several times and he wasn't answering.
I huffed, pacing in front of my stage that I'd just hopped off of, my black baby shirt that Vale had bought me a big hit; it was so adorable.
And I had wanted to show it to him!
Aggravated, I called him again, but it went to voice mail once more, and I made a pained sound.
"Lee, he's probably performing," Vale told me, watching me pace back and forth. "Calm down!"
"I can't," I muttered. "I can't. Some things wrong."
"What do you mean?" she looked at me worriedly.
I huffed, slowing my pace, but the cramping started again, and I felt panic sweep through me.
"I need Andy!" I whined, frightened. I didn't know what he could do, but I needed him, right now.
"Go get him!" I gasped, feeling sweat bead on my forehead.
"Leah," Vale straightened slowly. "Do you need to go to the hospital?"
I bit my lip; I wasn't sure.
My back was hurting awfully, no matter what I did or even if I sat down. I'd chugged three bottles of water and went to the bathroom like crazy, but I was still hurting, and I was getting scared, I didn't know what was happening --- and every couple minutes my stomach tightened.
Oh god. I started to hyperventilate.
"Leah! Okay, no," Vale grabbed my shoulders, her face frightened. "Breathe, honey, okay? Breathe! Oh god, okay, um --- CHRIS!"
I whimpered, squatting down with a gasp, unable to breathe.
"Jesus! What's ---?"
"I need you to get Andy! I'm gonna get the paramedics!"
I groaned, falling to my knees, and Vale panicked.
"I'll be right back!" she gasped, and sprinted off, shouting for the paramedics.
"Leah?" Chris knelt by my side. "What stage is Andy at?"
"Four," I managed, digging my nails into the gravel.
"Okay, Kellin is gonna stay with you, alright?"
I raised my eyes, seeing Kellin Quinn kneeling in front of me, pale.
"I'm gonna get Andy," Chris huffed, and he disappeared.
Kellin took my hands. "Just breathe, Leah, okay? Inhale, exhale --- don't cry, I'm sure everything is okay!"
I sobbed, terrified --- what was wrong with my baby?!
"Shh, shh," Kellin said softly, rubbing my arms. "We got you, you're safe, don't worry."
"My baby," I wept, feeling another cramp hit me.
I whimpered, leaning forward, clutching my stomach. Kellin rubbed my arms frantically, not knowing what else to do, and suddenly Vale was back, a man and woman paramedic with her.
"Okay, sweetheart, we're gonna take you to the ambulance okay? It's just right over there," the woman said, and I stared at her, swallowing.
"Where's Andy?" I clutched at Vale desperately, pain shooting through my back.
"I don't know, honey, but I'm sure he's coming!" she assured me, the paramedics lifting me to my feet and then up onto a stretcher, my fingers digging into Vales arm.
"I want ANDY!" I shrieked, writhing against the stretcher as they loaded it into the ambulance.
"Oh my god, Leah, you're bleeding!"
I glanced down, and wailed, seeing the blood staining my jeans.
My baby!

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