All monsters are human.

"Is that what you want baby? Cause i can do it if you want."
I thought back about the dream and the fact how amazing it would be but then i thought of the letter i found in the kitchen, i pulled it out of my bra and saw Andy making a wierd "wtf face". I opened the letter and started off with reading the date, oh gawd this is old i thought to myself as i continued reading on the slightly stained paper.
What said on the letter:
Dear Maya
My name is Damon Leigh, you probably dont belive this but you actually had a broter once and that brother was me.
I was 11 when you were born and since our parents abused us i took care of you until you turned four, i was 16 at the time so i decided to get out of the house and get a job.
I managed to get a part time job at the grocery store and things didnt seem to be so good at the time but atleast i managed to get food some days and still afford to pay the rent.
Now im 28 and ive got 2 kids named Bella and Raven, my girlfriend left me straight after Bella the youngest one was born and now i have to survive alone again.
I found you on facebook a while ago but ive been too scared to send you this letter but i want to tell you that im coming to you town in 4 months to visit and maybe even move back since my job might be moved there and im willing to let you stay at my house to avoid our parents since well they are the drunks they are.
XoXo Damon

I stared at Andy that was utterly confused and said "Andy, i have a 28 year old brother coming here in three weeks and i dont know if this is true but his ame is Damon and he has two kids." i looked Andy in the eyes and out of nowhere he hugged me.
We just sat there hugging for a while but then i realised if he found me on facebook he has probably seen the photos... I felt as a tear escaped my eye and ran out to the bathroom and locked the door i could hear my mom and dad downstairs still going and i felt like throwing up.
I opened the lid to the badly cleaned toilet and the smell made me even more sick and so i ended up throwing up more and faster. I heard ANdy knocking at the door wanting me to open it but i wouldnt i finished throeing up and flushed the toilet, i looked into the cabinets to find my bestfriend laying there so nice and sharp under a glass filled with the familys teethbrushes.
I grabbed it and sat down on the toilet lid as i started carving into the flesh of my wrist just as i made the 4th cut Andy kicked the door in and rushed up to me slapping the razor out of my hand.
Andys POV.
SHe ran off into the bathroom crying and i ran after her, she locked the door but i was able to kick it in after a little while and when i got inside i saw her sitting there eith her razor burried deep into her wrist and i just freaked out.
I ran up to her and slapped the razor out of her hand causing her to flinch thinking that i would hit her, my facial expresiion softened as i pulled her into a hug she cried into my shirt whispering "I dont want to be here anymore, take me home." I replied with "BAby where is home?" she said she didnt know so i took some paper and started cleaning her wrist and trying to calm her down by humming on a song i had written last night.

I never meant to be the one
Who kept you from the dark
But now I know my wounds are sewn
Because of who you are
I will take this burden on
And become the holy one
But remember I am human
And I'm bound to sing this song

So hear my voice remind you not to bleed
I'm here,

Saviour will be there
When you are feeling alone, oh
A saviour for all that you do
So you live freely without their harm

So here I write my lullaby
To all the lonely ones
Remember as you learn to try
To be the one you love
So I can take this pen
And teach you how to live
What is left unsaid
The greatest gift I give

So hear my voice remind you not to bleed
I'm here,

Saviour will be there
When you are feeling alone, oh
A saviour for all that you do
So you live freely without their harm

Saviour will be there
When you are feeling alone, oh
A saviour for all that you do
So you live freely without their harm

When I hear your cries
Praying for light
I will be there

When I hear your cries
Praying for light
I will be there

I will be there!
I will always be there!

I will be there!

When i finished singing the song i had cleaned her cuts and got her into her room and gotten her some water.
We sat on her bed talking for a little while and cuddling a little and out of nowhere she said "I have figured out where home might be." i asked here where and she replied "with you, you are my saviour." i kissed her softly and asked what she wanted to do i got suprised when she said she wnated to go to my house but i was okay with it and so we snuck out.
It had gotten suprisingly late and it was pitchblack outside, i pulled out my phone to look at the clock and then i saw it was 11 pm, i grabbed her hand and we started walking through the darkness to where she thought was home with me...

Notes

So hi guys i hope you liked this chapter im sorry if theese chapters has been a bit messy but so have ive been the last few months and i apologise for that but i write about selfharm in this chapter and its something thats very important to me since im actually struggling with it.
I know the pain you suffer if youre going through a ttóugh time and you dont have anyone to talk to but i just want to tell you all that im here for you if you ever need to talk trust me ive been through alot of shit and since i know how bad it feels i want to help as many people as possible.
Im sorry if this got messy but im currently crying my eyes off so i got to go.
I love yall
Xoxo Julia