All monsters are human.

~Time lapse~
I sat in my bed one week after my abusive parents came to pick me up at the hospital.
I sat in my bed and thought about all the shit that had happened the last week, the bullying had gotten worse, the rumours about the photos had been spread all over social media and the fact that Andy and i kind of has a thing going on, the depression got to th point when i tried to commit suicide and if it wasnt because of Andy i wouldnt be here.

~Flashback~

I walked down the stairs blaming my extra pretty outfit on that Andy was taking me out for dinner, none of them knew the truth about me leaving but its not like they would actually care since they are constantly drunk.
I got on the bus and a few minutes later i arrived at the park, i started slowly waking towards the forest and a two minutes later i arrived at the cliff Andy showed me two days ago
I stopped walking and the memory of when Andy brought me here made me smile, when i caught myself smiling i realised why i was here.
I started slowly walking towards the edge of the cliff and when i looked down I saw hundreds of small and sharp rocks, the sight made me shiver but i tried to not freak out.
I thought about my letter i had left on my bed right before i left it was just 142 things i could do instead of cutting or commit suicide but since i am the ungreatfull bitch everyone says i am that just wasnt enough for me.
I felt a tear escape from the corner of my eye, fuck i hate this, i hate felling weak and showing my feelings.
I Stood up wiped my tears and brushed the dust and grass of my skirt, I tried not to cry while mentally preparing myslelf that i wasnt going to exist tomorrow.
I slowly walked closer to the edge since i had backed of a little when i was mentally preparing myself i was just about to jump of as i felt the same warm embrace i had felt in the hospital bed two days ago i heard Andy's voice in an unsecure and loving tone say "Its beautiful but its not worth taking your beautiful soul." i glanced up at Andys flawless face and saw that a tear had escaped the corner of his eye.
We just stood there for a while and then we estarted walking home to his place, he cleaned of my makeup, prepared a bath and actually cared about me.
~End of flashback~

The thought of what had happened made me smile nut i still couldnt hold back my tears and all of the sudden i heard something knock on my window i went to look and see what it was and got suprised when i saw Andy sitting outside of my window.
"Let me in!" he mouthed and i opened the window, he climbed inside and hugged me.
"I was worried about you, you didnt answer my calls and you didnt answer my texts." I lied and said my phone had been turned off. "You do realise that i was worried that you would try it again, right?" I replied with a simple "Yeah" while staring down in the old floorboards that was hiding under my rug. Andy grabbed my hand and made me sit down on the floor infront of him, i gave him a confused look and all he said was "Tell me whats wrong or ill be even more annoying and creepy." I told him how i was feeling and why i had tears running down my cheeks when he got here when i finished telling him all my thoughts i started crying, all the shit i just couldnt handle it anymore. Andy hugged me and started comforting me, theres something i really like about Andy i dont know why though i just feel like hes here for me and he is always making sure im safe when no one else cares.
After a little while i calmed down adn decided id try to sneak down alone and see if i could get some food for us without getting punched in the stomach, as i walked down the stairs i heard a moan.
Fuck thats discusting, no one wants to hear their mother moan thats just gross. I started walking towards the kitchen and quickly grabbed some bread, butter and a little other stuff i started making a few sandwiches and then i looked at the table i saw it was new mail as i read who it was to i saw that it was to me, i quickly took the letter and put it in my bra to make sure no one would steal it and walked back upstairs with the food.
When i got up i saw ANdy sitting by my desk reading something with a black cover, i walked closer and then i realised what it was.
FUCK it was my diary! "Andy put that down now!" i yelled but he continued reading it "Do you have wet dreams?! You are so innocent i didnt know you got those" he said with playfull smirk on his face. "YEs everyone gets them now give it back!" Andy just smirked and started reading about the one he was in and i felt as my whole face got red as a tomato.
Andy finished reading it and walked up to me asking "Is that what you want baby? Cause i can do it if you want."

Notes

Im just gonna leave it like this because i want to actually post a chapter that i dont accidentally delete.
Anyways love yall <3
Xoxo Julia