My mom is gone. It's just me and my dad now. Things aren't that weird, but if I have to go shopping for feminine products, I have to go with him which doesn't end well. He stares at the wall clueless, and I take my time because the expression on his face is priceless. But I will miss my mom, luckily I get to spend New Years with her in Miami.

Right now I'm in Kristen's garage with the rest of the gang. We're trying to figure out a new name for the band seeing Partying Underaged Naive Kids sounds a little silly.

"I got this, Control Alt And Delete My Heart." Austin says and we all shake our heads.

"How about, Forever Young." Kristen says.

"That kinda sounds like the name of a pop band." Jack says.

"You're right." Kris says.

"How about we practice now and come up with a name later?" I ask and they all agree.

"Let's run Heart Of Fire first." Jack suggests and we all start.



Me:
Driving through this world unknown,
I've built my life on broken bones.
Not living for this anymore,
You want a fight... I'll bring a war!

I feel alive inside
I won't be terrorized,
I'll take all the blame.

This heart of fire is burning proud
I am every dream you lost and never found
This heart of fire is stronger now
Build your walls but you can't keep me out
I'll burn them down.

I am every vow you broke,
They left for dead and turned to smoke.
Arm yourself with words of hate,
I'm ripping through the souls you take.

I feel alive inside
I won't be terrorized,
I'll stand up to the pain.

This heart of fire is burning proud.
I am every dream you lost and never found
This heart of fire is stronger now
Build your walls but you can't keep me out
Let's burn it down!

This heart of fire is burning proud.
I am every dream you lost and never found.
This heart of fire is stronger now.
Build your walls but you can't keep me out.


All:
This heart of fire, fire, fire.
This heart of fire, fire, fire.
This heart of fire.



"That was great guys, I was a little late on a few of the lines though." I say.

"It still sounded great." Austin says.

"Wait guys, what about Heart Of Fire? Wouldn't that be a good name for the band?" I ask.

"We all do have a heart of fire when it comes to music." Jack says.

"Well I don't have a heart, I have this piece of machinery that pumps oil through me, but in theory you are right." Austin says making us laugh.

"So it's settled? We are Heart Of Fire?" Kris asks.

"Agreed." We all say and begin the next song.



At Home.

"Dad I need to go shopping!" I yell from the kitchen and grab a Monster from the fridge. I walk out to the living room to see my dad, CC, Jinxx, Jake, Danny, and Ash. "Didn't realize you guys were here."

"What do you need to go shopping for?" Dad asks.

"Clothes, shoes, hair dye, the usual." I say.

"Oh we were about to go out for a guys night." He says and I sigh.

"I have a date tonight, so if you want I could take you." Ashley says.

"I'll be in the car!" I say and run out the door.



At The Mall.

"So what exactly is the look you're going for?" Ash asks.

"I kinda want the wild child sexy look, you know what I mean?" I ask.

"Lily, I've hooked up with a lot of different kinds of chicks, of course I know what you mean." He says.

Ashley picks out dark tank tops, short shorts, leggings, high heel boots, and transparent shirts for me. He also picked out crop tops and a new bra for me.

"Okay so all you need is hair dye?" He asks.

"Yeah." I grab some bleach and light purple hair dye. I buy all the stuff and we go back home.

"I'm gonna go change into my new clothes." I say.

"Okay well I got a date, so I'll see ya later." Ash says and leaves the house.

I dye my hair, by the time I finish it's 9:14pm and my dad's still not home. I redo my make and straighten my hair. I put in one of my new outfits and call Jack over.

Notes

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