I'm Sorry
He's A Lot Like You Too
Blade's POV
"I trust you." I whisper. "What? I'm sorry, may you speak louder? I can't hear you." I close my eyes tightly and open them before turning back to him. "I trust you." I say louder.
He hugs me. After a few moments he pulls back. "I think we should ride." I say. "Yes." He says. "So you live here by yourself or do you live with a friend or someone?" He asks. I didn't think about that. I have to tell him.
"I live here with someone." I answer. I have to tell him soon. I can't keep it from him. "Oh, that's nice. How have you been all of these years?" He asks. We start riding again. "This year is better than the others, but it may get really bad. I don't know. Anyways I want you to meet someone back at the house. Come on."
We turn our horses around and start walking back out of the trail. We get to the stable and I get off of Midnight. I saddle up Spike and tie him to the post along with Midnight. "Stay here Andy, I'll be back."
I run to the house and tell Scarlett she can leave. "Andrew, where are you?" I ask. "Right here momma." He walks out of his room. "Get your boots on baby we're gonna go riding with a friend of mine." I say. "Yes mam." I smile.
Andrew loves Spike. He's his little partner. Andrew comes out of his room. "I'm ready momma." He says. "Come on then silly." He giggles. He looks so much like Andy even sounds like him, but his voice isn't as deep because he's 3.
He had blue eyes like Andy and I. Black hair like me. And he's really tall like Andy and I. We're the same height. He also has a 4 inch mohawk. We reach the stable and Andrew gets on his horse and so do I. Andy smiles.
"Hi. My name is Andrew, but people call me Andy." Andy says. "Hi. My name is Andrew." Andrew says. Andy looks at me. "Is that your cousin?" He asks. I shake my head. "No. Andrew you can start walking we'll be behind you." I say.
Andrew starts walking and then Andy and I start walking. "Andy, take a really good look at Andrew." He looks at him for a second and then looks at me. "He looks almost exactly like you." He says.
"That's because he's my son." I say. "And he's 3 years old." I add. Andy's face goes white. "He's mine isn't he?" He asks. "Yes. He's a lot like you too. The blue eyes, height, even his love for Batman, KISS, and rock music." Andy smiles but it quickly fades.
"Don't be sorry about that one time. I wouldn't have Andrew if it wasn't for that. He is my purpose to live. Without any purpose why should I be here. If I had no purpose to live, I wouldn't be here."
"Does he know?" He asks. "No." I reply. " May we tell him? I haven't been there for him ever, but I want to be there for him." He says. I think it would be great. It's just I want him to know Andy before we tell him. "We can tell him, but only if you prove you want to be around him first."
He nods. "I would do anything." I look at him and smile. Andrew needs his father and his mother. Having only one parent, you feel like there is something not there. Something from you is missing, but you never know because you don't know what feeling complete feels like.
We finish riding the trail and put our horses up and go inside.
"Andy, come see my room!" Andrew says excitedly. He smiles and follows Andrew to his room. I follow. "Whoa kid, nice! Batman, Kiss, Misfits, Mötley. Wow. You even like Billy Idol?" Andy says. Andrew nods. "Yep!"
"Come on guys let's go watch a movie. You guys can choose." I say walking away. I fix Andrew, Andy, and I some popcorn and go to the living room. "Mama, can we watch Sweeny Tod?" Andrew asks. "If it's OK with Andy." I reply. "Yea. That's fine. I love that movie." I sit down on the couch and Andrew lays on the sofa. Andy sits on the couch beside me.
Andrew and Andy fall asleep and I keep watching the movie. I start getting really tired and eventually fall asleep.
I wake up and it's 3pm. I get of the couch leaving Andy and Andrew to sleep. I get the empty popcorn bowl and put it in the kitchen. I use the bathroom and wash my hands.
I go back to the kitchen and start washing the dishes. I scrape and stack all of the dishes and run the water. I put the dishes in the sink and start washing them. I hear footsteps so I turn around. Andy walks in. "Hey. Can I help?" He asks. "I got it."
"Ok." He says. "Oh. Umm... Can you tell me where the bathroom is?" He asks. I grab the hand towel and walk towards the bathroom while drying my hands. I stop. "Right here." "Thank you." He hurries in and I walk back to the kitchen and clean the last dish.
Andy comes out. "So, should I leave now?" He asks. "You don't have to. Not unless you want to leave. It's up to you." "Would you like me to go get some food?" He asks. "I was actually about to make some sandwiches. If you want you can get some food, but you don't have to."
"I won't go get food, but I get to help you fix the sandwiches. I want to help." He says. "Ok." We make the sandwiches and I go wake Andrew.
"Andrew? It's time to eat." He gets up and goes to the table. We eat and go back to the living room. "Andy do you want to go in my room and look at some of my stuff?" Andrew asks. Andy looks to me and I nod. He looks back to Andrew. "Sure, kid." They go to Andrew's room.
I start going through the channels and If I Stay, a movie I've been wanting to watch was on. Around 20 minutes later I go check on Andrew and Andy. I stop and lean on the door frame. Andy pulls back Andrew's covers, picks him up, puts him in the bed, and pulls the covers up. I smile.
He turns around and stays walking towards the door. He sees me and smiles. We walk out to the living room and stay watching the movie. Andy puts his arm around me. I lean into him. He turns towards me and kisses my forehead.
We start watching the movie and I slowly fall asleep cuddling to Andy and him to me.
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