Come Back Here

"...one night stand with Vic." Phew. Okay, that was probably one of the hardest things to say out loud.

"Sure about that, Cel? You sound a little unsure about that." Gerard said with a mischievous smile.

I nodded, "No." Fucking-a!

"Hmmm, Andy you might have a chance after all."

"Were you honest when you said! I could never leave your bed! Wake me up and let me know you're alive!" When I get nervous I start singing whatever song is either stuck in my head or playing. It just so happens to be Yeah Boy and Doll Face!

"Is she alright?" Andy asked.

"She does that when she doesn't know what else to do." Renae said. "How about we move on? Andy, would you rather make out with Hayley Williams, or Celeste?"

I face-palmed. Dammit, Renae, I thought you were on my side here.

I couldn't look up, instead I kept singing, just not as loud.

"How long we talking about?" Andy asked. Wait, is he considering saying me?

"Doesn't matter, how ever long you feel the session should last." Renae answered.

"Does it lead to anything else?"

"No, it's just making out."

There was silence for quite a long time, well, despite my singing. This is starting to put me on edge. I'm dying to know who he'd choose. Would he go for the gorgeous Hayley, or plain-old-shy me?

His voice was so small, so quiet, or maybe it was just me singing and thinking about what he would say, that I almost missed his response.

"...Celeste..."

I still couldn't look up. My eyes were huge, but I was just staring at my legs, trying to comprehend what the fuck he just said. Am I hearing things? Am I hallucinating, or did he just say my fucking name over Hayley Williams? I have to be insane, there is no way in hell he'd pick me over her.

I didn't realize it for a few minutes, but it was dead silent. I had stopped singing without even realizing it. All there was was the faint sound of Pierce the Veil playing through the speakers of the entertainment system.

"Well...that was eventful... Gerard, it's your turn." Renae broke the unbearable silence, leaving me wondering if I was crazy or not, or if Andy actually said that. Even if he did, it might not mean anything, he could just not find Hayley attractive...but who doesn't?

"Um... Renae, would you rather be a nudist or a cannibal?"

"What kind of question is that?" Renae asked.

"A horrible one."

"Nudist, duh. Cel, you're up."

As much as I'd rather curl into a ball and just continue singing (well, in my head anyways,) I looked up and surveyed the room, deciding who to ask, and what to ask them. I settled on asked Renae something, because Gerard and Andy are scarring me.

"Renae, would you rather die in space, being sucked into oblivion, or destroy everything you know and love?"

Renae just looked at me blankly.

"Cel that's very...deep...and morbid..." Gerard commented.

Renae looked around, "Die in space." She quietly answered. Yes I know, that was probably completely random and uncalled for, but I wanted to avert away from the dirtiness.

"Andy, your turn." I shyly said.

"Okay... Gerard," he paused, "would you rather watch gay porn the rest of your life, or never get laid again?"

"Gay porn." Okay, that lightened the mood. Everyone, including me, burst out laughing. Just the way he said it, so calmly and without a second thought just sent us on a laughing fit.

"Can we do truth or dare? And not Way Style truth or dare, like actual truth or dare?" Renae asked once the laughter died down. "It's more fun to dare Gerard to actually watch it than ask him."

"Yes!" I exclaimed.

"Andy? Gerard?" Renae asked.

"Fuck it, sure." Andy said. Gerard shrugged.

"It's settled then. Gee, truth or dare?"

"Truth." He said with a crooked smile.

Renae gave him a sassy look, "Goddamn it, Gerard, you were supposed to say dare so I could make you watch gay porn."

"Why, do you have gay porn?" He asked, making suggestive looks.

Renae blushed, "No."

"You do! Bahahahaha!"

"Okay, besides that... Given the chance, and hypothetically speaking I was completely okay with it, would you kiss Maria Brink?"

He sat there for a moment, a look of contemplation on his face. If I were him, I'd say no, because more than likely, Renae is testing him.

"...No?"

"Final answer?"

"Yes."

"Love ya, Gee."

"Love ya, too, Ree."

"My turn." I piped in. "Andy, truth or dare?" What are you doing, Celeste? What the fuck are you doing? I didn't actually think this through, because now I'm freaking out.

"Truth." He answered, looking me straight in the eyes. Butterflies swam inside me, my heart raced, and my mind went foggy. Dear God, his eyes are just these hypnotizing blue orbs that are casting a spell on me.

"Name one thing that turns you on." I said, feeling daring.

He gave me a smug look, "Something in this room."

I could just sense what he was trying to say, and I liked it. I liked what he was hinting at, and I liked the fact that he wasn't trying to make it less obvious. Our eyes locked and I felt my breathing become labored.

"God guys, either get a room or stop eye fucking each other." Renae stated, but I paid no attention to her.

Lets just say that the rest of the night felt heated between Andy and I. It just was shocking to me, though. I know I'm insecure, but I honestly don't know what he'd see in me. I'm this frail, broken object that is overly obsessed with bands. I'm this invisible girl with a dark side he's never seen, and hopefully he never will.

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