If Heaven were on Earth

Nikki's POV:

After having forgiven Andy (again), things went mostly back to normal. He had yet to fuck up again, but I had already started to prepare myself fro whenever it happened again. Thankfully, I had friends of my own to help me through it, and I didn't feel like i needed to rely upon my boyfriend for company as much anymore.

Cody and me hung out on a daily basis, which was quick to annoy Andy. I had to repeatedly reassure him that our new friendship was nothing more than that, friends, but he would have none of it. He failed to see how this was just like his friendship with Danny, someone who i certainly did not like, but I usually said nothing of their relationship, because he was important to Andy. Cody was just like that (except he didn't regularly get drunk or high) and had also tried to get closer to my overprotective boyfriend while Danny had yet to say a word to me.

Oli, Alex, Kellin, Vic and Amy quickly had become some of my best friends, and I felt completely comfortable around them all even when Any wasn't around, which was often. I knew he was having fun and all, but I was starting to worry about our relationship. I don't think it'll last much longer in all honesty.

Andy and I have stopped being a couple. Sure, every now and then we see each other, and we both mange to pull off the 'boyfriend/girlfriend' role perfectly, but that isn't a relationship, at least not a healthy one. He's stopped coming over at night, and he no longer takes the time to walk me to class. Hell, some days I don't even see him at all, as he usually disappears wit Danny at lunch or between periods.

Andy's become insanely distant. He used to call at night when he couldn't come over and we would talk for hours about random topics, before one of us either fell asleep clutching the phone or he would just decide to unexpectedly come over. Our moments alone at his house have ended, and I honestly cannot remember the last time he kissed me.

My heart breaks a little at the thought of our clearly shattering relationship, but at the same time, i am relieved. I knew it was all too good to be true, and that eventually, it would end. Plus, after recent events it seems like he doesn't even care anymore, if he is willing to constantly put everything we had on the line, maybe it's just time for us to end. And maybe that's okay.

I'll be crushed, no doubt, but at this point, his distance has cracked me one day at a time, and i'm slowly unwinding. What we had meant the world to me, maybe it didn't to him, but that's okay.

We'll break up, and perhaps my heart will forever be scarred by Andy Biersack, my brief high school sweetheart, and i can only hope that one day, someone will be able to replace him. But for now, I'm okay with how things are ending.

I am okay with us breaking up, because I can't stop it. I am okay with him crushing my heart little by little. Because maybe we were never meant to be together at all, maybe it was just inevitable. Life goes on, and so will I, even when he's gone.

Because i will be okay without him.

I hope.

Notes

whoah, so what has just happened? Last they were kissing like in the Notebook, and now they're breaking up? Damn, I think Andy's royally fucked up.

next chapter in andy's POV to clear some things up!!