If Heaven were on Earth

Nikki's POV:


"Well, for starters, you seem pissed as fuck, while we were calmly playing video games, which your fucking girlfriend is cheating at by the way," Vic states as he leisurely puts an arm around Andy's shoulder.

I roll my eyes at Vic's attempt to lighten the mood and I lean further into Oli's shoulder, glaring intently at Andy. I run my eyes over each of the boys individually, frowning at Danny's red-rimmed and blood-hazed eyes. When I glance at Andy all I see is rage tensing his body, nothing else. I suppose that is better than the alternative, but I'm still upset that he is clearly overreacting. I did nothing wrong, so he has no reason to be angry, especially when he was the one who originally left me. It's his fault, he put himself in this position, he left me when he promised he'd never leave again.

Andy takes a deep breath and pinches the bridge of his nose in frustration, "alright, can you guys let me and Nikki talk in private for a few moments?"

Oli's arm around me tenses and he pulls me unconsciously closer to his side. Cody tenses beside me and scoots closer, Alex even visibly moved closer to me in a form of protection. Kellin and Vic shoot each other a look and stand in front of me, and Matt puts a hand on Andy's shoulder.

"Dude, calm down," he says calmly, but Andy just shakes him off.

"Nikki, can we talk?"

I sigh and stand, maneuvering around the human wall that is Kellin and Vic, and I walk over to my currently fuming boyfriend. I eye him, "fine. Let's go."

I storm defiantly into the hall and Andy follows, just as I whirl around to face him. "Where the hell were you?"

He seems taken aback slightly, "what?"

"You fucking left me, for the second time! Andy, do you remember the last time you left me? I ended up in the hospital and my trust for you is still mending from that. Do you want to lose me that badly?"

His eyes widen, "what? No, baby no. I love you. You knew where I was. But why were you here without telling me?"

I throw my hands up in exasperation, "you are unbelievable! Do I have to tell you where I am every second of the day? I left my phone at home so I didn't have to bring a bag, so I couldn't call you. Plus I wasn't alone, I was with your friends."

"Exactly. My friends." He points out angrily.

"They're my friends too! And you know what Andy, you're treating me even worse than you used to last year. And I refuse to be with you if you are like that." Tears begin to unconsciously fill my eyes and I look away.

Andy's takes my hands in his and tries to make me look at him, but I refuse. "Nikki, baby, I love you. Please, don't say that. I'm still me."

I shake his grip off, blinking back tears. "You know how I feel about you, Andy. But I can't handle you being like this. This isn't the end, I just, need to think."

I can't tell him I love him. I know if I do, I'll combust and fall willingly into his arms all over again. Repeating this never ending cycle which consumes my senses.

"Nikki, no, baby, please. I love you, you're my everything. Please," he begs.

I look away, "I think I'm going to go home now."

"Let me drive you at least," he pleads.

I shake my head and walk past him, "c-can one of you take me home?"

"I'll go," Oli and Cody offer at the same time.

Andy visually tenses at there offer and he glowers at the two men. I smile at them both and Cody stands, walking over to my side. I smile at him and mutter a small thanks to the other guys before shakily walking to the door with Cody right behind me.

"Don't go," I thought I heard Andy whisper but I'm already gone.

Notes

sorry for the wrong chapter there... I guess prewriting chapters does have its flaws lol
anyways, hope you all had a fabulous long-weekend and easter for those of you who celebrate the holiday! i'm actually sick right now, so don't expect a chapter tomorrow but hell, I am full of surprises

my parents actually just left to take my older brother back to school, and I was watching them leave, I realize that they'll never realize just how close to death I am. For those of you who read Numb or faint, you'll understand that I adore my brother at times. So his opinion of me greatly impacts my decisions. I just wish he could understand me a bit more,

I truly am sorry for constantly telling you guys about my personal life, if you want, I will stop
I promise

goodbye