My Reality

My mother has been sneaking up food to me and checking on me all weekend. My father doesn't suspect a thing. My mother told him that I was at a friend's house all week and won't be back for awhile. He didn't question it, and ignored her the rest of the time.

Right now I would be at a friend's house, if I had a real one. I had Nicole once, so that dream wasn't entirely a lie. She was my best friend in the world, but the kids started bullying her because I was her friend, and when she came out that she was gay, everything got worse for her. She started self harming and would never leave her room. She committed suicide two years ago, and boy have I missed that cheeky blonde girl.

I do have one friend though, but we aren't that close. His name is James. He volunteers at the school, seeing he graduated four years ago. He's not really a friend, but he's nice to me unlike others. To be honest, I've always had a little crush on him, but he's way out of my league.

I'm not prepared to go back to school today. Yes I get to see Andy, but I'm not prepared to see my bullies. There's Taylor Matthews, her boyfriend Ricky, and her minions Katie and Alexis. I can't believe Ricky was my brother in the dream, he fucking hates me for no reason. He doesn't hit me of course, but he verbally abuses me on a daily basis. Taylor, Katie, and Alexis on the other hand, will beat the living shit out of me. I'm just not prepared to see them.

I go to my bathroom and take a quick shower. My dad's already gone to work, so I'm good. The hot water stings my wound on my stomach, but luckily it's almost healed. I dry off and go into my closet to pick out what I'm going to wear. I put on my Pierce The Veil hoodie, my black leggings, and my leather boots. I do cats eyes for my makeup and brush my hair. I walk downstairs to be greeted by my mother.

"Good morning, I made pancakes." She says, she has a new bruise on her arm. I can tell, I know how much she hates wearing long sleeve shirts. I sigh.

"Is it a good morning?" I ask taking out a plate. I grab a pancake and drown it in syrup.

"No, but it can be if we want it to me." She says. I've always loved my mother's optimism, but it's a little too weak for me.

"What time should I sneak back in at?" I ask, this is an usual question in this household.

"Around ten, maybe eleven tonight."

"Alright." I say finishing my meal. "Love you mom." She hugs me and I go to the door, I grab my bag, and start walking to school.

School is like a second home to me, meaning a second hell hole for me. My teachers and James are kind to me, but every student there hates me. Why you may ask? You'd have to ask them about it. I guess I'm just that one kid in school who everyone picks on. I'm like the oldest student that goes, but even grade nines curse at me. I'm a year older than the rest of the seniors because I had to take off school for two months. It was in grade ten and it was the first time my dad raped me. The day after it happened, I packed all my stuff and ran away to my aunt Carla's. But I accidentally broke her China so she sent me home. I tried to think of somewhere else to retreat to, but I had no one else. So I didn't bother doing summer school, forcing me to be where I am today.

It's still pretty early, almost no students are here. The ones that are, they don't usually bother with me, which I appreciate. I go to my locker and grab my books. God knows how much I have to get caught up on. I stuff my textbooks and binders into my bag and go to the library. I love it there because Taylor and her crew never enter that territory. I sit at the table and plug in my earbuds. I put my music on shuffle and listen to Somewhere In Neverland by All Time Low. Turns out I dreamed them up as my teachers, really they're just a good band. Just like I dreamed up Kellin, Oli, Danny and Ben. Well at least Andy's real. I search through my backpack and find my schedule, I look at my courses.

*Music - Mr Pitts
Academic Mathematics - Mr Ferguson
Drama - Mr Coma
Academic English - Mr Biersack*

They're all my real teachers! That's good, at least I get them, I hope they're a lot like how I dreamt of them.

Twenty minutes had went by and the bell's about to ring. I never worry about my bullies in the more because they're always late for school. I scurry down to the music room and I'm the first student in class. I sit in the front of the room and Mr Pitts, or Jake as I know him, looks up from his laptop.

"Good morning Miss Kanes, it's good to see you well again." He says slouching in his seat. I simply nod and he gets up from his chair. He places a few papers on my desk and gives me a sympathetic smile.
"Seeing you missed the second week of this semester, here's all you've missed. I'll send you down to resource to do your test tomorrow. That's just a few papers your parents need to sign for this class. And seeing you missed out on picking your instrument, it was picked for you. You'll be learning acoustic guitar."
He sits back in his chair to let me take everything in. This class is going to be easy. I already know how to play acoustic like a pro. The bell goes off and Mr Pitts (Jake) starts his lesson. I put my earbuds in and kind or zone out throughout the lesson.

Next is my math class. I hate math, but I'm awesome at it. I sit in the front row and take out my note book. Mr Ferguson (Jinxx) sees that I'm here and just gives me a stack of papers. He doesn't say anything, he just expects me to hand it in as soon as possible.

Now this brings me to lunch. First semester I'd usually sit under the stairs of the entrance of the school. But today I just don't feel safe going anywhere. I search the halls for James. The kids don't bother me when I'm with him because they know how much shit they can get in. I finally find him and when he sees me he smiles. He walks up and hugs me.

"Look who's back." He says and I blush to the sound of his voice.

"It's good, no it's okay to be back." I say with a sigh at the end.

"So how have your morning classes greeted you?" He asks.

"In music, I just listened to music and zoned out. And in math, I have a whole bunch of homework I need to work on." I say and he gives me a sympathetic smile. "Just think, after all this bullshit, I'll be able to graduate."

"Well don't forget about the forty community hours you still need to get."

"Fuck, I always forget about that. Any suggestions?"

"Mr Purdy can always use a hand in cleaning the chemistry room after school. And there's Mr Biersack. He's putting on a play and you can help him with it."

"I love plays, I'll ask Mr Biersack. Thank you James."

After lunch I walk to my drama class. I learned from James that Katie, Ricky, Taylor, and Alexis didn't come to school today so I was thankful and walked through the halls at ease. I was the last person to enter the drama room and Mr Coma (CC) gave me last week's notes. He said I have to do a monologue by the end of this week.

After Drama, I got so excited for English class. English is my favourite subject and just so happens to have my favourite teacher. When I get there, *Test Today* is written in white chalk on the board. I sigh and look over at Andy. He smiles when he's sees me and I walk over to him.

"Here's all the notes for the test, I'll get you to do it on Thursday." He says making me feel a little better. He hands out the tests to everyone else and has me sit at his desk, which I don't mind at all.

"So what exactly is this assignment?" I whisper, referring to the papers he gave me.

"You just need to write a twenty line or more poem on any topic you wish." He whispers back.

"Any suggestions?" I ask.

"Love." He says and I begin to blush.

I take out my notebook and start writing. When the bell rings, everyone rushes out of the classroom, except me.

"Mr Biersack, I was wondering if I'd be able to help you out with the school play for community hours." I ask. He looks at me and pauses.

"Okay, do you know what play we're performing this year?" He asks and I shake my head. "I think you might like it; Romeo & Juliet. Stay behind on Friday, that's when we start working." I nod and step out of his classroom.

I walk out of the school and into the parking lot to see a very familiar face...

Notes

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