My Reality

There's a light that's just making my eyes hurt. Fuck, can I get a dimmer? And there's a little noise. At first I couldn't exactly describe what I was hearing but now, no it couldn't be. The sound of a heart monitor gets louder and louder, then my eyes open.

I'm alive! I close my eyes again. This can't be true, I died. I'm sure of it. Or is this a second chance?

I open my eyes again to see myself in a hospital bed. Every part of my body aches, but I ignore it because I made it, I'm still alive. I slowly sit up on the bed, trying to focus on everything at once, but still everything's blurry. How long have I been here? Someone walks into the room just as I sit up.

"Miss Kanes, you're awake! I'll go get a doctor!" A man's voice exclaims. His voice is familiar, but his face is still blurry.

I rub my eyes just as he comes back in with a doctor. It's Andy! He's alive! We're both alive! But what about Sam? What about my baby?

"Miss Kanes, it's good to see you awake, we thought that you were a goner." The doctor says.

"Andy, you're okay!" I exclaim, and he looks at me funny.

"Of course I'm okay, and how do you know my name?" Andy asks making me raise a brow.

"Andy, it's me, Scar. Did you lose your memory after you got shot?" I ask, and the two men look at each other more confused than ever. "Doctor please tell me the baby's okay."

"Miss Kanes, what baby? You didn't have a child and you're not pregnant." The doctor says. Now I'm confused.

"I'm sorry, what happened to me then?" I ask.

"This man found you all bruised up and left to die. Luckily he brought you to us just in time." The doctor says referring to Andy. "I'll call your parents right now to come and get you." The doctor leaves the room.

"Well now that you're awake, I'll be on my way." Andy says.

"Wait," I say and he turns to me. "Please stay." He nods and sits in the chair next to me. "What exactly happened to me?"

"I'm not exactly positive, but I found you behind the school. You were all bruised up, unconscious, bleeding. I got you to the ER just in time. You went through surgery and have been out for a week." Andy says and I let out a sigh.

"Do you know at all who I am?" I ask and he sighs.

"I know that you're a student and you're in my English class, but that's about it."

"So everything was a dream." I whisper to myself.

"What'd you dream about?" He asks, a smile creeping onto his gorgeous face. Oh how I want to kiss him right now.

"Nothing really." I say blushing.

His phone goes off and he looks at his new text, he frowns. "I have to go, but I'll see at school Monday morning, hopefully." He says and leaves.

A moment later I realized that the doctor said he was going to call my parents. Shit! If my dad finds out, he'll kill me. I look around the room. My cellphone sits at the table next to the bed. I check the time. It reads 3:46pm, okay my dad's not home yet. My mom won't tell him, I'm sure of it. I go to the pantry in the room and retrieve my clothes. It hurts to move but oh well. My stomach hurts the most. I look down to see it all bandaged up. Andy did say I got surgery. I quickly and carefully put on my clothes and look at myself in the mirror of the bathroom. My face is pale and there's bags under my eyes. I splash warm water into my face and dry it off with some toilet paper. I've looked worst. I put on my converse just as my mother walks in.

"Baby you okay?" She asks.

I've always hated her for not leaving my dad and bringing me up through that hell hole of a house that is our home. Truth be told she does abuse me, but only because my father tells her to by threatening her. But I don't care about all of that right now, I just need a mommabear hug. I walk up and hug her, making sure she doesn't hit my wound.

"Hi mom." Tears begin to spill between the both of us.

She drives us home and tells me to go up to my room. She says that as long as the stitches are not healed, she'll hide me from dad so he doesn't open them.

I sit in the darkest corner of my room and silently weep. The Andy I knew and was in love with isn't real. None of it was, and this is my reality.

Notes

The first chapter up! At least they're not dead!!!

Shout out to ChanceBVB

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