My Darkest Desire

I sit on the side of the Warped Tour stage and snap picture after picture of Ashley playing solos with Jinxx and Jake. I really have no idea where CC and Andy are. "Hey Ash!" I shout over all the screams and shouts from the fans surrounding me. I can see that he heard me, as he looks around for the person that called him. I waved my hand in the air to get his attention and yell again. "Over here!" He finally sees me and waves back.

"Oh for the love of god Ashley, get your ass over here!" I shout. He sets his guitar down and comes over, sitting between me and Megan. "You sounded great Ashley." said Megan all flirty as she twisted her hair around her finger. I frowned and kicked her with my foot hard enough for her to get the message. She winced and let hand fall from her hair. "Thanks but you must be lying because I couldn't even hear myself over Jinxx's amp pumped up to fifty." Megan looked emberessed. "Well I could hear you." I leaned over and gave him a light peck on the cheek to show Megan he's mine. She sighed and left without another word.

Ha, even though Megan is my best friend, she can be a snotty bitch, and fuck it felt good to do that in front of her. "Hey man who's this?" Me and Ash both turned around at the same time to identify the familiar voice from behind. It's CC towering above us on stage. I wave. "I'm Rennee, Ashley's girlfriend." I watch as Ash nodds in aggreement and CC makes his way down next to us. "Nice... do you know that Andy's coming down with something?" Ashley scratched his head confused. "No actually, with what?" "Don't know yet. But his stomach has been making these big ass noises lately. I assume...nevermind, just hope it doesn't interfere with the concert."

I turn away and giggle rudely. Just the thought of Andy's stomach growling after the show, during the sighning would be fucking hilarious. But then again, I feel really bad for him. "I'm gonna meet up with Andy babe, see you after the show." Ash said. I turned around and hugged him. He hugged me back super tight. So tight it actually kind of hurt. Then CC and Ash left, leaving me alone. Well, sort of alone. I am surrounded by fans. Where is Megan? I get a little worried and decide I should text her. I mean it's a little dangerous here at Warped Tour before the show. I sure as hell hope she's okay. Wait, what am I thinking? god I need a ciggarette.

Renee: srry 4 being a bitch earlier Meg, please meet me by the stage soon. :((
She responded right away.
"Myb1tch: kk, just hanging with Ash, be there in a few."
I dropped my phone when I read the text. Megan's hanging with my boyfriend, what the fuck? I really don't mind them talking or hanging out really, but after Megan's little flirting episode with him right next to me, I just can't let this happen. I pick my phone back up with tears forming in the coners of my eyes and run as fast as I can through the crowds of fans jam packing the space between the stage and the ticket stand. I have no idea where they are but anywhere is a good place to start looking I guess. I continue running and running with tears now streaming down my cheeks and accidently smack into warm leather. I jerk back and fall down onto the damp grass. The body in warm leather turns around, and guess who it is...Ashley, with a big fucking smile on his face. I never make him smile that big... and oh my fucking god, there is Megan holding Ashley's guitar, pretending to play it like a freaking dork. He crouches next to me and tries to hug me. But I let the jealous monster break out of me and slap him across the face.
It feels like there's a large bubble around the two of us as he just rubs the assulted part of his face. I block out the sound people around us and pull him in to kiss his perfect fucking lips. He inserts his tongue into my mouth and I feel for it with mine. I can feel his teeth and tongue, wet and warm. He moans like a whore and I pull away, our faces just inches apart. So close I can feel his breath on my nose. "I'm so sorry Ash, I got jealous of you and Megan. She can get you to smile but I can't, you go out of your way to see her but not me, you talk about her frequently, but not me...I just love you too much to see you with another girl, especially when it's my friend." He nodded as to say he understood, and I just pull him in for another warm and comfortable kiss. I hope that bitch is watching. Ashley is mine, mine mine mine mine.
He pulled away and put one hand around my waist, and another under my knees. Fighting against gravity, he stood up with me in his arms and carried me back to the stage, dodging the fans with an uncomfortable jerk every now and then. He set me down gently onto the stage and sat super close to me. I looked in his eyes and smiled. "I know you got jealous because you thought that I started liking Megan and not you, but I just accidently bumped into her on my way to meet Andy. She complemented my guitar and asked if she could hold it for a second, so I let her. I have no interest in Megan, you're so much prettier and WAY less bitchy, that girl forces a smile on my face because she's so...stupid no offense." He seemed honest, but it's so easy to lie about these kinds of things. I guess I have no other choice but to trust him. "Yea, Megan has that effect on people. And when you say less bitchy do you mean I am a bitch just much less of one than her?" He nodded and kissed my forehead. "Better go find the band. The shows literally going to start any minute, and I have to hunt down Megan for my guitar." I giggled like a child as he stood up and left. I am kind of a B, and I love that he said it.
I decided to text Megan really fast,
Renee: find Ash and give him back his damn guitar before the show, then meet me by the stage.
I shoved my phone into the back pocket of my black skinny jeans and just stood waching the empty stage, waiting for the hottest boy band ever to come on. It was just people yelling and screaming for the longest time, when all the sudden the crowd behind me started chanting, "Black Viel Brides! Black Viel Brides! Black Viel Brides!" I joined in quickly and hoped that it meant BVB was really coming on. The chanting got louder and louder. My ears literally felt like they were going to explode, but the louder the crowd got, the louder I got. "RENEE!!!" I turned around and saw Megan with her arms in the air, screaming her head off to get my attention. I smiled and faced the stage again. Well good, maybe Ash got his guitar back. "SCREAM LOUDER IF YOU'RE ALL READY FORWARPED TOUR!" Andy's deep voice blared through the speakers that stand all around the crowd of fans. I really wished he hadn't said that, because the fans screamed EVEN LOUDER. I am really going to be deaf now. The sharp and blurry shouts and screams from everybody was giving me a headache. But I tried pretending it didn't bother me by just smiling and yelling along.
After a few more minutes of loud voices, CC ran, literally ran out onto stage and came up to the edge of it, touching his hungry fans. A tall girl next to me with bright green hair, a tipicall BVB band shirt, huge freaking gauges, and snake bites touched CC's hand and fainted! I saw CC glance over at me and wink. He was awesome. I didn't care to touch his hand, cause I get to everyday already, whenever I want. Megan on the other hand though, shoved me out of the way and grabbed CC's arm. He nearly fell into the crowd, but caught himself by grabbing a pole that just happened to convieniently be there. Then he stood up and went over to his drum set and played his amazing cowbell drum solo. Jake, Jinxx, and Ash were on stage also but decided to play along with CC. Well atleast Andy wasn't sick enough to cancel their show. So that's good. Ashley's hair was dripping wih sweat as he danced and jumped to his own music. "AASSHHLLEEYYY!!!!!" I screamed as loud as I could. Just then the one and only Andy Biersack sprinted out on stage wearing his cool batman shirt and holding his microphone high in he air. "Are you all ready for tonight?" He asked. I couldn't make out if what the crowd was screaming was a yes or no, but it was probably a yes because Andy nodded and walked over to the microphone stand and put the microphone back in place.
"All right California, the first song were going to play for you tonight is called, "In the End" He backed up carrying the microphone stand with him and positioned it to his liking. But just before Ashley Jake and Jinxx were done playing their part, I caught Andy's eye. He smiled at me and wouldn't stop staring. I blushed. Even though he was hot as fuck, I wanted to stop the bound-to-happen heart break by telling him that i'm dating Ashley. I want to tell him that now actually just for seeing the reaction on his face. I'm such a fucking bitch. I broke up the eye contact by looking over at Ashley who was head jearking non stop. His fingers moving so fast on the guitar I couldn't keep up with them.

Bu then all the sudden the music stopped and Andy set his microphone down. I scratched my head. What's going on? There is screaming and flashing lights all around me right now but all I can focus on is Andy. He kneels down on one knee and stretches his arm down for someone to grab. I look around confused. "Me?" He nodds his head yes and comes closer to the crowd taking a risk of being pulled in. I look over at Megan who is recording everything and swallow what feels like a large brick. I take Andy's sweaty hand and squeeze, as he pulls me up with serious strenghth onto the stage and smiles even more. I tey to avoid having an anxiety attack by not looking at the heavy crowd of BVB fans watching me with hungry eyes and turn away. "Are you okay?" Andy whispers in my ear. The feel of his warm breath on my skin sent shivers up my spine. I look up and sweep my bangs out of my face with my hand. "Just...fine."

Notes

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