Faint

Courtney's POV:

The poison spread like wildfire, consuming and choking everything in it's reach, including me.

At first, the small amount of toxins in the water was barely noticeable, so subtle you couldn't even tell that it was there. Only a few seconds later did the real effects take over, grasping onto every nerve cell in my body and harshly fracturing them.

I screamed at first, I wasn't even sure of what was happening until it was too late. the poison had already consumed majority of the water's volume, filling my prison with a poisonous aura. I was going to die in here, and I was starting to accept it.

The already once fiery liquid steamed again, giving off foul scents as the toxin absorbed into my pores, entering my bloodstream. It felt like liquid fire was running though my veins, with no way to dowse the vicious flames. I thrashed about, waving my limbs around awkwardly, only tiring them faster. My pulse quickened, and a pounding sensation erupted in the back of my scalp, quickly rotating to behind my watering eyes. There was a brief moment where I was blinded by the searing pain, unable to see and rely on vision, which alarmed me as much as the invasion of poison did.

After it past, i collapsed against the far wall, gasping in air. The poison was quickly leaching the energy out of my body, and my bones felt suddenly fragile. Everything hurt at once: my muscles were obviously strained from my thrashing, my joints cracking at odd angles, bones jelly-like and paralyzed. That was when I realized that i couldn't move.

I began to hyperventilate, erratically sucking in air in ragged gasps of pain, attempting to calm my shaking body. I felt myself slipping down the slippery wall, plunging into the toxic water. I managed t suck in a deep breath of dry air before I went under, and I continued to struggle to move my limbs. I blacked out after that, quickly regaining conscious, and swimming furiously to the surface, greedily breathing deeply. I spluttered out mouthfuls of frothy, foul water, that for some reason had a blackish tinge to it. Bubbles and foam embraced the edges of my chambers, circling me, giving off an eerie scene to this horror movie.

I leaned against the wall again, closing my tired eyes. I was so, so exhausted with this. So why both continue to fight? What was keeping my alive and conscious? i could easily slip under, maybe die without even knowing it. That would be nice. Would i visit that cliff again? Or would that be it?

Whatever happens, I'm ready for it. Life isn't worth living if it's full of torture and pain. I am ready to face the other side. I am ready to die.

"Everybody wants to go to heaven
But nobody wants to die
I can fear death no longer
I've died a thousand times

A wasteful universe
And we don't know our soul was
Emptiness inside our heads
But no one dares to dwell

Throw me to the flames
Watch me burn
Set my world ablaze
Watch me burn

How are we on a scale of one to ten?
You can tell me, what do you say?
Do you wanna talk about it?
How does that make you feel?

Have you ever took a blade to your wrists
Have you've been skipping meals
We're gonna try something new today
How does that make you feel?

Hold me close, don't let go, watch me
Hold me close, don't let go, watch me
Hold me close, don't let go, watch me

Notes

Sadish chapter, but I really did enjoy writing it.
The song at the end is my new obsession, and I truly think you all should go listen to it if you haven't already heard it. Even if you don't like BMTH, i think this song is really powerful and speaks something.