Shadow Children
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Andy’s POV:
I walked like a zombie off of the bus, partially because I was still in shock that Jay is my sister and partially because I was so fucking tired. For the past however long we’ve been crashing at the Westtower’s house.
“Hey guys! Welcome back from the long day at the studio! I made you guys grilled cheese and bacon.” Mrs. Westtower said.
“BACON!” I screamed, “Thanks Mrs. Westtower you’re the best!” I realized how cartoonish that sounded after it escaped my lips.
“No problem Andy, and don’t forget my name is Laura.” She said placing the platters of food in front of us.
“Thanks Laura!” The guys shouted.
“Thanks mom!” Blade, Niki, Jagger, and Jay said.
“Justine, sweetie, what’s wrong?” Laura whispered into Jay’s ear.
“I’ll tell you later…” Laura nodded and left the room.
“Your mom makes the best bacon ever!” CC yelled.
“I know! It’s a family secret though…” Blade moaned.
“I know it! I know it!” Jay taunted him. I just shoved my face into Kraft singles grilled cheese and bacon. Yum. I looked over and saw that Jay hasn’t touched her plate, not once… She got up and brought it into the kitchen. I tuned out the guys and listened in on Jay and her mom.
“Mind explaining what’s going on?”
“I took a DNA test… you know, to find out who my biological mom is. To maybe understand a little bit more why she gave me up.”
“Yes, I know this. You told me before. So what’s the problem?”
“My birth mom is Amy Biersack… Andy’s mom… And that just doesn’t make any sense now does it? Why a woman who already had a son would give up a daughter she was clearly eligible to take care of… Was I not good enough for her?” Jay lost her heat on the last question.
“Honey… Oh my… I don’t know what you’re feeling, but I know that you grew up with a family that loves and supports you. And Amy must have had her reasons, but by fate you and Andy are together again. And now you know that you have 4 more brothers to look out for you, I’m not including CC in that count because you’re dating him…”
“Thanks mom…”
“You need to eat something Jay, I don’t care what it is. Eat something…” Jay walked back into the room and I focused on my plate.
“I know you heard everything…” Jay whispered to me as she sat back down. Jagger, Blade, Ash, CC, and Jake were playing hand-egg.
“Your mom is right though… We’re a big family, related or not. And you grew up with people that support and love you for who you are…” I whispered back. I got up and joined the guys in hand-egg.
Time lapse to rehearsals
Jay’s POV:
So today’s the day… The day that we officially start practicing for the tour and the day that I see Matt again… I thought to my self as I dragged myself out of bed. My phone buzzed.
Minnie! I miss you! BE READY IN 15 MINUTES BECAUSE WE LEAVE THEN! CC wrote.
Mickey! You’re right next door to me, just come in here! I wrote back.
“Fine…” I heard him sigh outside of my door. He walked in.
“What? You were… never mind you’re CC…”
“What’s that supposed to mean?” I chuckled and got dressed. CC was laying on my bed, so I crawled on top of him and kissed him. We were like that until Blade walked in.
“WHAT THE MOTHER_FUCKING SHIT RIGHT NOW JAY?” He screamed. I jumped off of CC and landed on the floor.
“Ow…” I moaned.
“Let’s go!” I heard Jake scream from downstairs. The doorbell started ringing one billion times.
“NIKI I’M COMING!” I yelled.
“TOO LATE JINXX LET ME IN! HE CLAIMS THAT I WAS GIVING HIM A HEADACHE!”
“Really? You have to scream in my ear?” I heard Jagger groan. I ran downstairs and straight into the car.
“Wait Jay… You didn’t eat anything, go grab food…” Ashley said.
“I’m fine, I’m not hungry…” I said softly.
“You said the same thing last night, you need to eat something…”
“I’m fine. I’ll eat when we get there.”
A while later we pulled into the parking lot of the rehearsal space.
“You know in a week we’ll be back in California, and in three we’ll be on tour…” Andy whispered, “I can’t wait to tour… I’ve missed it… Let’s go tour… Wait we are…” He was mumbling to himself. We walked into the studio and I remained silent.
“Let’s get started, shall we?” Andy asked everyone. There he was sitting there, Matt… all of those years of hatred and he’s still sitting there.
“So the set list is as follows… each band gets to play five songs… except for us because we’re the main band… but you know what I mean… You can play up to three covers if you want to or all of your own stuff…” We all nodded and listened, “Just if you’re covering a band make sure the other band knows so that way they could know not to play the same song…” Our band shot second on stage, so we were second to practice. Our set list was:
-2 of my songs
- A cover of D.R.U.G.S.’s The Only Thing You Talk About
- A cover of sleeping with sirens’ Do It Now Remember It Later
-And a cover of Fall Out Boy’s The Phoenix
I sang back up until The Phoenix, the guy’s know that that’s my song… and now I got the chance to sing it to the person I always did in my head.
“You are a brick tied to me that’s dragging me down. Strike a match and I’ll burn you to the ground, we are the jack-o-lanterns in July setting fire to the sky. Here it comes this rising tide, so come on. Put on your war paint. Cross walks and crossed hearts and hope-to-dies. Silver clouds with grey lining.
So we can take the world back from a heart attack. One maniac at a time we will take it back. You know time crawls on when you're waiting for the song to start
So dance alone to the beat of your heart
Hey young blood. Doesn't it feel like our time is running out? I'm gonna change you like a remix. Then I'll raise you like a phoenix. Wearing our vintage misery. No, I think it looked a little better on me. I'm gonna change you like a remix
Then I'll raise you like a phoenix
Bring home the boys and scrap, scrap metal the tanks. Get hitched, make a career out of robbing banks. Because the world is just a teller and we are wearing black masks. "You broke our spirit," says the note we pass
So we can take the world back from a heart attack. One maniac at a time we will take it back. You know time crawls on when you're waiting for the song to start
So dance alone to the beat of your heart
Hey young blood. Doesn't it feel like our time is running out? I'm gonna change you like a remix. Then I'll raise you like a phoenix. Wearing our vintage misery. No, I think it looked a little better on me. I'm gonna change you like a remix. Then I'll raise you like a phoenix. Put on your war paint. The war is won. Before it's begun. Release the doves. Surrender love (Wave the white flag!)
Hey young blood. Doesn't it feel like our time is running out? I'm gonna change you like a remix. Then I'll raise you like a phoenix. Wearing our vintage misery. No, I think it looked a little better on me. I'm gonna change you like a remix. Then I'll raise you like a phoenix. Hey young blood. Doesn't it feel like our time is running out? I'm gonna change you like a remix. Then I'll raise you like a phoenix
Put on your war paint” We ran through the set a few more times and then it was the guys’ turn. I went to the bathroom.
“So how’s the little emo girly doing these days?”
“Matt… leave me alone…” I said through gritted teeth.
“Why should I? I mean at one point we were such good friends, right?” I felt the warmth of his breath on my neck. I turned to face him.
“I said leave me alone…” I said once again. He grabbed my wrist and I winced. I’ve been trying, I really have… but it’s those guys… those “Matt”s. Check twitter… it’s been a top trend for a few days now…
“No, why should I?” He asked and smirked. He pushed me into the bathroom, since we never actually entered.
“Matt get OFF of me!” I tried pushing him away but his grip just got tighter. He pushed me into a wall and I blacked out.
“Jay! Jay! Jay! Wake up! Please…” I heard CC begging over me. My eyes fluttered open and I was on the floor of the bathroom.
“What happened?” I mustered out of my mouth.
“It’s was Matt he beat you up badly…” I heard Blade say. I realized that I was covered in CC’s leather coat. I knew exactly what happened… that fucking bastard. I sat up. Jinxx tried to place a hand on my shoulder and I jerked away.
“Don’t touch me…” I whispered hoarsely.
“Sorry…” He whispered.
“Guy’s please leave…” I said once again. Niki handed me a fresh set of clothing. I slipped into them and did something that I haven’t done in almost a year… it wasn’t my arm it was my stomach and my hips, that’s the part that was almost a year. I left the bathroom and walked into the hallway, with the police. I saw them talking and I looked out the window; there was Matt sitting in the back of the police car. CC was eyeing me.
“You should of put more pressure on it if you realized you were wearing a white shirt…” I looked down and saw red dripping through.
“Come on…” He carried me back into the bathroom and helped me take off my shirt carefully, “This may sting, but hot water should help.” I flinched as it touched my skin. CC held my hand the whole time.
“Why do you still love me?” I whispered.
“Because you’re beautiful and hilarious and amazing, why do you ask that?”
“Because I’m a fucking mess that can’t get my life together…”
“No, you are my girlfriend so something must be right.” He looked into my eyes almost like he was searching for an answer to something.
“Justine?” I heard a voice call.
“She’s in the bathroom…” CC called back.
“When you leave the bathroom would you mind if I escort you to the hospital?” The same voice called.
“Okay.” I croaked. And just when I was going to leave CC pulled by the waist and held me tight against his body, our lips pressing each other’s.
I walked like a zombie off of the bus, partially because I was still in shock that Jay is my sister and partially because I was so fucking tired. For the past however long we’ve been crashing at the Westtower’s house.
“Hey guys! Welcome back from the long day at the studio! I made you guys grilled cheese and bacon.” Mrs. Westtower said.
“BACON!” I screamed, “Thanks Mrs. Westtower you’re the best!” I realized how cartoonish that sounded after it escaped my lips.
“No problem Andy, and don’t forget my name is Laura.” She said placing the platters of food in front of us.
“Thanks Laura!” The guys shouted.
“Thanks mom!” Blade, Niki, Jagger, and Jay said.
“Justine, sweetie, what’s wrong?” Laura whispered into Jay’s ear.
“I’ll tell you later…” Laura nodded and left the room.
“Your mom makes the best bacon ever!” CC yelled.
“I know! It’s a family secret though…” Blade moaned.
“I know it! I know it!” Jay taunted him. I just shoved my face into Kraft singles grilled cheese and bacon. Yum. I looked over and saw that Jay hasn’t touched her plate, not once… She got up and brought it into the kitchen. I tuned out the guys and listened in on Jay and her mom.
“Mind explaining what’s going on?”
“I took a DNA test… you know, to find out who my biological mom is. To maybe understand a little bit more why she gave me up.”
“Yes, I know this. You told me before. So what’s the problem?”
“My birth mom is Amy Biersack… Andy’s mom… And that just doesn’t make any sense now does it? Why a woman who already had a son would give up a daughter she was clearly eligible to take care of… Was I not good enough for her?” Jay lost her heat on the last question.
“Honey… Oh my… I don’t know what you’re feeling, but I know that you grew up with a family that loves and supports you. And Amy must have had her reasons, but by fate you and Andy are together again. And now you know that you have 4 more brothers to look out for you, I’m not including CC in that count because you’re dating him…”
“Thanks mom…”
“You need to eat something Jay, I don’t care what it is. Eat something…” Jay walked back into the room and I focused on my plate.
“I know you heard everything…” Jay whispered to me as she sat back down. Jagger, Blade, Ash, CC, and Jake were playing hand-egg.
“Your mom is right though… We’re a big family, related or not. And you grew up with people that support and love you for who you are…” I whispered back. I got up and joined the guys in hand-egg.
Time lapse to rehearsals
Jay’s POV:
So today’s the day… The day that we officially start practicing for the tour and the day that I see Matt again… I thought to my self as I dragged myself out of bed. My phone buzzed.
Minnie! I miss you! BE READY IN 15 MINUTES BECAUSE WE LEAVE THEN! CC wrote.
Mickey! You’re right next door to me, just come in here! I wrote back.
“Fine…” I heard him sigh outside of my door. He walked in.
“What? You were… never mind you’re CC…”
“What’s that supposed to mean?” I chuckled and got dressed. CC was laying on my bed, so I crawled on top of him and kissed him. We were like that until Blade walked in.
“WHAT THE MOTHER_FUCKING SHIT RIGHT NOW JAY?” He screamed. I jumped off of CC and landed on the floor.
“Ow…” I moaned.
“Let’s go!” I heard Jake scream from downstairs. The doorbell started ringing one billion times.
“NIKI I’M COMING!” I yelled.
“TOO LATE JINXX LET ME IN! HE CLAIMS THAT I WAS GIVING HIM A HEADACHE!”
“Really? You have to scream in my ear?” I heard Jagger groan. I ran downstairs and straight into the car.
“Wait Jay… You didn’t eat anything, go grab food…” Ashley said.
“I’m fine, I’m not hungry…” I said softly.
“You said the same thing last night, you need to eat something…”
“I’m fine. I’ll eat when we get there.”
A while later we pulled into the parking lot of the rehearsal space.
“You know in a week we’ll be back in California, and in three we’ll be on tour…” Andy whispered, “I can’t wait to tour… I’ve missed it… Let’s go tour… Wait we are…” He was mumbling to himself. We walked into the studio and I remained silent.
“Let’s get started, shall we?” Andy asked everyone. There he was sitting there, Matt… all of those years of hatred and he’s still sitting there.
“So the set list is as follows… each band gets to play five songs… except for us because we’re the main band… but you know what I mean… You can play up to three covers if you want to or all of your own stuff…” We all nodded and listened, “Just if you’re covering a band make sure the other band knows so that way they could know not to play the same song…” Our band shot second on stage, so we were second to practice. Our set list was:
-2 of my songs
- A cover of D.R.U.G.S.’s The Only Thing You Talk About
- A cover of sleeping with sirens’ Do It Now Remember It Later
-And a cover of Fall Out Boy’s The Phoenix
I sang back up until The Phoenix, the guy’s know that that’s my song… and now I got the chance to sing it to the person I always did in my head.
“You are a brick tied to me that’s dragging me down. Strike a match and I’ll burn you to the ground, we are the jack-o-lanterns in July setting fire to the sky. Here it comes this rising tide, so come on. Put on your war paint. Cross walks and crossed hearts and hope-to-dies. Silver clouds with grey lining.
So we can take the world back from a heart attack. One maniac at a time we will take it back. You know time crawls on when you're waiting for the song to start
So dance alone to the beat of your heart
Hey young blood. Doesn't it feel like our time is running out? I'm gonna change you like a remix. Then I'll raise you like a phoenix. Wearing our vintage misery. No, I think it looked a little better on me. I'm gonna change you like a remix
Then I'll raise you like a phoenix
Bring home the boys and scrap, scrap metal the tanks. Get hitched, make a career out of robbing banks. Because the world is just a teller and we are wearing black masks. "You broke our spirit," says the note we pass
So we can take the world back from a heart attack. One maniac at a time we will take it back. You know time crawls on when you're waiting for the song to start
So dance alone to the beat of your heart
Hey young blood. Doesn't it feel like our time is running out? I'm gonna change you like a remix. Then I'll raise you like a phoenix. Wearing our vintage misery. No, I think it looked a little better on me. I'm gonna change you like a remix. Then I'll raise you like a phoenix. Put on your war paint. The war is won. Before it's begun. Release the doves. Surrender love (Wave the white flag!)
Hey young blood. Doesn't it feel like our time is running out? I'm gonna change you like a remix. Then I'll raise you like a phoenix. Wearing our vintage misery. No, I think it looked a little better on me. I'm gonna change you like a remix. Then I'll raise you like a phoenix. Hey young blood. Doesn't it feel like our time is running out? I'm gonna change you like a remix. Then I'll raise you like a phoenix
Put on your war paint” We ran through the set a few more times and then it was the guys’ turn. I went to the bathroom.
“So how’s the little emo girly doing these days?”
“Matt… leave me alone…” I said through gritted teeth.
“Why should I? I mean at one point we were such good friends, right?” I felt the warmth of his breath on my neck. I turned to face him.
“I said leave me alone…” I said once again. He grabbed my wrist and I winced. I’ve been trying, I really have… but it’s those guys… those “Matt”s. Check twitter… it’s been a top trend for a few days now…
“No, why should I?” He asked and smirked. He pushed me into the bathroom, since we never actually entered.
“Matt get OFF of me!” I tried pushing him away but his grip just got tighter. He pushed me into a wall and I blacked out.
“Jay! Jay! Jay! Wake up! Please…” I heard CC begging over me. My eyes fluttered open and I was on the floor of the bathroom.
“What happened?” I mustered out of my mouth.
“It’s was Matt he beat you up badly…” I heard Blade say. I realized that I was covered in CC’s leather coat. I knew exactly what happened… that fucking bastard. I sat up. Jinxx tried to place a hand on my shoulder and I jerked away.
“Don’t touch me…” I whispered hoarsely.
“Sorry…” He whispered.
“Guy’s please leave…” I said once again. Niki handed me a fresh set of clothing. I slipped into them and did something that I haven’t done in almost a year… it wasn’t my arm it was my stomach and my hips, that’s the part that was almost a year. I left the bathroom and walked into the hallway, with the police. I saw them talking and I looked out the window; there was Matt sitting in the back of the police car. CC was eyeing me.
“You should of put more pressure on it if you realized you were wearing a white shirt…” I looked down and saw red dripping through.
“Come on…” He carried me back into the bathroom and helped me take off my shirt carefully, “This may sting, but hot water should help.” I flinched as it touched my skin. CC held my hand the whole time.
“Why do you still love me?” I whispered.
“Because you’re beautiful and hilarious and amazing, why do you ask that?”
“Because I’m a fucking mess that can’t get my life together…”
“No, you are my girlfriend so something must be right.” He looked into my eyes almost like he was searching for an answer to something.
“Justine?” I heard a voice call.
“She’s in the bathroom…” CC called back.
“When you leave the bathroom would you mind if I escort you to the hospital?” The same voice called.
“Okay.” I croaked. And just when I was going to leave CC pulled by the waist and held me tight against his body, our lips pressing each other’s.
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1/12/14