Bullied

*next day*
I walked to school while listening to very loud music. I tried to make me stop hearing my mind. It made me go crazy. It was impossible for me to sleep tonight.
Thoughts were just instantly crossing my mind. Fear was running through my veines. I was scared and nervous as hell.

Since I saw Felix arms I was afraid. I mean really afraid...
Who did that to him?
Maybe our classmates ..

They were badly brought up anyway and had no respect, so why not? They might have problems with their aggressiveness.

A shiver ran down my spine...

Felix had so many wounds on his arm. It looked really painful.
Who said I'm not going to end up like this? Who said I'd be safe from this?
I wasn't safe. Neither from self harm nor from violence of other people.
I was scared of becoming mental ill... or being abused.
I had to do something... but what? There was no way to live 100% safe, but there had to be a way to reduce the chances...
Were I'm going insane? Was it weird to think about that?
I became unsure about nearly everything I was thinking about.


I had to turn my music off - I was about to enter the school#

"Hey" a female voice from behind interrupted my thoughts "Are you gay?"
I turned around. Who the hell asked questions like them in that way?!
It was a stranger....
"No, but are you stupid?" I had a disturbed look on my face. Who did she think she was?
"You were hanging out with Felix" another girl joined our 'conversation'
"And that makes me gay? So then you two are lesbians, I see." I turned around again

They whispered and started to giggle. They were talking about me, weren't they?!
"Who do you think you are? You don't even know me so why do I have to be your theme of the day?" I sighed.

The day started as wonderful as expected. And it was about to become worse

"C'mon! ...Here's the deal: if you beg you won't get as hard punched as usual"
One of those bastards pushed Felix against the wall. Of course his 'cool' friends were surrounding him - laughing and shouting for more.
"I told you to beg!"

Seriously? SERIOUSLY?!?
I already saw how they abused him verbally, but now physically?
How can they do such a thing to a slight boy like him? He's broken already. His arms are already fucked up. What do they want from him?

"Hey" I tried to get their attention "let him go"
But they either ignored or didn't hear me.
The boy put more pressure on Felix "Do you even listen?!?"
~That's it.~ I thought very upset as I pushed the 'fans' away to get to this bastard.
"Let him go" I told him again.
"Leave, it's not your buisness" that guy answered cold-hearted
I was so angry... I pulled him away from Felix and pushed him against one of his friends. The ones around us laughed.
"What did I tell you?!" the guy said "Who do you think you are, novice?!"
Instead of paying him attention I helped Felix back on his feet again "Are you alright?"
He nodded. I wanted to see his mood but he hid his face under his hair again.
That guy grabbed my collar "I'm gonna let you go - because you're new. But don't think I had grace the next time."
He let me off and then left with his friends still mocking him but he ignored them.

Suddenly I had a little bit respect in front of him. He was able to kick me until I laid on the ground - but he didn't. Instead of entertaining his friends he let me go and became teased
I stared at him until he disappeared after turning into another corridor

Someone pulled a bit on my arm. It was Felix who tried to get my attention "Did he hurt you?"
That was so cute. He was so small he couldn't even lay his hand on my shoulder without looking weird.
I shook my head "No... do you know his name?"
"Kevin" Felix answered

Did this guy really leave because I was new? I couldn't believe him. The kids on this school were usually agressive and grace was foreign for them.
He really interested me...

Notes

Here's a longer chapter after all these short ones x)