They don't need to understand

Andy~

The faint beeping of the heart monitor gave me a small glint of hope that she would pull through I sat there silently crying, holding her hand lightly in mine. "Its not your fault" Ashley spoke resting a hand on my shoulder and handing me a coffee, I sighed, "It is... if I hadent of been such a dick, and put stress on our parents, they wouldn't have extended the honey moon and she wouldn't be here right now she wouldn't be-" "Andy, Stop, nothing you could have done to stop it, so far she's fine" I sighed and let more tears fall, he walked out of the room and left me alone again. "Please" I sobbed "Not like this, You're all I have Mer... Please..." I held her hand tighter, in hopes she'd squeeze back...

Meridia~ I was dead.. I was sure of it, I felt nothing, heard nothing, saw nothing... Then It hit me, Pain, raging migraine... Throat burning, wrist stinging slightly, I felt a hand clasped around mine, I heard the heart monitor... and... Andy, He was... Crying...
Despite the fact that my senses were back I couldn't squeeze back, or let him know I was okay... "I'm so sorry.. Oh god.. Please dont die..." I felt his tears hit my hand
"Mr. Biersack?" I heard a deep voice "Yea?..." "Is she awake yet?" He questioned "There are some thing's I need to go over with her..." He cleared his throat "Is there something wrong?!" he sighed "Lets just wait till she's awake" Then I heard feet leave.

"Please... Just squeeze back" I heard him choke out as he squeezed my hand, Slowly I coiled my fingers around his hand I heard him let out a small gasp "Meridia.. Please, Open your eyes.." heard him choke out, and slowly, but surely, my eyes opened, to a stark white room, taking a deep breath I fully smelled the antiseptic and stale aroma "A-Andy" I choked out "Shhh, Yeah, its me, I'm here" He whispered giving the top of my hand a kiss "I-I'm, S-So-" "Shhh, Don't strain yourself, It's okay, don't be sorry, I understand, All I care about is that your okay now.." I let a tear fall as he said that, More and more fell and soon I was struggling to breathe "Hey, hey now" Andy cooed crawling into the bed with me "I-I c-cant, A-Andy im sorry" I choked out "Meridia, Listen to me... You need to calm down" He whispered in my ear "Stop being sorry and just breathe, Okay?" I nodded and took a deep breath.

About half an hour later the doctor came back in, "Ah, good to see your awake" He said smiling "Now, theres some serious things we need to talk about. So would you like him to stay or go" he gave a serious look.. fuck. "He- He can stay.." He let out a big sigh "we ran some tests, everything seems to be going good but... There might be trauma to the baby" My heart stopped "wait.. what?" I choked out "Well you see, the amount of alcohol you consumed was dangerous enough to you, imagine what it did to the-" "No, I mean... Im pregnant?!" I single handily accidentally might have killed my baby...


The next few weeks went in a blur.. The doctors kept me at the hospital for some therapy shit., After Andy heard the news he stopped coming around. Come to think of it, None of the guys came around.... I fell into a silence, I wouldn't talk to the nurses.. Or even Abby..

Abby~ "Meridia, Please.. Say something.. Your scaring me." I sighed as I paced around her small room, Stark white walls, and florescent lights that gave you a head ache.. "I spoke to Andy the other day..." nothing... "He... Meridia... He's really busy with the band things" She slowly looked at me and pointed to the pen and paper beside her.

)I dont know if Andy's told you but Im pregnant...( I gasped "You mean..." She shook her head )It could be Ashley's... But im not sure....( My jaw dropped "When, and why didnt you tell me" )Night of the snow storm, and because a whole bunch of shit happened( My jaw staid wide open "Meridia... Does he know? Does Andy know?" Her eyes were filling with tears "Sorry,... I'll drop it..." She sighed and started writing again )Is he ever gonna come back :/ and if he does... Tell him that i haven't spoken to anyone and im not ignoring him...( I looked at her broken expression "He said he's coming in tomorrow. And he already knows..." I watched her as she closed her eyes and as a tear fell from them "Do you want me to go now?" She slowly nodded....

Meridia~

As I lay there. In complete silence. I think of how bad I fucked this up... I was PREGNANT for gods sake im only 17.... This isnt okay,.... My thoughts were interrupted by a door opening "Mer, hunny... Andy and Ashley are here... Do you want them to come in?" barb, my nurse, asked sweetly I slowly nodded "okay" she smiled before leaving.

Minutes later I heard two pairs of feet enter the room "Hey... Mer... Sorry we haven't been coming around allot... Uh good news is you can come home today.." His voice cracked "Please say something... I'm so sorry...." he sniffled "Meridia..." Ashley spoke "We're all really worried" he sighed moving some hair out of my face "i..im...sorry..." I whispered Andy grabbed my hand tightly "No, Dont blame yourself... Dont you dare.." his voice was harsh but his words kind...

We got back home and the first thing I did was surprisingly turn around and throw my self at Andy, His arms instantly wrapped around me, in a protective way, That's... When I finally let it all out, he slowly pulled away and looked at me "D-did you tell anyone?" He shook his head "I'll go put your things away, go sit with Ash Ok?" I nodded and walked over to the couch.

"A-Ash.." He looked at me "yea?" "Uh, Remember... that night... the snow storm..." he nodded. then stopped "Oh fuck." I started to shake, and my breathing quickened "No, No dont do that.. Meridia" He quickly snapped out of shock, And tried to stop my on coming panic attack "Meridia, Look at me.. Okay? everything's fine" I shook my head "No... No.. He. he cant.. It.. No... Ryan. I was dating... No its Ryans.. it wold be to early for it to be yours...No...." I wasn't making sense.
"If it is, by any chance mine. I swear, I will be the best-" "If by chance what is yours?" Andy questioned walking back into the living room and I let out a sob, Ash held me tighter.

"The baby...." Ashley spoke I duct my head into my arms and curled myself into a ball "See the thing is the night-" "Why are you acting all scared, I dont give a fuck, haha. It's not like she's under age or i'm dating her, as long as you dont hurt her. and help with the child.

That calmed my heart down.. Maybe things are turning around....

Notes

SORRY IT TOOK SO LONG MY LOVES