Carolyn (Andy Biersack love story)
Starbucks isnt always life
Carolyns point of view
‘Why are you crying, get up and stop feeling sorry for yourself. You brought this apon yourself, if you didnt go and fall in love with a rockstar, like the idiot you are, you wouldnt be in this little situation now would you’ I thought to myself.
“idiot, idiot, idiot, idiot, idiot, idiot, idiot…..” i whispered to myself, staring at the ceiling. It felt like forever before morning rose, as i lay there still whispering the same words over and over agian to myself “idiot, idiot idiot idiot idiot, idi-” i was rudely cut off
“Carolyn stop, you may be stupid at time but your not an idiot” lindsey said, is she trying to comfort me. Probably just so she can get answers out of me.
“Idiot, idiot, idiot, idiot idiot idi-” i was continuing before she stopped me by covering my mouth with her hand.
“Stop it now” she said sternly
“Or what” i paused “exactly, idiot, idiot,idiot i-” i was cut off once again by her hand connecting with the side of my face.
I looked at her, she looked back terrified of what i might do. I grabbed her hand twirled it around the back of her neck, taking the other hand twisting it also putting it behind her neck. I placed my knee on her waist making her go down to the floor. I kept them behind her head as i sit on her stomach. “Stop, stop, oww, get your fat butt off me” she said. With that i slap her straight across her face with the amount of strength she used with me last night. A single tear ran down her face as her cheek stings the same amount as my own did last night.
With that tear i burst like a dam that sprung a leak, i let go of her as i hugged her with a huge amount of force. She stroked my hair trying to soothe me through touch, knowing shes not good with words i allowed for this to happen.
“Shhh, baby girl, everything will be okay, i mean you have ronnie now dont you” she said with a smirk on her face
I pulled away from the bone crushing hug and looked at her with a death glare “Did you eavesdrop on my conversation” i ask already knowing the answer, she nodded “Start taking young lady” I said crossing my arms over my chest.
“I was walking to my bedroom and heard you talking” she explained, lame excuse.
“Well, i guess i got him” i said.
Our phones buzzed at the same time, twitter.
‘Ronnie Radke brakes it off with his fiance today’ it red.
“He asked me out while he still had a fiance” i say to myself “Oh my god, what have i done”.
“What are you talking about Carolyn” Lindsey asks looking concerned
“I broke Ronnie and his fiance up, im so stupid” i say to myself more so than Lindsey.
“Its okay Carolyn, he broke up with her because he didnt love her anymore” she tried to sooth.
“Love, i broke up love, they have a baby together, im a home wrecker, oh my god, im so stupid” i say again “IDIOT, IDIOt, IDIOT, you are a home wrecker that cant keep a guy for more than 48 hours without him running back to his ex can you, i bet Ronnie will do the same” i said to myself “if you will excuse me i have to use the restroom” i lied getting up. Before i could get half way to my bathroom i was tackled to the floor by Lindsey. “I know what your doing and i will not allow it” she said holding my hands down, being sure not to touch my wrists, I could have taken her but i didnt try to fight back knowing shes right, first time for everything right.
“Okay, Okay, i wont do it” i said pushing her off and standing up myself. “Wanna go to Taco bell or something” i ask with no emotion.
“Sure” she answered
We both got our shoes and i put on the warped tour clothes that i had washed yesterday. I grabbed the converse, one of them had a hole in them from the glass, my foot still hurt but i have learned to ignore it. Welp thats too bad, beggers cant be choosers right, so i put them on and we walked to my car. A lime green Camaro with two black stripes down the middle, (look it up on bing images or something) it took me forever to pay it off but i finally did. We got in and drove to the closest Taco Bell and after finishing our food we decided we wanted starbucks and once we got there, we stood in line. We finally ordered, i got a double chocolate chip frap with extra java chips, she ordered an iced caramel macchiato with extra caramel at the bottom. We sat down at one of the tables and someone i never wanted to see walked through the door.
Andys point of view
Since lindsey left, Jinxx apologized, I explained to juliet, she left, and ive been miserable since. She was the best thing that ever happened to me, even better than BVB. I still love her and i will never stop, its impossible for anyone to not love her, even Jinxx said he would still like to be her friend. I decided that i have had enough laying down and writting songs for now, i have literally written our whole next album. I get up and take a shower for the first time since the bus, i put on skinny jeans and a Guns and Roses tee shirt with vans. I wanted coffee so i got into my black Cadillac Escalade and start driving to Starbucks to get my usual Double Chocolate Chip frap with extra java chips. I step through the doors to see an angel sitting at a table with Lindsey, She instantly spots me and runs to the bathroom.
A million things rush through my head at once, what are you gonna say, should you chase her, i want coffee, would she talk to me if i chase her, shes so pretty, would she beat me up once i caught her, does her foot still hurt, i hope not, that coffee smells so good. I was about to start running when my arm was caught by someones hands.
“Dont” lindsey said softly
“But i have to” i said sternly giving her a glare saying ‘let go of my arm’
“Too bad” she said, thats it i ripped my arm from her grasp “so i guess you dont want to know” she said and i stopped and turned around.
Lindseys point of view
Ohh shoot Andy just walked in, i motioned with my eyes for Carolyn to run to the bathroom which she did. Andy started to run to go and chase her. Lindsey think, think! I grabbed his arm and he looked at me with a glare.
“Dont” i said not knowing what to say next
“But i have to” he said looking at my arm then back to me as if saying ‘let go of my arm’.
“Too bad” i said still not knowing what im about to say. He pulled his arm away and i quickly said “so i guess you dont want to know”
“Know what” he ask, all i did was sit at the table and he sat at the chair across from me.
“Shes over you Andy, i know it hurts but you have to except it, shes going on a date with Ronnie when he gets off of tour tomorrow, to be honest she said she doesnt love you anymore” i lied straight to his face about her not loving him. Hopefully he doesnt see right through me, “Im sorry but its the truth” with that i picked up Carolyn and i’s drink and went to the bathroom to get her while Andy just sits there, frozen.
“Its clear, come on” i grab Carolyns hand and pull her through the store, past the frozen Andy, to her nice car.
“Lets go home” i say as she wipes her tears away from her face and starts the car as we drive home.
Andys point of view
‘she doesnt love you anymore’ replayed in my head 1000 times before i get up and go to my car, forgetting all about the coffee. That cant be true, can it, its has not even been a week. Theres one way to find out if this is true.
I dial the number, it rings 3 times before an answer.
Ronnie- hello
Me- hey ronnie
Ronnie- hey man whatcha need
Me- are you and Carolyn going out on a date
Ronnie- yeah, why? Are you not cool with it?
Me- nah im fine man, probably wont see ya later bye Ronnie
Ronnie- what do you mean-
By that time i had hung up, tears ran down my face as i raced home.
I know what i had to do, since the one woman in the world that i actually loved didnt feel the same way. Kill myself.
I grabbed Carolyns painkillers and sat on my bed staring down the pills as my mind had a battle with itself.
Carolyns point of view
Once we reached my house my butt started buzzing, Ronnie was calling, i had to tell him that i couldnt live with myself if we dated since im a home wrecker.
Me- hello
Ronnie- hey Carolyn can you do me a favor
Me- yeah what do you need
Ronnie- i know this sounds weird but i need you to go check on Andy, i think he might do something to himself.
Me- why would he-
Ronnie- just go, now
He hung up, why would Andy do something to himself.
Wait what did Lindsey tell him. “Lindsey get in the car” i yelled and swiftly sat back in the drivers seat.
“why” she asked
“Just get in the car now” i say, she sat down and closed the door
I sped off trying to remember the walk Andy and i took from the hospital.
“What did you tell Andy” i ask, nearly shouting
“Nothing” She answered, i know she was lying, we have been friends forever, i can tell and she knows it.
“Tell me now” i scream
“I told him you and Ronnie are going on a date and that you didnt love him anymore” she said in a hurried panic.
“You what” i yelled as i pressed my foot and the petal almost pushing 100, hopefully no cops are around.
We finally reach the house, i ran to his big door, i cant break through this with my foot, i remember the key under the welcome mat and unlock the door. I ran up his stairs, I slam my body against his door, which wasnt as heavy as the front door, breaking it, i run to him, ignoring the pain in my foot. I quickly knock the pills out of his right hand and jump on him, he easily catches me.
“I do love you, i love you so much, you and only you” i say while putting my face in the crook of his neck.
He chuckled a little and stroked my hair. “I love you to” he says while tears pour down my face.
“Forever” i ask while almost choking on a sob
“And Always” he answers
“Aww, i knew you would get back together” Lindsey interups. i giggle and Andy chuckles a little.
“Shut up Lindsey” We say in unison.
‘Why are you crying, get up and stop feeling sorry for yourself. You brought this apon yourself, if you didnt go and fall in love with a rockstar, like the idiot you are, you wouldnt be in this little situation now would you’ I thought to myself.
“idiot, idiot, idiot, idiot, idiot, idiot, idiot…..” i whispered to myself, staring at the ceiling. It felt like forever before morning rose, as i lay there still whispering the same words over and over agian to myself “idiot, idiot idiot idiot idiot, idi-” i was rudely cut off
“Carolyn stop, you may be stupid at time but your not an idiot” lindsey said, is she trying to comfort me. Probably just so she can get answers out of me.
“Idiot, idiot, idiot, idiot idiot idi-” i was continuing before she stopped me by covering my mouth with her hand.
“Stop it now” she said sternly
“Or what” i paused “exactly, idiot, idiot,idiot i-” i was cut off once again by her hand connecting with the side of my face.
I looked at her, she looked back terrified of what i might do. I grabbed her hand twirled it around the back of her neck, taking the other hand twisting it also putting it behind her neck. I placed my knee on her waist making her go down to the floor. I kept them behind her head as i sit on her stomach. “Stop, stop, oww, get your fat butt off me” she said. With that i slap her straight across her face with the amount of strength she used with me last night. A single tear ran down her face as her cheek stings the same amount as my own did last night.
With that tear i burst like a dam that sprung a leak, i let go of her as i hugged her with a huge amount of force. She stroked my hair trying to soothe me through touch, knowing shes not good with words i allowed for this to happen.
“Shhh, baby girl, everything will be okay, i mean you have ronnie now dont you” she said with a smirk on her face
I pulled away from the bone crushing hug and looked at her with a death glare “Did you eavesdrop on my conversation” i ask already knowing the answer, she nodded “Start taking young lady” I said crossing my arms over my chest.
“I was walking to my bedroom and heard you talking” she explained, lame excuse.
“Well, i guess i got him” i said.
Our phones buzzed at the same time, twitter.
‘Ronnie Radke brakes it off with his fiance today’ it red.
“He asked me out while he still had a fiance” i say to myself “Oh my god, what have i done”.
“What are you talking about Carolyn” Lindsey asks looking concerned
“I broke Ronnie and his fiance up, im so stupid” i say to myself more so than Lindsey.
“Its okay Carolyn, he broke up with her because he didnt love her anymore” she tried to sooth.
“Love, i broke up love, they have a baby together, im a home wrecker, oh my god, im so stupid” i say again “IDIOT, IDIOt, IDIOT, you are a home wrecker that cant keep a guy for more than 48 hours without him running back to his ex can you, i bet Ronnie will do the same” i said to myself “if you will excuse me i have to use the restroom” i lied getting up. Before i could get half way to my bathroom i was tackled to the floor by Lindsey. “I know what your doing and i will not allow it” she said holding my hands down, being sure not to touch my wrists, I could have taken her but i didnt try to fight back knowing shes right, first time for everything right.
“Okay, Okay, i wont do it” i said pushing her off and standing up myself. “Wanna go to Taco bell or something” i ask with no emotion.
“Sure” she answered
We both got our shoes and i put on the warped tour clothes that i had washed yesterday. I grabbed the converse, one of them had a hole in them from the glass, my foot still hurt but i have learned to ignore it. Welp thats too bad, beggers cant be choosers right, so i put them on and we walked to my car. A lime green Camaro with two black stripes down the middle, (look it up on bing images or something) it took me forever to pay it off but i finally did. We got in and drove to the closest Taco Bell and after finishing our food we decided we wanted starbucks and once we got there, we stood in line. We finally ordered, i got a double chocolate chip frap with extra java chips, she ordered an iced caramel macchiato with extra caramel at the bottom. We sat down at one of the tables and someone i never wanted to see walked through the door.
Andys point of view
Since lindsey left, Jinxx apologized, I explained to juliet, she left, and ive been miserable since. She was the best thing that ever happened to me, even better than BVB. I still love her and i will never stop, its impossible for anyone to not love her, even Jinxx said he would still like to be her friend. I decided that i have had enough laying down and writting songs for now, i have literally written our whole next album. I get up and take a shower for the first time since the bus, i put on skinny jeans and a Guns and Roses tee shirt with vans. I wanted coffee so i got into my black Cadillac Escalade and start driving to Starbucks to get my usual Double Chocolate Chip frap with extra java chips. I step through the doors to see an angel sitting at a table with Lindsey, She instantly spots me and runs to the bathroom.
A million things rush through my head at once, what are you gonna say, should you chase her, i want coffee, would she talk to me if i chase her, shes so pretty, would she beat me up once i caught her, does her foot still hurt, i hope not, that coffee smells so good. I was about to start running when my arm was caught by someones hands.
“Dont” lindsey said softly
“But i have to” i said sternly giving her a glare saying ‘let go of my arm’
“Too bad” she said, thats it i ripped my arm from her grasp “so i guess you dont want to know” she said and i stopped and turned around.
Lindseys point of view
Ohh shoot Andy just walked in, i motioned with my eyes for Carolyn to run to the bathroom which she did. Andy started to run to go and chase her. Lindsey think, think! I grabbed his arm and he looked at me with a glare.
“Dont” i said not knowing what to say next
“But i have to” he said looking at my arm then back to me as if saying ‘let go of my arm’.
“Too bad” i said still not knowing what im about to say. He pulled his arm away and i quickly said “so i guess you dont want to know”
“Know what” he ask, all i did was sit at the table and he sat at the chair across from me.
“Shes over you Andy, i know it hurts but you have to except it, shes going on a date with Ronnie when he gets off of tour tomorrow, to be honest she said she doesnt love you anymore” i lied straight to his face about her not loving him. Hopefully he doesnt see right through me, “Im sorry but its the truth” with that i picked up Carolyn and i’s drink and went to the bathroom to get her while Andy just sits there, frozen.
“Its clear, come on” i grab Carolyns hand and pull her through the store, past the frozen Andy, to her nice car.
“Lets go home” i say as she wipes her tears away from her face and starts the car as we drive home.
Andys point of view
‘she doesnt love you anymore’ replayed in my head 1000 times before i get up and go to my car, forgetting all about the coffee. That cant be true, can it, its has not even been a week. Theres one way to find out if this is true.
I dial the number, it rings 3 times before an answer.
Ronnie- hello
Me- hey ronnie
Ronnie- hey man whatcha need
Me- are you and Carolyn going out on a date
Ronnie- yeah, why? Are you not cool with it?
Me- nah im fine man, probably wont see ya later bye Ronnie
Ronnie- what do you mean-
By that time i had hung up, tears ran down my face as i raced home.
I know what i had to do, since the one woman in the world that i actually loved didnt feel the same way. Kill myself.
I grabbed Carolyns painkillers and sat on my bed staring down the pills as my mind had a battle with itself.
Carolyns point of view
Once we reached my house my butt started buzzing, Ronnie was calling, i had to tell him that i couldnt live with myself if we dated since im a home wrecker.
Me- hello
Ronnie- hey Carolyn can you do me a favor
Me- yeah what do you need
Ronnie- i know this sounds weird but i need you to go check on Andy, i think he might do something to himself.
Me- why would he-
Ronnie- just go, now
He hung up, why would Andy do something to himself.
Wait what did Lindsey tell him. “Lindsey get in the car” i yelled and swiftly sat back in the drivers seat.
“why” she asked
“Just get in the car now” i say, she sat down and closed the door
I sped off trying to remember the walk Andy and i took from the hospital.
“What did you tell Andy” i ask, nearly shouting
“Nothing” She answered, i know she was lying, we have been friends forever, i can tell and she knows it.
“Tell me now” i scream
“I told him you and Ronnie are going on a date and that you didnt love him anymore” she said in a hurried panic.
“You what” i yelled as i pressed my foot and the petal almost pushing 100, hopefully no cops are around.
We finally reach the house, i ran to his big door, i cant break through this with my foot, i remember the key under the welcome mat and unlock the door. I ran up his stairs, I slam my body against his door, which wasnt as heavy as the front door, breaking it, i run to him, ignoring the pain in my foot. I quickly knock the pills out of his right hand and jump on him, he easily catches me.
“I do love you, i love you so much, you and only you” i say while putting my face in the crook of his neck.
He chuckled a little and stroked my hair. “I love you to” he says while tears pour down my face.
“Forever” i ask while almost choking on a sob
“And Always” he answers
“Aww, i knew you would get back together” Lindsey interups. i giggle and Andy chuckles a little.
“Shut up Lindsey” We say in unison.
Notes
sorry i didnt post yesterday, but im going to try to update again today
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3/17/15