together we will be unbroken

Ashley falls asleep shortly after crawling into bed. I on the other hand didn't sleep a wink. My mind was reeling as usual. There was a part of me that was like "aaaahhh this is so nice and peaceful. Ya know Lace, this is a nice change and we could really get used to this." And there was another part that was very obnoxious saying,"There is an extremely attractive male specimen in your bed and you aren't fucking him!?!?! What the fuck is wrong with you!!" And then there was the other part of me, the part of me that hates me. The part of me that is the reason I have scars all over my wrists, hips, and thighs. "He's just using you." it says, "Who would want to be with you anyway. No man, especially not this one would ever want anything to do with a piece of shit like you." A thought crosses through my mind. "You know the only way to make those voices go away is to do it right? It's easy, just pick up the blade, run it across your thigh and it will go away. No one would ever know." This thought both kills me, and comforts me. I could just slide out of bed, go into my bathroom and do it.... Ashley's grip tightens around me. Oh I couldn't do it especially if he is in the room. Just imagine him finding out and walking in on me. He would be so disappointed and that would only make things worse.
I spend the remainder of the night just looking at Ashley. Creepy right, I'm turning into a stalker. He's just so... so beautiful. I sigh, "if only you could be mine." I think.
Remember the last boyfriend you had, Lace I want us to be happy but I don't want to be hurt again. And look at you, you still think about him everyday. He haunts your dreams and causes you so much pain.
"Thanks logical, caring side of me."
No problem lost puppy side of me.That causes me to smile. I'm my own best friend sometimes. I look at the clock on my night stand, 8:10.
Well I suppose I should get up and make some coffee. I live on coffee. How else could deal with people and function with the amount of sleep I get.
I slowly shimmy my way out of Ashley's arms, but luck isn't on my side today and his eyes flutter open. "What are you doing? It's to early to get out of bed." God his sleepy voice is sexy.
"Actually it's after eight o'clock."
"That's to early...." he moans.
"Okay just go back to sleep and I'll have breakfast made for you when you wake up."
"Well aren't you just a little house wife." he smirks.
"Just for that you can get your own damn breakfast." I say getting all the way out of bed. I'm not offended in any way, I just want to see what he will do.
He grabs my hand,"Noooo" he whines,"Laci don't go, just come back to bed." he tugs at my hand.
"I'm sorry but there's not much point seeing how I'm already up."
"UUUUUUUGH!!" he growls,"Now I have to get out of bed."
"No you don't you can just go back to sleep."
"Nope no can do. It's to cold without you, and I don't have a body pillow so it's pointless." he says as he climbs out of my bed.
Oh my god his abs!
I just want to lick every inch of his body!!!
Shut up horny Laci I don't need your input here.
But just look at him! Don't tell me you don't want to.
I am looking at him and I'm not denying that I do bu-
"See something you like Rose?" I realize I'm biting my lip.
Thanks Lace. *internal eye roll.
No problem Lace!
His hand lifts my chin, and he comes within an inch of my face."Don't bite your lip that's my job." Well that's a definite turn on..
Yo get it!!!
He smirks and lets go of my chin. Damn it! "Come on I was promised breakfast."

Notes

So what do you think of all of the different sides of Laci? They were really fun to right. Tell me what you think and thanks for reading :)