together we will be unbroken

I groan and try to melt into Ashley, so maybe I can hide from today's responsibilities. Why the fuck do I wake up so early? I realize that I'm not goimg back to sleep and decide that I will het up. My clothes are all in a drawer outside of my bunk and I have to get out of my bunk to get dressed. How am I going to do this without having everyone see me naked? I peek out of the curtain and see two things. 1) everyone appears to be asleep. 2) my towel is hamging right next to me, and I need to shower anyway. Okay Lace, one, two, three break! I roll to the other side of Ashley, jump to the ground silently, grab my towel, wrap it around me, grab some clothes, and sprint to the bathroom. Mission accomplished! I'm so proud of myself. I turn on the water and climb inside. The hot water feels so god against my tight muscles. I swear, little elves come and implant marbles under my skin while I'm sleeping. I shampoo my hair, then I put in conditioner and wait. My hair is curly so I have to leave conditioner in for a bit before I wash it out. While I wait, I decide to take off all of my make up. I begin scrubbing my body, ad my scars slowly come into view. I hate them all. They bring back terrible memories. The ones that I hate the most are the ones from the fire, and the surgeries after. All of those complications and doctor visits. I shudder at the memories. The anethetics that don't always work, the crying, the pain, the doctors that always wanted to know how I felt. I hated it. It made me become more and more introverted and cold. I till have to go get dialysis done every three months, and something always goes wrong, and I end up back in a hospital for a few days. I hate myself for it. I wish I could be as strong as I pretend to be. Wy can't I be normal? I'm a fucking freak of nature! I slam my fist into the shower wall. I guess that all helped me get here though. I mean if the fire never happened I might still be in Ireland, amd I never would have met Ronnie, or Ashley, or any of my friends. I sigh and finish showering. I get out and wipe off the mirror so I can reapply make up. I look loke fucking Quazimodo, and the phantom of the opera's love child. I put green powder on the trail of red scars that cover my body, then I use skin coloured powder. I wish I could get my shoulders but I can't. -After I finish I walk out to the living room. "Everything okay?" Jinxx asks from the kitchen. "Yea I'm fine." It's not really a lie. I'm not upset anymore, juat kind of numb. I always get this way when I look atmy scars. "What are you doing up so early?" I ask. "Sammi's plane comes in in about an hour, so I'm goingto pick her up." At the mention of her name his eyes light up. "Oh yeah she's meeting us here!" St. Louis is one of our last stops. I don't want the tour to end. "I can't wait to meet her!" "Yea she's excited to meet you too. That's all she's been talking about for the past month." He smiles. "Well what can I say, I'm a hot topic." I smirk. "Ues you are." He chuckles. "But seriously though are you okay? I thought I heard you punch the shower." "Yeah I'm fine now." I say into the floor. "I just don't like looking at all of my scars..." "Scars?" He asks. "I've never seen your scars." "I cover them up because they mae me sad." I state. "Oh Lace." He pulls me into a hug. It feels so nice and comforting. "You don't have to be aseamed of them. They make you who you are, amdbthey are a testiment to your strength." He strokes my hair. I need to change the subject. "They're battle scars." I say like Jasper from twilight. Yes I've seen twilight judge me. I really only watch them for Jasper though. "That the are." He chuckles. "Did you learn that accent from your time with Ashley's family?" "No he doesn't let me talk in a different accent." I smile. "I don't blame him." I roll my eyes and smile. "Rose come back to bed...." Ashley groans. "Sorry Cowboy but I'm already up, and you need to be too." "Why????" He grumbles. "Because soumd check is in two hours." I say gently. "You two are so cute." Jinxx smiles. "M not cute." Ashlwy mumbles, and walks over to me. He puts his head on the back of mine, and wraps his arms around my waist. "Not you, just the two ofbyou together."Jinxx states. "Mine." Ashley puls me closer to him. "Yes Ash yours." Jinxx nods. "Nice hair." I chuckle amd try to fix his Alfalfa hair. Notice the word try. "Mmm..." is all he says. "Well I have to go pick up Sammi. I'll see you two in a bit." And with that Jinxx walks out the door. "Come here." I guid Ashley to the couch. I lay him down, then placehis head on my lap when I sit down. I play with his soft, raven hair, and within a minute he is out again. What a I going to do with him?

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