Last night was really awesome, after the guys got their gifts they kept on tickling me and, yeah i was on for a long time before, CC tried to pull the guys away from me, but he didn't succed, Well Ashley did, he kept on saying it's mean to me, and that i didn't do anything wrong, and i like how Ash keeps on protecting me, does he really have this much feelings for me?

"Ash.. thanks again" he smiled at me

"You are welcome babé"

I want to kiss him right now, who could resist Ashley Purdy, the answere is simple... No one! his a god himself, or to be more specefic a Sex God! and to think that he finds me sexy, well i don't blame him, i know i look beatuful but sexy, no im not! anyway back to what i was about to do to Ash, i leaned towards him, i think he so me doing the look Kiss me please because he moved away and sat down on the bed besides Jinxx, and i'm sitting on the floor with CC and Andy.

"So guys.. do you wanna play a game, or are we going to be lame all night?"

Then Jinxx looked at me laughing "We could go to the beach, or sit here and play to many video games again" He knows how to make everything funny, when you don't know what to do or say.

I got op and got close to Ash again, but this time i didn't want to kiss him i just said "Ash move your ass and let me sit besides Jinxx while you decided to go or not" then i leaned into his ear and wispered I'm taking my bikini on, and it's kinda a sexy one he smiled at me and sat down at the floor with that dirty smile of his.

In all that time when the guys were packing Ash stared at me all the time, i think he's having some dirty thoughts about me in my bikini, and i wanna see him his boxers as well..

At the beach i decided to talk to Jake and Jinxx while Ash was playing catch with CC and Andy in the water, sometimes either Andy or CC would slip and fall on their backs in the water, and we laughed really hard every time, and for Ashley he laughed at them to, so Andy and CC had planned to take him down to, then i tossed a ball out to the boys,so they got a better change at hitting Ash and distract him before pushing him under the water.
That may be mean but it's so funny to watch when he is teasing me all the time to, Andy ran in the water towards Ashley when CC tossed the ball at him, then Andy catched Ashley's lega and pulled him down under the water, making him take Andy with him while CC laughed.

Then back to Jinxx anf Jake, but CC,Andy & Ash are still trying to get each other under the water.
Jinxx didn't say that much when i began the conversation, but Jake was just Talking and talking about Ella

"Kea have you ever thought about marrying some one, or should i say Ashley prehaps?" he said
with a big smile on his lips

"Marry someone..hmm.. wait you said Ashley... no .. i .don't .. think" then i blushed alot and hide under my blanket Jinxx laughed while saying

'" Aww you like him alot don't you"

"I do but don't tell him that, i'm blushing to much"

"Hey he's coming this way now Kea" I looked out from the jacket and yes Ashley was on the way here, then i got up and ran fast to the bathroom close by..

I'm so freaking out right now, how does Jake know i like Ashley that much, has Ash told him or? Well i'm not going back there right now, i'm blushing to much to do so, then someone knocked at the door " Hey are you alright in there? Kea i'm worried, you looked like you were sick" it was Ash.. not like i didn't expect that, but i was hoping it would be Jinxx and CC that was here asking me if i was okay, and i think the guys knows why i'm in here right now, but not Ash of course.

" i'll be out in a minute Ash..just go back"

then i heard his steps getting further and further away, this was my change to escape, so he didn't see me blushing and asking all kind of questions.While being in there i looked at my phone, i wanted to check twitter, and then i so a girl called Thea, she posted a message saying I want you back my love, i could never forget what we had together then after that i felt tears falling down after i so Ashley's reply I have never forgotten either my love, i want you to babe.....

outside the bathroom
Walking quietly i walked away from the boys but someone pat my head then i turned around to see Ash standing there

"There you are babe.. and why are you trying to run away?"

"Ehmm.. i'm just going for a walk that's all"

I don't think Ash bought that, he took my hand and leaned towards my lips, then my eyes began to tear up again

"Please don't.. i'm.." Then i ran away as fast as i could. while crying.

I can't look or talk to him, he still loves his ex and want her back,and i can't take it anymore i though i was beginning to get happy, but then again his just like all the other boys, they break my heart.. i Don't want this anymore....

Running and running, I'm slowly breaking more and more down inside, my heart can't take it anymore, and i can't look at any of the boys right now i just want to kill myself, my thoughts kept on thinking about a way i could kill myself, but my phone buzz, damn they are all trying to call me, i don't want it please leave me alone, i just want to die...

I'm standing at a bridge only waiting to fall, hoping that i will die quickly and leave this hell and a life!..
The last thing i'm hearing is Please don't jump!

Notes

Enjoy this, it made me cry and laugh ;3 please comment and tell me what you think?